Write Or Fight

Day 24

Written by danielpawelthelarry

hazzzzzieee,
i'm so fucking shitfaced right now, i can barely see the screen but i need to reply. dont want you to feel ignored. grbabibg soeme water wait.

fuck okay so, i love you. haven't said that for a while. i don't think i've stopped loving you since i was 18. when i'm not with you i'm weaker, for fuck sake, i wrote a goddamn song about it dickhead.

fuck, i'm so mad at you. i'm also mad at myself for getting affected by stunts but i'm fucking fragile when it comes to you. it's not our relationship, it's me. i cant change that about myself, believe me i've tried. i'm nobody without you. sure, i'm Louis Tomlinson, but without you it means nothing to me if you're not by my side.

you can't blame me for not trusting you! i trusted you and got my heart broken, please for the love of god, understand where i'm coming from. you say you could never walk away from me but that's literally why we've been writing these letters! i'm fragile, on the edge, hoping i dont fuck us up but then i get hurt for trying. you threatened to end our relationship so i tried for you, i opened up and now i'm pissed and drunk alone in my bed with liam refusing to leave my side because he found me crying in my bed after we came back from the club.

want you? it's more than want you imbecile. i cant live without you. i cant breathe without you. i don't know how to love without you. my body is constantly aching to be touched by you and only you. my hands are lonely without yours holding them and my lips are cold without yours attached to them. i wish it was you beside me, holding me when i'm sad rather than liam. i'm fucking miserable without you, can't you see that?

i want to scream at you from the top of my fucking lungs. i want to say you're a fucking arsehole, a twat and that i hate you. i want to, but i physically can't. i cant get myself to hate you.

it's because i love you.

louis.

Written by itstilliswhatitis

Good morning love,

I feel like I have failed to show you how much I love you when you're so fragile and insecure when it comes to me. I'm nobody without you, Louis and I wrote a whole damn song about it, If I could fly. I still mean every word in that song. I would give up everything for you if you asked me to. I love being an artist. I love writing songs and sing and perform but I love you more.

You get to be mad at me but I don't know how to deal with the sad part. I don't want you to be sad Lou! I'm so freaking sorry for breaking your heart. I'm so freaking sorry that you feel like you can't trust me. You have to let me earn that trust again. Don't give up on me! I can't live without you either. At the end of the day, you and I are all that matters. Everything you just wrote about how you feel about me? I feel the same way and I'm gonna try to make you believe that. I'll be home soon. I'm sorry for abandoning you. I never thought about how that would make you feel. I thought you were tired of me and wanted a break from me. You're not the only one who has insecurities, Lou. My biggest fear is that you will stop loving me one day.

You can scream at me. You can call me an arsehole for hurting you. As long as you say that you love me as well.

I wish I was in our bed with you right now. I want to hold you and ask for your forgiveness. I want to kiss you and tell you over and over again how much I love you. I'm sorry that I'm not there. I'm apologizing so much that my words must feel empty by now. I hate that.

I love you and I do want to marry you one day even if you don't believe me.

Harry

Written by danielpawelthelarry

harry,
you're an arsehole, and i love you.

i'm sitting on the sofa in just boxers, the house is quiet. i made myself a coffee which is currently cooling on the coffee table. i'm smoking, i've been smoking a lot recently, chain smoking packs. i always do that when we argue.

i think i believe you. i have to. otherwise i can't believe a single word you've written in our letters, but i do, i know you love me.

i've cried it all out. i can't help feeling hurt over this and honestly i didn't know what you could do to make it better, i think i just needed time to think it through. all i'm now left with is the feeling of giving up. because i have harry, i cant keep arguing with you anymore.

what's done is done, i'm ready to move on. what i ask of you is no more secrets. no more lies or "withholding the truth". i'm sick of it. i cant handle that, it breaks me.

i want you here, the house is too quiet. i want you to kiss me and help me forget about everything else going on. i need you now. just a few more days right? i don't want to argue when you get back, i just need you to be honest from now on, i'll do the same.

my body feels weak from these couple of days. liam forced me to eat this morning before he left, he's dragging me to the studio at 5, says it will help me out my emotions into songs. i apologise if there's a sad song on the record. then again i might not put it on the album, i just need to get this all out of my system so i can fully forgive you.

my coffee is getting cold. i love you my curly-haired cunt.

louis.

Written by itstilliswhatitis

Dear Louis,

I've learned my lesson. I won't withhold something again, thinking that it's for the better, scared to hurt you. Obviously I did a terrific job at hurting you anyway. No more secrets. I promise.

I looked at your dick when we skinny dipped when we were in my dads' bungalow back at the beginning of the X-factor. I have never told you that.

I'm not trying to diminish the situation or make fun of it. I just wanted to make you smile. Did I succeed?

How did you even get those photos? Are they leaked? I don't want that shit on the Internet.

I'm gonna make it up to you somehow. I know that you haven't forgiven me that easy but thank you for saying that and for trying. I don't want to fight either and I have meant every single word I have written in these letters. I have bared my soul to you and I feel like you have done the same and I'm grateful for your letters Lou. They're beautiful, just like you.

You can write sad songs sweetheart. Don't apologize. Write whatever you want. Put whatever songs you want on your album. It's your album. I'm gonna love it no matter what. I might cry though.

I have to get to the studio. I have ignored everyone yesterday. Six more days and I'll be home.

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

All the love
Curly-haired cunt