the ending of planets |✓

neptune

pastel filters of cracked starlight
illuminate your boundless pulchritude
that could make galaxies shrivel and
comets to burst with fiery sparks.
i wanted you too much, too deeply.

look at us now, we're anything
but in love. i can bleed oceans of
scarlet lined love for you. but you
would still scar me with your coarse
fingertips and knife like words that roll
of your cherry tongue like freshly
pressed syrup.

i don't think you can ever learn to love,
but this golden hope that brews inside
of my bones still believes you'll learn
one day. i would wait till the ends of
planets, for you to finally learn how to
love with whole your heart. for you touch
me without destroying the wreckage of my
splintered being. i would wait for you till i die,
standing in neptune seas of ammonical ice－
waiting for a phenomenon that may never happen.

you may call me a fool, but if i am a fool;
its only for you my love. don't you see－
you can carve my heart open and leave my
bones to rot under the scorching sun; yet
i would still come back crawling to you.

i used to believe i was in love with you,
i still want to believe that you are mine.
i want to believe what we have is love,
even though its ripped at every edge
and stained with blood soaked cruelty.
but as the crimson on my knuckles
deepens to violet tinged cerulean, i
realise what we had was never love.

we didn't love each other,
we just loved the destruction
we caused for each other.

my darling, we can't love each other because we've never had love.

・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.