Write Or Fight

Day 13

Written by itstilliswhatitis

Dear Louis,

I'm in my bed and you're not here. For a split second I always think that you will be when I just have woken up and I reach out for you. I miss you. I feel that same odd emptiness.

I love you for everything that you are and that you will be in the future. I'm so proud of you, I hope you really know that?

Nothing beats Friends. It's a classic. I don't know. I'm usually too tired to watch tv. But I do enjoy baking shows, like the great British bake-off. I can watch a re-run of that, or more fall asleep to it.

Ace Tomlinson? That made me giggle. You're Louis. Your name suits you so well.

My question for today is... let me think. I find it fascinating that we have known each other for so long, but there's still so much we don't know about each other. I'm looking forward to a lifetime of getting to know you. I don't mean that we don't know each other. Of course we do, but you can still surprise me. Do you have any dreams you want to fulfill? Something you really want to accomplish? I would love to make another movie. I had so much fun making Dunkirk. I would love to pursue an acting career as well even if music always will be my number one.

I have to get up and get ready for the studio. Take care, love.

All the love
Harry

Written by danielpawelthelarry

dear harry,
so i did a bit of research... and then deleted my history and sat in bed staring at the walls for a good five minutes. please don't get me started, 'watermelon sugar' ?! really!

also yes, i'll start reading books for you, i gotta up my game and start impressing you with random quotes from classics. spice it up a bit right? haha. honestly though, i love that even if i didn't, you'd still take the time out to explain everything to me. i love how patient you are hazzy. you're honestly perfect darling.

you really brought back 'boobear'? oh god, haven't heard that in a while, it's nice though. you were so caring when my mother died, i guess i never told you how badly i needed you then, and how much you helped me get through it.

you scared me harry, i thought i was losing you for good when we went to that therapist. i'd never genuinely heard you say that you were done with me, but when you did it was like a slap in the face. i'm glad you did though, i can still remember writing that first letter to you and wishing we could just sit on the sofa and talk it out normally, but i know deep down it would have ended with an argument and you slamming that door shut for the last time. i would have never forgiven myself for that. so thank you harry, because if it wasn't for you being upfront with me, i would have never realised how far apart we'd had become.

to answer your question: of course your not too clingy or needy. i was pushing you away without realising it. you didn't do anything wrong darling, i guess we both were in our own heads and not realising what was happening. god, i love when you randomly hug me from behind or pout at me until i give you cuddles and kisses. i love when you join me in the shower just to hug me or talk to me, i love when you call me up randomly just to ask me what i'm up to because you're bored. it shows me you care and you love me. i could never feel suffocated by you baby. i love everything about you.

my question for you is the same one, do you feel suffocated by me? am i too much?

and about the dog, labradoodles are so fucking cute oh my god! can he be black, they look so pretty!

Amsterdam is lonely without you. you know i hate visiting new places without being able to share moments with you in them. wish you were here, i miss you.

yours,
louis