Is it wrong to love your idol more than just an IDOL?
I know it's wrong to have romantic feelings for them but I'm afraid that I came too far to go back from where it all started... I know it will hurt a lot in the end but I don't want to think abou...
Today was the best day of my life. I finally met BTS... YAY!!!! I can't express in words how happy am I today... like I talked to them, I shacked hands with them, looks like I'm not gonna wash my hands ever again hehe! well, I even touched Namjoon's dimple and his skin is soft like a baby and-and... wait.
Am I being too happy? Don't you think? *sigh*
If I turn your pages to previous ones then there was a drastic change, wouldn't it be?
Sometimes I'm afraid to become happy...
Do I deserve to be happy?
They (BTS) say that I do deserve to be happy but... I don't want to get hurt again... Plus BTS acts like that with all the armies don't they? So I'm no special to them and Gauravi says that I and they are never gonna happen, 7 men with 1 woman are next to impossible isn't it Diary? (her eyes filled with tears)
Trust me... I do want to think something real and don't want to get my hopes high but it hurts... it hurts to even think of my life without BTS. I know I'm a little too attached to them but now it's too late for me to go back and I don't wanna do that either... Even though it hurts but this pain gives me pleasure, just like it's been said 'ONCE YOU ARE A GROUPIE YOU GOT THEM FOR LIFE' and I'm already in love with them so it's even harder for me to do that. The hardest thing in this world is to love someone who doesn't even know that you exist. Anyways... I'll go now
Y/n went to the washroom and washed her face when there was a sudden knock on the door "Y/n?" Y/n went out of the bathroom and saw Gauravi standing there with a smile on her face "Uh? boya? (what happened?)" "Sorry to disturb you Y/n." "Anni Gwenchana~ What is it?" "I'm out with sanitary pads so can you lend me some?" "Uh? shit! I don't have them either." "Oh no! Fuck my stomach is hurting." Gauravi clenched her lower stomach, Y/n helped her(Gauravi) inside her room and made her sit on her bed "Here... have these, this will ease your pain." she handed her some pills "I'll go and buy some sanitary napkins till the time ok?" to which she nodded and Y/n went out after wearing a jacket. It was dark at night as she walked to the store nearby and bought a few packets of pads and a bar of chocolate for Gauravi.
While walking back home she increased her pace because she was worried for her friend that she didn't notice a car coming towards her, she turned towards the car but its headlights were blinding her and within seconds it pulled up before it could hit her and she fell in shock. A person quickly got out of the car "I told you Jungkook-ah that it's dangerous for you to drive at night especially when you are tired now see what you did!" He ran to Y/n "Miss you ok?" he picked up her bags when he saw a pack of pads and blushed while quickly putting it back inside the bag. "Miss you alright?" he gave his hand for her to get up and she looked up at him but couldn't see his face because he was wearing a mask and a cap so she got up on her own without taking his hand as she was afraid whether the stranger was a good person or not.
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