Change of Heart

Chapter 15

"When your ex asks if you can still be friends right after a break up, it's like having a kidnapper tell you to keep in touch."

-Alice Johnson

I woke up with Lawrence's arms wrapped tightly around my waist. Last nights memories came rushing back to me and I just wanted to scream into a pillow. Looking over at him I saw he was sleeping soundlessly and I couldn't help but stare at his face.

I wanted to reach out and touch him but I held myself back. Slowly and quietly I got out of the bed and retrieved my clothes. After placing them on I left his cabin and headed to mine. When I'd reached my cabin I entered it, locked the door, and then paced around the room.

My mind was spinning right now as I had no clue what to do! Sighing heavily I stopped pacing and instead grabbed some clothing and went into the bathroom. All I knew is that right now I needed a bath. Turning on the water I then stepped into the shower and let the water run on me as I closed my eyes and thought about things.

I still needed to know what we were. This all had started out at first as a game but now feelings were involved, specifically my feelings. After I contemplated some more I finally just finished up showering and wrapped a nearby towel over myself. Grabbing another I dried my hair then got dressed.

Back in my room I was about to sit down but before I could someone knocked on the door. I don't know why but my heartbeat sped up. Probably cause I'd thought Lawrence would be waiting at the door. Calming down my beating heart I went over to the door and asked "Who is it?"

"It's me!" The familiar voice said.

I sighed in relief as it wasn't Lawrence. Chuckling I asked "Who's me?"

"Stop playing, Al! Just let me in already!"

Laughing I opened the door and let Julie inside. "What can I do for you?"

"I just came to fetch you for breakfast. Though I'd for sure thought you'd already be there with Lawrence."

At the mention of his name I couldn't help but tense up but I came to my senses before Julie could notice. "I'm surprised you're here," I said as we left out the door. "I thought for sure Mat and you would be walking hand and hand together to breakfast."

She blushed and shoved me playfully. "Shut up! It's not like that."

"You sure? He and you have sure been getting comfy together. It's none of my business if you two are going out but if you are then I'm glad it's at least Matthew. When you get to know him he's not such a bad guy as people at the school plague him as."

"You're making him out to be the best boyfriend to have. What happened to the Alice that couldn't stand him or Lawrence?"

"Nothing! I still can't stand him but its more of in a brother and sister kind of way. And if you two go out and he breaks your heart I'll have easy access to kick his ass."

She chuckled then bust out in laughter. "You're such a little rebel!"

"And you're my sidekick! That makes you a rebel too!"

We burst into laughter as we entered the main cabin. My eyes scanned the room and I saw Lawrence was sitting next to Mat. Our eyes ended up connecting and a huge smile broke out on his face. A blush rose to my cheeks and I quickly averted my eyes.

I'd went over to the table where I took a seat... Next to Josiah. He gave me a funny look and I couldn't help but scrunch my face up in vexation. "Why are you looking at me like that?"

He chuckled. "It's just weird that you're sitting by me. You'd usual sit with Julie and the rest of the Scooby Doo gang."

I rolled my eyes at his attempt of a joke. "I thought this was a free country? Can't I sit where I want to?"

He held his hands up. "No need to use the first amendment against me. Do as you please. But just so you know your boyfriends looking over here."

I immediately knew he was talking about but I didn't look to see if he was telling the truth. "He's not my boyfriend!"

"And Chris and I aren't together" he said sarcastically. I groaned and ignored him as he laughed. As I began packing my plate with stuff I couldn't help but squirm in my seat. Why?

Because I could feel Lawrence staring at me from afar.

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I grabbed my clothes out of the dressers and threw them in my bag. Josiah informed us that we'd be leaving right after breakfast and I'd forgot to pack with all the distractions. When I'd finished breakfast I was the first to leave as I needed to pack and cause I was avoiding Lawrence.

He'd try to talk to me at breakfast but I couldn't face him. Every time I looked at him last night memories resurfaced and I didn't want to think about that. Sighing I zipped my bag up and checked to make sure I had everything.

Coming back into my room Julie suddenly came into my room unannounced. "What can I do for you... Again?"

She squinted her eyes at me giving me a 'you're not funny' look. "I want to know why you're avoiding, Conway. Y'know when you don't talk to him he comes straight to me."

"I'm not avoiding him," I lied. "I've just been busy and haven't had the time to talk to him or anyone."

"Busy with what? It's obvious you've been avoiding him. So are you going to tell me why?"

I knew she'd figure it out but I couldn't tell her just yet. I could already tell how she'd react. "I'll tell you later. Promise."

"Fine! But you better keep your promise."

"Don't I always?!"

She rolled her eyes. "That's debate able. Anyways I'll meet you by the car."

She'd left out the door and I couldn't help but feel a bit guilty as I'd forgot to tell her I wouldn't be riding with her, Mat, and Lawrence. I let Diana take my place instead which she wasn't to thrilled about since she wants to be with Walt. But I'd managed to convince her by saying I'd tell Walt wonderful things about her.

Grabbing my bags I headed outside and to the cars. I was glad Lawrence wasn't there as I didn't want him asking questions as to why I wasn't riding with them. Placing my bag in the trunk I went over and got into the back seat. Walt immediately asked "What's up with you changing rides? Something happen?"

"What?! No no no! I just... I don't know. Just leave it be."

He nodded his head in understanding and didn't ask anything after that. When Chris and Josiah got in the car I saw the way they both looked at me and I couldn't help but groan in frustration.

When we finally were on the road I couldn't help but sigh and place my head on the window. All I could think about was one thing.

I'm never going camping again.
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