Infernal Attraction ©

Chapter XIII: Mixed feelings?

"Sooner or later, we are all found by love or karma. But sometimes, they get you in the same package". -Joaquín Sabina.

Without letting me to answer his question, his lips voraciously take over mine, his wet tongue goes through every corner of my mouth with an infernal passion. I want to resist, but it seems Ethan has the secret key to make his kisses dance in syntony inside my oral cavity.

This makes me lose control. I've never been so exposed to a man in my whole life.

His possessive hands travel my whole body, making me vibrate out of pleasure. He tries to reach my crotch more and more, but I succeed in stopping him before he could accomplish his objective. He pushes his hip against my pelvis to make clear that he desires me. His body is febrile for having me, and if I don't react immediately, I'll end up as a disposable and silly doll again.

I'm scared, but fear rapidly mixes up with my unfeasible wishes to feel his skin, his rigid and hot excitement for me. This makes me want to take his clothes off, I can't breathe and he notices that. My legs begin to shake, I don't know if it's because of the anxiety of having him inside of me right now, or the feeling of moral guilt the one that makes me question if what I'm doing is actually right.

Ethan quickly notices my uncertainty, so he decides to separate his mouth from mine to say:

━You're dazzling me, princess! Look into my eyes, I'm not lying. -he expresses while panting- But even when you have me crazy for making you mine right now, I know you're scared -he inquires after caressing my lips- Listen to me, Kailey, in one chance I told you I would never do anything you don't really want to, and although your wet body is here to my mercy, it's obvious that your thoughts are somewhere else. So, tell me: Do you really want me to make you mine again? -he asks quite provocative, as his hands take my face to make me stare at him.

When I hear out this last proposal, a stabbing pain attacks my heart directly. It's strange, but in my thoughts there's only that question Aaron did: "Did you...sleep with him?". My own consciousness takes over me by remembering my partner, who was disappointed because of all my stupidity. It's just crushing to me.

Aaron is the only person who has been worried about me since my arrival, it was him who called me with so much insistence to know about my whereabouts. And without any doubt, he's one of the few men I know who would be incapable of hurting me.

On the contrary, Ethan...Ethan just wants to transform me into his expendable sexual toy, the one that he picks up again only when he pleases.

I can't! I can't keep going with this, I've played with fire so much that my body has not recovered yet from the intense burns of the last time. That's why I'm trembling: I'm afraid of falling into the fires of hell one more time and end up losing my vitality.

I refuse to fall into this temptation again. I refuse to keep hurting Aaron, and above all...I refuse to be a slave of this burning desire that is leading me to my doom.

I look at Ethan just for a few seconds, his dilatated pupils are confusing me. His lips told me in a thousand languages that they desire me, his eyes look so sincere that I'm full of intrigue. So, I decide to evade his eyes and answer him:

━I can't do it, Ethan! I seriously cannot -I answer in almost a lament while looking down.

Ethan smiles kindly, puts a hot kiss on my forehead and looks at me for a few seconds. As if his eyes wanted to say something more to me, but he ends up staying away from my body, and to my surprise, he puts his legs back to his place.