Amelia And Kai

Chapter 4

Amelia's POV
Me and Meredith flew back to Seattle because she needed to talk to Bailey and Webber about stepping down from the residents program. I had craniotomies all day and a video chat with Dr. Kai Bartley to discuss the latest MRIs on the mice of the trial.

I woke up early so I could get to the hospital on time. I took a shower and got dressed so I could go downstairs and get coffee. I walked down the stairs to find Meredith, Zola, Bailey, and Ellis eating cereal.

"Good morning! Zola said

"Morning amelia" Meredith said

"Good morning" I said, sounding more tired than I planned.

"Didn't sleep well again?" Meredith asked. I hadn't been sleeping well because I kept waking up from... dreams.

"No, just haven't had my coffee yet" I replied, pouring coffee into a to-go mug. "I gotta go I have a surgery"

"Ok good luck! Don't kill anyone" Meredith said smiling.

"I'll try not to" I said walking away. As I drove to the hospital I went through the surgery in my head. I did this everyday, it just helped me get into the right mindset.

After I finished my surgeries for the day, all successful I should add, I got a late lunch at the cafeteria. I had an hour and a half until my call with Dr. Bartley. I was eating a slice of pizza when I saw link walk in. I really wanted to talk to him but he didn't seem like he would hear me.

When I saw him walking out of the cafeteria I decided to follow him and see if we could talk.

"Hey link, umm can we talk? I asked nervously putting my hands in my lab coat

"Umm, sure." He said

"So I said no... multiple times, and I stand by that this isn't me changing my mind, but I feel like we need to decide what we your, like define it" I said

"Amelia" link said "I want to be with you, I want to marry you, start a family with you, and grow old together. But if you don't want to do that with me then, just tell me and I'll let you go" he said. He sounded both sad and angry which made me feel like crying, but I didn't want to make him feel bad or anything.

"I do love you... but I don't want to marry you." I said "at least not right now, I'm not ready"

"Ok, then I guess this is it" link said, I looked at him confused because that wasn't what I said, he noticed. "We want different things fundamentally so I think it's best to be done. If we're meant to be then we'll come back to each other. I believe that"

"O-ok umm ok" I said, trying not to cry harder than I was. "I guess that's it then"

"Yeah." link replied, turning around and walking away. I needed to go find Meredith or Maggie. I walked to the OR board and saw Meredith was in surgery, but Maggie had another hour til her next surgery. I walked to an on-call room and paged Maggie there. A few minutes of trying to calm down I was calming down and Maggie walked in.

"Hey, hey, your you ok?" She asked stopping me from pacing by placing her hands on my shoulders.

"Umm me and link your done, like done done." I replied.

"Oh umm okay, is this a good or a bad thing?" She asked hugging me.

"Umm I'm not really sure" I said shakily.

"Hey hey its ok, do you want to go home? Do you want to go to a meeting?" Maggie asked.

"Umm no, I have a conference call in, 20 minutes, then I'll go home" I said wiping my eyes.

"Do you want company? I can reschedule my surgeries if you need someone," Maggie asked lovingly.

"No, no you need to stay and save people, I'll be fine, I promise." I said, reassuring her.