DREAM SMP ONESHOTS

Another Day

Category: Ranboo Others

TW: rant post, mentions of dismembering

Raboo's POV

The suns sunlight glowed a gold tan and I watched the grass sway because of the small wind and watched the butterflies flew around.

It felt so peaceful.

My heart was heavy. I don't deserve to feel this calm. I sighed heavily.

I looked at my lap where laid my crown.

"Keep your head up king! Don't let your crown fall" 

I heard Tommy's voice echoed in my head.

I felt bad for all the people who care about me.

But how am I supposed to open up to them? Tubbo, Tommy, Purpled, Phil, Wilbur...

We haven't talked as much as we used to and it has been going on for months.

Tubbo seems busy with his family... Tommy is busy with school... Purpled has other friends he plays with... Phil and Wilbur have grown up stuff.

I kind of feel like I'm in a bubble. I decided to tell this to them

I opened up our group chat and began to text whats on my mind.

I paused.

Are we even close enough to be opening up to each other anymore? They probably have more problematic issues to deal with... And have other friends they talked to.

I sighed again and backspaced every word on the text bar and turned off my phone.

I miss them..

I got up from the ground and began walking back to my house.

The house was noisy. I could hear my family talking about my grades. But my head decided to mess with me by reminding me the words they said in the past.

"You're doing good, keep up the great work" 

"If you don't finish your essays or assignments on time.. You'll get it"

"Disappointment"

"How many times do we have to remind you about this?!"

Everything feels so disorganized and it was irritating me so much.

I felt my eyes blinked repeatedly and my neck was tense. My whole body felt so irritated. I stomped on the floor without thinking and rushed to my room.

My chest was getting heavier and heavier and everything felt hot.

The lights were too bright.

The background noise was so loud like the ac, my family talking downstairs, and my breathing.

My clothes feel like it was suffocating me.

I felt like I want to dismember all my body parts.

My intense repeated blinking was giving me a headache and it was annoying me but it felt like I couldn't control it.

I covered my hands with my palms to try and calm me down.

My wrists felt hot like it was in need of pain.

Everything ached but I believed this was just all in my head.

"Calm down. Wtf is wrong with you?" 

I told myself and I "woke" up from my surroundings.

I felt thirsty but my body didn't want to move.

Do you know that feeling where you want to move but just cant?

Thats what I'm feelings rn.

I could hear the battling in my head again to just stand up and hydrate myself but I physically cannot.

I feel like an irritated child who didn't get what they want and it was irritating me.

This has been happening pretty often and It was saddening me.

I just want my friends back

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I wanted to update but idk what to write about so I hope you enjoyed this update!!

Have a nice day <33