Scarlett//Natasha x Reader Oneshots

Selective Mutism Pt2

'I promise,' she signs and I bring her in for another passionate kiss.
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After our kiss, we pull apart and just cuddle on the bed.
"So I was the first person you talked to in years," Scarlett asks me randomly
'Yeah, it was usually my grandma and grandpa or Lizzie or a special someone ,' i sign to her
'I want to start speaking but I'm scared,' i sign to her with a sigh
"And that's perfectly fine baby, do it when your comfortable, not because you are being forced to." Scarlett says caressing my cheek pushing my hair out the way
"Y/n! Scarlett! You are need on set!," a set manager says
"Coming!," Scar says and we get and peck each other on the lips then walk out of my trailer going to set
"Great, you're here and this the part is where Natasha questions Loki and Alex's friendship. They get into a argument and after the argument Natasha goes and kiss Steve." Anthony says making my eyes widen to think about Scarlett kissing Chris in my face
I get into places and he yells 'Action!'
"Are you seriously telling me that there is nothing going on between you and Loki?," Natasha asks and I nod
'Absolutely nothing is going on between me and Loki, he's one of my best friends,' I sign to her
"Then tell me why you are even friends with him?," Natasha asks
'Because everybody need somebody and even the devil needs a friend,' I sign and look at her with glossy eyes
She just storms out and I stand there looking broken and after a few minutes of standing there, then I finally walk to find her. I walk past the training room and I start to let tears fall at the sight of Natasha and Steve making out. I walk back out the training room and the door makes a loud noise making them turn they're head.
"Alex it's not what it looks like," Natasha says pulling away from Steve
I just shake my head letting more tears fall and walk out of the compound and head to my car.
"Alex wait!," Natasha yells
'Are you even sorry?,' I sign with frustration
"Of course I am, I-I love you," she says walking up to me
'Do you? I don't think you do. I think you like the idea of me. You like the thought of knowing you have a girlfriend.' I sign and she looks blankly
'When you actually have a reason for what just happened in there, call me. Otherwise I have things to do.' I sign wiping my tears and looking plainly then getting into the car and pulling off.
"I'm sorry," Natasha whispers
Scene Over!
"And cut!," Anthony yells and I park the car and get out going to talk to Anthony and Joesph
"Great job," Anthony says to me and I nod and he lets me go into my trailer until I'm needed for my next scene
I quickly go into my trailer ignoring the one person I can't see right now and walk faster and when I get to my trailer I find my air pods and put on my Spotify playlist and lay flat on my bed.
After a while I write in my journal like my grandma taught me was if I ever had any problems write them down to get them off my mind.

Dear Journal,

I just want to begin with the fact that, I'm sorry to those I have became a burden to. I want to put out music, but I'm to scared of the publics judgement. And yes I know, never care about what others think but that's the problem I can't. I can't handle the pressure. It's hurts not being able to stand up for yourself. I know talking to someone makes you become vulnerable towards them and that's what Im scared for. Why do I have to be so insecure? I can't eat, I'll throw it up or I'll just not have an appetite. I can't stop thinking about death or loss. I know pathetic right. I have been getting severe anxiety and panic attacks and I'm absolutely exhausted. And if your reading this Lizzie know, you are my greatest hope, thank you for everything.

I then close my notebook and put it back in my bag as I see someone walking into my trailer and lay back down face up.

"Are you okay?," Zendaya signs
I nod my head but I know she can see right past it.
She gives me are you sure look. And I shake my head no.
"Can you get Lizzie?," I sign to her and she nods and leave to get Lizzie
Soon Lizzie comes in with art supplies and canvases. In the inside I laugh at the thought but on the outside I just sadly smiles and she returns it. She motions me to take off my AirPods she knows it's one of my go to escapes.
"No one's around now talk to me,@ she says softly and I grab the journal and goes to the 'living room area' and she follow. We sit and I flip to the page I was writing on and hand it to her and she gives me an 'are you sure' and I nod opening the supplies distracting from my brain.
She reads what I wrote and looking at me sadly and tears down hear cheeks.
"Stop, don't do that," I whisper to her
"Right, sorry," she says wiping her eyes
"It's okay, to cry but don't pity me you know how much I hate that." I say whispering and she gives me a hug
"You know we are gonna have to talk about this later right," Lizzie says opening the paint
"Yeah, I know," I whisper starting to paint
"I want you to listening to a song I made," I whisper and she looks at me kinda surprised
And I giggle. I get a knock on my trailer and Lizzie answer
"Yes?" She asks opening the door
"Hi is Y/n/n in there," I hear a voice say
Lizzie looks back at me and I nod knowing it's my sister.
"Hey bubba, how are you feeling?," She asks and I look at her with a sad smile and she sees right past it
"I'm fine," I whisper and she looks at Lizzie
"Can you give us a little bit?," She asks with a sad smile and Lizzie nods
"I'll be back in a bit, I'm gonna pick up some food for your trailer," she says and gives me a kiss on the head and I nod
She finally leaves and Addison turns to me.
"Cuddles?," she asks with Hope and I nod and we walk back to the bed and lay down underneath the covers and cuddle and I fall asleep
*sister cuddles*
I wake up to screaming outside my trailer and loud noises.
I immediately scrunch into a ball and cuddles into my sisters neck, tears in my eyes.
She immediately wakes do to me visibly shaking and calms me down.
"Hey, your okay," she says slightly calming me down
"I'm right here no one's going to hurt you. Breathe for me Bubba," she says and I nod trying to catch my breath
"Yeah, just like that breath in.......now let it out," she says calmly then we hear something outside my trailer
"You two tone it done and get away from this trailer with that mess. Now!," Joseph says sternly and the yelling goes quiet quickly
I hear knock on the door of the trailer and Addison goes to open it and I hold her hand tightly afraid to let go.
"It's okay I'm gonna just open the door.," she says calmly and I look at her with more tears in my eyes
"Please?" I whisper and she nods holding my hand tightly but securely
We go to the door and i stand behind her, her shielding me. She opens it squeezing my hand.
"How can I help you?," She asks the person
"Yeah, hey Addison is Y/n okay?," Joseph asks calmly and softly with a feeling of hope
"She had a slight panic attack from the noises, but she's okay now," she says and step out from behind her
He sighs with relief and I smile at his thoughtfulness.
"Thank you," I whisper in his ear and he gasps and smiles widely
"I am so telling Anthony I was spoken to first.," he says with slight excitement and I laugh and go back to Addison's side and hold her hand again feeling a little tired again.
"Does she have any more scenes or stuff today?," Addison says knowing I get exhausted after a panic attack
"She have one more scene to act out and pictures and dance scenes tomorrow.," He says and we both nod
"She should start heading to makeup and hair now?," He suggest look at his watch and I look at Addison with a pleading look
We both walk off to Hair and Makeup hand and hand and Scarlett's there.
'Shit I guess it's time to face my demons,' I though to myself
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Sorry it took so long
Btw Addison is like 1-2 years older than you and you guys always had a close relationship so it's not weird. 😀
Just know everyone goes through things even if sometimes it isn't visibly