Write Or Fight

Day 19

Written by itstilliswhatitis

Dear Louis,

I'm really hungover but I guess I deserve that.

I'm not being judgemental (pouting too). I was just surprised that's all. Taylor is a great songwriter.

I was scared senseless on my first tour. Being on that stage by myself was tough at first but I got used to it. You will be amazing on that stage by yourself, getting all the attention you deserve. You get to be in the spotlight by yourself for once. I can't wait for your first tour and I'll be there. I gonna lurch in the back somewhere but I'm not gonna miss your first show.

Even if I love being on stage by myself like the narcissist I am, I do miss the band, being on stage with all of you. We had so much fun. Being on stage as a solo artist and as a band is two different experiences. You can't really compare them. There's a bit more pressure on you to give a good show when you're by yourself. All eyes are on you. I'm not trying to make you nervous or anything. You will smash it!

So you love my nose scrunch huh? Well, I love how you put your hand over your mouth when you giggle. It's adorable! I have spent so much time just observing you. All your ticks, hand gestures, facial expressions, the way you smile, and how your eyes crinkle. I know I sound like a stalker but I love looking at you and "all your little things".

How do you picture our lives 20 years from now? We're hopefully out and can live a life in freedom. We have our special house and a couple of kids. You have written your 1689 album or something like that. Hopefully we're married... I don't even know if you want to get married someday. Do you? If you don't that's totally fine. I don't have to be married to know that I belong with you and no one else.

I have to keep this short. I'm already late for the studio and I think I need to throw up. Sorry, too much information. I'll write a song about you to make up for it (and that letter yesterday).

All the love
Harry

Written by danielpawelthelarry

haz,
i can't help but want you more after that letter. i just really need you right now. sex with you is something that i can't get out of my head, it's perfect. fuck harry, i need you home, just want my hands on you. mark up your skin, hold you close, listen to your sweet whimpers.

angry sex is amazing, but every type of sex with you is amazing. nothing beats morning sex though, so soft, warm and wholesome. fuck, i just want anything you can give me right now. i'm seconds away from calling you, just want to hear your voice.

i want to beg you to come home, i'm ready to end all this just have hold you but i know how much this is helping us and how much we need this letter project. i just really fucking want you right now harry.

let's be honest, our dignity has long gone. i just can't express how intense the need is to just have you next to me now. you make me feel safe, comfortable and i want you to know that no matter who comes towards me, it will always be you in my eyes. i fucking love you and want you so bad, always.

you're my whole world. exactly like that lyric. you're my everything and i can't believe i was so close to letting you slip away between my fingers. as for smoking, you know i've tried to give it up, it's just hard. i know it worries you, but i'm glad you're not pushy on me quitting, i hate when people are.

thumbprint in the shape of a heart? i fucking love that, even if it's a tiny bit 'trendy' and common. haha, i'll ink 'i love harry styles' on my forehead if you just asked me to.

i understand why you were taking a long break, these letters made both of us realise how much we needed one another. we needed this, but it doesn't make me ache any less to hold you.

of course you still surprise me, let's be honest here, not all your surprises are innocent... sometimes harry... god, i'm going to shut up before i have a problem ill need to sort out. but also you surprise me with your odd random knowledge on things.

my question for you is, since on the topic of sex, what's your favourite part of our sex, mines definitely caring for you after. i love how cuddly you get, it's so peaceful and loving. i also love waking up with so many hickeys on my chest, or seeing them on you.

dont apologise for this letter, it made me feel less crazy, like i'm not the only one craving you.

yours,
louis