Boy Toy [Kakashi x Reader +18]

4 🍋 Kakashi

There had only been a few times in my whole life when I felt as horrible and painfully ashamed as I did for the following days after I blurted out that stupid thing. I mean, it wasn't that stupid now was it? We had had sex a couple of times now, and I hated to have flings... so two birds from a stone. Hell, it wasn't even as if I was madly in love with her. Not madly at least... The idea wasn't that insane, was it? 

Even if I had repeated that in my mind a hundred times, hoping that I'd feel less miserable and that the memory was less stingy, it still didn't help ease the horrid sensation. It didn't stop me from wishing so deeply to never have said that. Just the thought of meeting (Y/n) again made me heat up in embarrassment and my chest felt heavy. Just why the fuck did I have to suggest that? It would have been way better to just stay the way we had been forever, the way I had stayed forever. 

And I swear on all Gods there were that I would make it my personal mission to avoid (Y/n) so hard she would even forget of my existence. In fact, it would be so much better if she just did that, completely forget I exist. But of course, the world didn't seem to be on my side when I was called into a meeting with Lady Tsunade where, unfortunately, I met (Y/n) waiting to be called just in front of me.  

I saw her from afar, her beautiful (h/c) hair as she looked somewhere else. I swallowed when my mind decided to recall how it felt against my fingers, which just made me curse myself even harder. I stopped in my tracks, she hadn't seen me yet, I was still in time to turn around and leave. I mean, Tsunade already knew I was normally late for things, it wouldn't be that bad to be late to this meeting too. But like always, my doomed luck didn't allow me to do so. 

"Kakashi, we were waiting for you" Shizune greeted me with a smile when I was silently turning around in order to leave. 

My whole body jumped and I suddenly froze, or at least I felt like that. I looked from the corner of my eyes to (Y/n), not even having the courage to look at her directly. And thank God I did so from the corner of my eyes as I saw her looking at me. Luckily, I couldn't even look at her expression, and although it made me unsettled and feel again that unpleasant flooding feeling in my chest, I knew it would be worse if I had in fact seen a disgusted or awkward look from her. It was also then that I felt a second wave of a freezing tingling all over my body. We? I thought, and then I saw (Y/n) getting inside Lady Tsunade's office along with Shizune who was waiting for me to enter as well. Oh Kami

I tried to focus my attention on Tsunade, but I just couldn't help but take some shy looks at (Y/n) who was slightly ahead of me and didn't even spare me a glance. Although I think it was probably better that way. Still, it didn't help with the pain and awkwardness. 

"I've called you here today," Tsunade started, finally taking my full attention "because I'm assigning you two a mission"

"Together?" (Y/n) asked, and even though I couldn't see her face while saying that, I still felt a slight pang at my heart. 

"Obviously," I couldn't help myself but answer back as a reaction to the heat I felt in my body. I saw her clench her fists which made me gulp.

"Yes, together" Tsunade ignored us and continued "Someone stole a scroll from one of our teams. The mission is to locate the person and bring them back with the scroll. The supposed location of the man is in the folder with the details. Should take at most two days" she explained shortly. 

"I'm sorry Lady Tsunade," (Y/n) spoke, bowing her head beforehand "but doesn't Kakashi have to train some genin or something? Isn't there someone else, better, to pair me up with?" and there it was, the pang in my chest, but this time followed by a burning sensation. I looked at her with a frown, but she completely ignored me, and so before Lady Tsunade could say anything I talked as well: