Write Or Fight

Day 6

Written by itstilliswhatitis

Dear Louis,

As we both know I'm slightly obsessed with the Notebook. Writing letters has always been something romantic to me and now you're being my Noah. I love your letters. I hope we'll continue writing to each other after these 30 days even if it doesn't have to be daily. I can't believe we haven't thought of it before. That therapist was right on the point, we're both musicians and express ourselves in writing form. Last night I listened to some of the songs you wrote to me on the One direction albums and they're so beautiful. It brought me back to that time in our lives and I got butterflies in my stomach thinking of you.

You still give me butterflies though. Every time I see you. You're so beautiful, Louis. I can't stop looking at you. Your eyes, your smile, those long eyelashes, your soft hair that I love running my fingers through. The grey strands suit you and I love that too and I know that I will be equally attracted to you when you're 50 or 80. That will never go away because I love you and I'm looking forward to growing old together. I will probably be bald by then but I guess that's life? We can't all have your perfect genes.

So that's one thing I love about you, the fact that one look at you gives me butterflies and makes me weak in the knees even now, eight years later.

Regarding your mental health, thanks for telling me about it. What can I do? Do you want me to come home? I will. You know I will and that's not something that you would have to feel guilty about. You're my first priority, always.
How bad is it? Is it like how it was after Jay passing? What can I do, Louis? Please tell me. I'm worried sick. I love you so much that it scares me sometimes.

I do all that? I haven't thought about it. Your quirks? Well, every time you talk about your girlfriend Eleanor you can't stop blinking. It looks like a tic. Hilarious if you ask me. Not that you look hilarious (you're cute like always) but the fact that you can't talk about her without blinking. It's like a natural lie detector.

Then we have the Louis fonding over Harry look, a personal favorite of mine. You have this very specific look on your face when you think that I say or do something cute. I can probably think of a dozen more but unfortunately I have to go. I wanted to post this letter before I have to head to the studio. Today is our first writing session.

My question for today is a little more serious. Why are you always so jealous when I have to stunt date someone? Don't you trust me? Is it because I'm bi? Do you really think I will fall for any of them? I could never do that and I'm tired of fighting about it. You've had the same 'girlfriend' for year's and yes in the beginning I had trouble accepting it. I know that I was an arrogant son of a bitch but I have learned how to deal with it. It's not real, just like any of my so-called 'relationships' aren't real. You and I are. We're the real deal.

All the love
Harry

Written by danielpawelthelarry

harry,
my golden boy, i love you.
i didn't know me opening up to you would mean so much to you. i guess it just shows how detached we have been from our relationship, but i'm glad we are doing this. it's been such an eye opener and it's making me reminisce about the good aspects of our relationship.

cant wait for you to come back, maybe this time it will be different. plus i wrote a song last night and liam cried so hopefully that means it's good and not that he thinks my career is going down the drain.

as for your album, it still warms my heart that you call me your inspiration, even after all our faults. i love you darling. you're my muse too, i hope you always remember that. you're always the one for me.

god, your letter sent me on a spiral of memories from our trip to Jamaica, i loved that trip. you, me and a sunny sunset as we listen to the waves crashing on the beach. fuck, i miss those days, we should definitely take another trip.

i love your aura, when you light up a room just by being in it. when you smile and make everyone in the room feel comfortable. just being around you, sitting beside you while we watch a movie quietly, i feel safe.

as for your question, i would love to master the skill of guitar, i'd love to do a solo on stage some day. god i use to be so jealous of niall when he rocked up on stage and banged out on the guitar like it was nothing. sure i can play a bit, but the amount of times niall tried to sit me down and teach me and i would be inches away from smashing the guitar after 10 minutes, is unreal.

my question for you is:
a bit of a silly one, i've been giving you serious ones for the last couple letters so, what would be your final meal? i'd personally get a decent pub meal, bangers and mash with a pint. solid, to the point and amazing.

anyway baby, i'm off to keep writing some songs, writing to you inspires me every day and it's nice being in that flow. also i'll let you know now since i don't want you finding out from the media, i'm being forced to go to Amsterdam with El soon. it makes me want to rip my eyes out but i know there's nothing i can do.
i love you sunshine

yours,
Louis