the last time i saw your stars shine

ferris wheel

a/n

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"why don't you want to have friends, woo?" san caresses wooyoungs head which is laying on his lap. they both sat on the grass. san's back is leaning against a big tree that has it's leaves falling down on the ground. surrounded by a lot of other trees, they were in the forest of course. there's a big place with grass and flowers all over it. sadly the flowers are slowly dying but that didn't matter since the different pretty brown tones of the trees made the scenery better.

"long story." wooyoung only answered, playing with san's fingers which are interlocked with his.

"tell me about it. we have all the time in the world."

wooyoung lets out a long sigh. he really doesn't want anyone to know.

before any word could've been said he heard san started to speak again.

"it's okay. you don't need to tell me if you don't want to. it won't change the way i look at you."

"goddamn why is he so caring?"

"i once had this one friend. the first time I saw him was when he was just randomly sitting on the grass, picking the petals off the flowers. he looked alone so I decided to talk to him. we were both around six that time. we saw each other everyday and there was no way I wanted to separate myself from him. back then my parents owned an orphanage and that's where he was. I don't remember his name, i wish i could. he often used to come to my house and we would hang out together. he was the best friend i've ever had."

"ok the last part hurt." san said acting hurt which made wooyoung laugh and pinch san's cheek. "everything going good what happened next?"

"this went on for years til we both were like fourteen. and uhm how do i say this?"

san raised his eyebrow in curiosity.

"that was around the time i realized I was into guys and i fell for him. I know its wrong to fall for your best friend and even worse was he my only friend. after some weeks i knew i liked him he just was gone. when i asked my parents where he went and they told me a family finally adopted him. but he didn't even say goodbye. i was hurt and i thought everyone would do this to me. i was scared of getting attached to someone like him and end up all alone again."

san sat there listening to every word wooyoung said. he could tell that what happened back then had a big impact on him to this day. he felt bad for what happened to him back then but san felt so familiar with everything wooyoung just told him, it was oddly weird.

"this is why i had a difficult time realizing my feelings towards you and why i was hesitant. but i don't know. at the bus station i just felt such a strong desire to talk to you." wooyoung finally looked at san who is clearly thinking about something. but when san realized the younger was looking at him he immediately shook his thoughts off and looked back at wooyoung. san smiled and caressed the others head, giving him a kiss on his forehead.

"as you said, it was written in the stars." san said which made wooyoung melt in his touch.

"don't you think it was selfish of me?" wooyoung asked. "i mean he finally got adopted and he finally got the family he was wishing for and all i cared about was how i was hurt because he didn't say goodbye. it's kinda stupid."