The day I met you~

Black day 18+

"I aced the interview, I haven't heard about Jonghyun the whole day, it was a gloomy day, I went out of the office, Kai was waiting for me"

Kai: sooo!????
Me: I got in!
Kai: omgahhh congrats!! We finally gonna live and study together, this is the happiest day, we should go celebrate, have you called Jonghyun yet?
Me: I haven't heard of him since yesterday
Kai: don't worry he's probably busy
Me: let me call him, maybe we'll can go eat, im starving
Kai: go ahead

"I called Jonghyun and his phone was off, I left him a voicemail saying to call me after he hears it"

Kai: what happened?
Me: he didn't answer
Kai: he's probably in SM right now
Me: probably
Kai: do you wanna go with me to pick up some books?
Me: yeah let's go

"We went to the library to buy some books, it was already 12 o'clock and no sign of Jonghyun yet, he usually calls to take lunch together"

Kai: do you wanna go back to his apartment?
Me: yes, I will go and check on roo too
Kai: this is weird
Me: something is off
Kai: im gonna get you an Uber
Me: thanks Kai

"The Uber arrived,I said bye to Kai and I headed to Jonghyun's apartment, it was raining and I didn't have an umbrella, I check on the front desk to see if they had seen Jonghyun and they said no~, I took the elevator and walked down the hall, i knocked the door and didn't heard noise, not even roo barking, I put the door code, the door opened and there was no visible signs of people being there, I heard a scratching noise coming from Jonghyun's room, I opened the door and roo comes running, we go to the living room to feed her since her bowls were empty and I took her down to potty, I went back up and go inside Jonghyun's room again, I was about to do his bed when I felt something"

Me: Jonghyun is that you? Jonghyun!!
Jonghyun: "growls"
Me: are you okay? (He was covering his whole body with the blankets)
Jonghyun: I'm okay (he sounded like he cried)
Me: why are you crying?
Jonghyun: how do you know?
Me: I can hear your voice, you want a hug?
Jonghyun: please

"I was big spoon, As soon as I hugged him he broke down "

Me: please talk to me
Jonghyun: just stay like this
Me: are you gonna tell me what's going on?

"He cried for a whole 5 minutes, i went to the kitchen to check on roo, i checked my phone and looked for the trending news,
1: shin se kyeong married and expecting
2: SHINee Jonghyun's ex married and pregnant
3: shin se kyeong pregnant
And now everything made sense, his ex got married and now she's pregnant, I went back to Jonghyun's room and hugged him again, I talked to him while whispering in his ear"

Me: I know what's going on
Jonghyun: you do?
Me: it's all over the news
Jonghyun: I thought I was over her but I'm not
Me: maybe you are
Jonghyun: or maybe I'm jealous of her lifestyle, she has a life and I don't
Me: you can do it too
Jonghyun: I can't, I can't get married, I can't have kids, if I do I'll be risking my career, I love music more than anything, I just hate being in the public eye , I wish I could make music without being exposed for everything I do
Me: Jonghyun your relationship with her was 8 years ago~~ I know she was your first love and I know that's something you will never forget but you gotta move on
Jonghyun: how?
Me: when is the last time you had sex?
Jonghyun: I'm not gonna share that with you
Me: im guessing long time ago?
Jonghyun: like sex is gonna solve everything~
Me: might, might not but it will get your minds out of things~

"He looked back at me, we were so close,i started to approach kissing him slowly, he didn't move, we just kept going, he wrapped his arms around my waist "are you sure?" He said,  I nodded  and started to take of my shirt, he pins me against the bed and started kissing my neck, I've never been touched before I was just feeling a burning sensation all over my body and I wanted more, his head goes down on me and started licking gentle on me, a little moan escaped my mouth I lead him back to me, he goes on top of me and started to penetrate me, it was hurting but at the same time I liked it, he started to go faster and I wrapped my legs around him then i started to feel something warm inside me I can see his head pulled back in pleasure, he lays on top of me and whispered in my ear "did you liked it? "Yes" I replied we laid down for a while, I had my head on top of his chest"

Me: im gonna take a shower
Jonghyun: Are you okay?
Me: yes, I just need to take a shower

"I went to the bathroom, turned the water on I sat down inside the tub leaving the warm water running on my body, I can't believe I'm not a virgin anymore, what have I done, will he treat me the same? Am I a easy girl? I was so anxious, I finished talking my shower I wore an oversized shirt and boyshort panties, I went to the living room and Jonghyun followed me"

Jonghyun: why you didn't told me?
Me: told you what?
Jonghyun: that you were a virgin?
Me: how did you know?
Jonghyun: I saw some blood spots on my bed sheets~
Me: ahh that~ does that bother you?
Jonghyun: no, I just hoped you made the right decision
Me: I wanted to do it
Jonghyun: are you sure I didn't pressure you?
Me: no, I trusted you with the most important thing I believe, you made me a woman, I'm happy with my decision
Jonghyun: come and sleep with me tonight, I wanna feel you close to me, now you're mine