Infernal Attraction ©

Chapter VII: Burning Desire?

"Your mouth is a portal to the underworld. It's not a matter of god the desires he unleashes". Albert Ribeiro.

—Please, don't leave!

After that sentence, my heart races abruptly, I lose my pride and the strength of taking control of myself. Thus, preventing me from completely leaving his life. I mean...

How could I decline that proposal?

No matter how much I try to reason about it, or how different we are from each other. It doesn't matter all the fears we have, sometimes we must leave them aside because...how can we expect to improve ourselves without taking the risk of facing them? How do we know that under our beds there isn't a creature hunting us if we don't take a look?

That's right! In many chances our fears are concentrated in a catastrophic illusion caused by our own thoughts and emotions. That's exactly what I'm feeling today: Fear. But at the same time, I want to face my fears.

I dare to look into his eyes, and I find a lonely child, a man who's trying to use a shield of money and weapons so no one can hurt him.

I don't understand the magnetic and enigmatic reason that makes me want to be by his side. Let's be honest, I barely know him, but there's something very familiar in him to me, as if our souls have been linked since a long time ago. It's like something is stopping me from staying away, no matter how much I want it.

I wish someone could explain it to me...

For an instant, I go along with my emotions and embrace him. Being over his chest for a few seconds is all I needed to release the heavy emotional load I was carrying on my shoulders since I arrived to this chaotic city.

His arms take a moment to respond, but they end up covering my whole body. I've never felt that I belong to a place or someone. However, it's precisely how I feel right now.

I feel completely naked, and I'm not talking about our clothes, but to be here, transparent and at his mercy, without any protection that could stop me from being his.

A gesture of pain from him takes me back to reality, making me to separate immediately.

—Forgive me! I completely forgot you're wounded.

Ethan kindly smiles and takes my chin with his hands.

Did I already tell you this gesture astonishes me? No? Well, now you know it.

—You forgive me for not being able to hold any longer -he says in a soft and affable voice tone so close to me that my skin bristles.

Ethan notices my admiration, so he stays away a bit, like avoiding to make me crazy as he always does.

He sits down on the edge of the pool as he takes from his pants a package of cigarettes. He puts one in his mouth and proceeds to light it on.

His face goes up to behold the infinity of the sky, embellished with the shiniest full moon surrounded by the shiniest stars.

He takes a few seconds and after a gloomy sigh, he decides to speak to me while he beholds the beautiful Selene, like he was asking her the answers to all his questions.

—Tell me Kailey, why did you move to New York? -he asks me peacefully as he lets out smoke from his cigarette.

I sit down by his side, while I release a deafening lament before answering.

Remembering my past is something that disturbs me a bit. As you never know how much something hurts you until you remember it.

Kailey, don't let yourself be read like an open book. Just let him read the synopsis, he doesn't need more details.