REGINAS POV
I finally finished making my coffee and can now enjoy it. I grab my cup and sit on my sofa. I haven't had time to myself in a long time. Now I'm not sure if I want it. Now that I'm alone my thoughts are able to roam free. I need something to do so I'm not in my head. Maybe a nice book...or some TV...I don't know. As I take the first sip of the day I hear another nock on my door.
I roll my eyes and huff. I grumpily walk to my door and answer it. When I open the door Kathrine is looking at me weird. "What?" "Why are you answering your door in that." "What's wrong with what I have on?" "Ma'am, it's see through, As in I can see right through it and look at your bra." "So? I have nothing to be ashamed of. I love my body. why not show it off?" "You're the mayor. What if it wasn't me who knocked on your door." "I'm at home, witch means I can wear and do what I want. No one should be knocking on my door. If there looking for business they shall go to my office not my home."
"Whatever. Are you gonna let me in or let me freeze out here?" Kathrine asks shivering. I move out the way and let her in. "thank you." She says and rushes to the kitchen. "Where are you going?" I say shutting the door and locking it. "I smell coffee, I want some." I roll my eyes and fallow her.
"Did you hear the news?" She asks grabbing a mug. "what news." "About you and Emma? Someone seen you leaving her apartment yesterday."
"Yes. Sidney came by my house earlier and told me, then explained to me how it would make the perfect story in his newspaper, but not after taking a picture of me in my robe and thinking I was wearing it for Emma."
"That's weird." Why did he show up here?" "I don't know." I shrug.
"Besides that you seem a little off." Kathrine asks while pouring her coffee. "What do you mean?" "You keep going in and out of the conversation. You seem like you're in your head. What are you thinking about?...is it Emma?"
I nod" yesterday at her apartment, after we had sex, She.... told me she loved me." "And?" "And, I'm not ready for that. She's moving way to fast." "Are you sure that's what it's about?." "What?" "After you and Daniel fell in love you got married. Then you got a divorce and couldn't stand the site of each other. "Yes, I am aware of my failed marriage."
"Yes, it's soon for Emma to say the L word but I think apart of you is just scared." "That doesn't even make sense." "Yes it does. You're afraid to fall in love again because you're afraid you'll get hurt again."
My eyes start to water and I walk away to my living room. "Regina?" Kathrine yells from the kitchen. I continue to walk "Regina!"
I sit on the sofa and grab one of the pillows. "Regina, Everytime something happens you run from your feelings. That's not healthy!" Kathrine says folding her arms and standing Infront of me. "So what? It's how I handle things. If I forget about it it's like it never happened. I'd rather it never have happened than feel like there's a problem with me." I say with a tear falling down my face. Kathrine sits beside me and gently places my head on her shoulder.
"There's nothing wrong with you." "Then why did he leave me? Why has everyone left me?" I say crying. "Not everyone has left you. I'm still here, and I always will be. Your parents didn't leave you they abandoned you. That wasn't your fault. That's because of the way they are. They can't see that they've left behind there best child because of there own beliefs. And Daniel was an asshole. I told you that when you met him. He was never good enough for you." She says rubbing my shoulder. "I feel unlovable" i whisper in a soft tone.
"There's someone trying to love you right now. She cares for you." "She only wants sex." I interrupt. "That's not true, and I know you don't think that. You've seen the way she looks at you. There's always love in her eyes when she sees you....and you look at her the same way." " But I don't want to be hurt again." " That's just apart of life. You're going to be hurt no matter what. You're not going to change it by denying yourself love." "I guess you're right." I sniff.
" I always am." She smiles. I laugh a little and she holds me in her arms.
"Now there's someone who's trying to love you...let her"
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the mayor
Fanfic"I wake up on my side still wrapped in Emma's arms and to a long forgotten feeling. The feeling of being lost in your mind and fearing the unknown. I stare off into the distance and think about the last time I felt like this. "
