❝𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒❞ [On Hold]

𝟏𝟕➺𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐫

Chapter 16
Blamer

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have reacted like that. Though I sure haven't forgiven you guys." Hongjoong mumbles, sitting on the couch, his fingers threaded together while he closes his eyes, propping his face over his hands. "I know hyung, it's our fault." Wooyoung mumbles, his eyes downcast in shame and sorry. Jongho sits beside him, rubbing a sour cheek with an ice pack wincing his pain out once in a while.

"Does it hurt?" Hongjoong suddenly questions, his eyes open gazing at Jongho's state. "Err...not actually I mean yeah but we deserved it though it's only me who got it." Jongho points to his cheek chuckling slightly. A few minutes ago, the scenes had been drastically dramatic as Hongjoong was probably ready to beat the shit out of Wooyoung and Jongho as if he was possessed by someone. But honestly he wasn't. It was just what he heard, got his blood boiling more than it already was.

He couldn't believe San went to that house before all this started and that he was sent— no one honestly expected him to actually go though —by his own friends. He couldn't understand what to do at this point. It was as if his overprotective nature was yelling at him to not trust San over Jongho and Wooyoung anymore but he knew better than to actually get lured by that voice within him.

"Hyung, what about Sannie now?" Wooyoung mutters softly, his eyes out in curiousity looking at Hongjoong with concern. A soft yet strained sigh escapes the curl of Hongjoong's lips, his eyelids falling loose at the headache in his head but keeping his everything up to not fall into the tempting state of an eye shut. Scrubbing his palm over his tired face once again, Hongjoong turns his head towards Wooyoung with an unreadable gaze.

"I....don't know." Hongjoong sighs frustration out of his lips before Jongho speaks. "Why not you guys just rest for today and till then I and Woo can think of something?" Wooyoung nods in agreement. "Yeah, he is right hyung. You guys need some rest." Hongjoong thinks through the words, his mind not sure about things just yet and the worry in the pit of his stomach pooling further didn't help. A small yet firm thump on his shoulder from Jongho had him feel better for once before he replied through a broken cry.

"He- he is in pain- I-I shouldn't-" Hongjoong chokes slightly at the flashes of San's broken self. "Hyung, don't worry we are here. Just for today get some rest and we promise till tomorrow we will get something up." Wooyoung reassured the older, his heart breaking at the state of him. "But-" "No but. You go and get some rest and be with Sannie. We will do anything and everything possible." Jongho firmly speaks out before Hongjoong watches him get up with Wooyoung doing the same.

Sighing Hongjoong nods. "Okay...." Hongjoong gets up before the others make their way out and he closes the door. It was as if the door's closing lifted some sort of burden off of Hongjoong's eyes that a stream came out rushing from his sockets, his knees giving in and taking his whole stature down like a falling building with his back sliding down the door. Hand up to cup his mouth to prevent any loud cries to echo, Hongjoong closed his eyes shut at the pain going through his system.

He would do anything to have San back and smiling like the sunshine. He would anything to just have him smile and free of worry, tension or any sort of pain. The only one he can blame right now for San's condition weren't Jongho or Wooyoung but he, himself. "If only-if only I s-stayed with h-him more o-often." Hongjoong muffled out to himself softly, his cries turning to small hiccups while he fought to stay quieter and rubbed at his tears harshly as if wanting to burst his eyeballs.

His tears wouldn't stop, his heart felt like each and every broken piece of it was being broken one by one through hands while blamed himself and himself until a warm feeling surrounded him, engulfing him tighter into its embrace, Hongjoong subconsciously caving into it. "Joongie? What happened? Are you alright?" Hongjoong heard him. He heard his soft, sweet and concerned voice pierce through his ears, his shivering body stilling for a second.

His tears wetting the shirt his face was smashed in while he could feel that warm touch on his back rubbing soft circles through it. "Joongie you're making me worried. What's wrong?" Hongjoong heard him again but decided to clutch his waist harder and muffle a small "I won't let you go away.". San raises his eyebrows in surprise and confusion before a small smile creeped up his face as he knelt down to Hongjoong's level properly. "Hey...Who said I'm going anywhere in the first place? I'm right here Joong, look at me." San mumbles before ascending his hand from Hongjoong's back to the back of his head.

Hongjoong looked up, his cheeks decorated with unpleasant tear stains San felt like wiping right away which he sure did. Hongjoong gulped his tears away before looking through San's eyes and immediately throwing himself on the other in a tight embrace before he kissed him. The kiss was surprising for San but still it was passionate and full of love. Hongjoong couldn't stop himself at all when he saw San's face and the unbelievable truth of San being alright.....for now at least.

He couldn't let him go at all this time. Hongjoong continued kissing San deeper, San reciprocating it. San sure enough was confused about Hongjoong's behaviour not aware of anything that happened the past one-week-less-two-days yet he could a sort of hunger to return it. It was as if he was feeling those lips after a whole year or something. Pulling back out of the need of breath, Hongjoong and San panted heavily but none of them separated from the embrace.

Hongjoong's hands found their way to San's cheeks, his thumbs softly rubbing at them before mumbled softly. "I love you Sannie." Hongjoong composed himself before slowly holding San up bridal style and standing up to walk their way through the living room to their bedroom. "Joongie....are you alright?" Arms around Hongjoong's neck, San questioned softly staring in his lover's previously tear filled eyes that were still slightly wet and puffy from the outburst. "You don't have to worry about me Sannie." Hongjoong mumbled before he softly kicked the room door open, entering inside and kicking it back close.

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