If Hearts Will Tell (Heart Series #2)

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It's been 5 months and I'm spending my time travelling. Ayoko nang mag-isip. Wala na rin sa plano ko ang bumalik pa sa Pilipinas. I lost all of my connections there at kahit sa kasal ni Kristen sa susunod na buwan ay hindi ako makakapunta. She understands why I don't want to go back there.

Isang beses ay nagkita kami ni Yohan sa Thailand. We spend time together there but he needs to go earlier than me dahil marami pa siyang kailangan asikasuhin. In the past months, I tried to see other men, I will go out with my friends to drink and will make out with someone. I will also go out with some actors who invited me to join him.

I kissed different man but no one can ever make me feel the way Tomas Alvion did. Kahit ilang labi pa ang mahalikan ko, siya pa rin ang hinahanap ko. And when I'm doing that with other men... siya ang nasa isip ko. Alam ko sa sarili ko na nililibang ko lang ang sarili ko, pero sa gitna ng paglilibang ko, alam kong siya pa rin talaga.

How could I move on from him? Months without connection with him... I want to forget him and my feelings. I know he's already happy with someone... siguradong masaya na siya kay Gwen. Anghirap umusad, parang bumalik na naman sa dati. Sabi niya... hihintayin niya ako.

"Alisson, are you sure you won't accept the offer?" Trina asked me. We're on our way home from the studio. "It's a big brand in the Philippines. You don't need to stay there if you don't want, this is a big opportunity."

I shook my head. "I'll think about it." Sabi ko at lumabas sa kotse nang makapag-park na si Janna.

It's been months and I'm thinking if I should start a business and retire modeling. I'll still accept some photoshoot pero titigil na ako sa pagiging runway model. I'm still undecided... Sa mga nangyari kasi nung nakaraang buwan, napapaisip ako, if I should still continue this or... start a new life.

"Stop running away, Alisson... I told you Tomas Alvion already-"

"I don't want to hear it." I told her. "Please... And I'm not running away... I'm just letting myself to be free."

I never watched the interview about Tomas Alvion's statement sa kumakalat tungkol sa kanilang dalawa ni Gwen. I just... I don't want to. Hindi na pati iyon mahalaga. We're already moving on. Ayoko nang magkaroon pa ng dahilan para bumalik doon dahil wala na akong balak. Wag na rin siyang maghintay sa akin.

I heard Trina's sigh. "Fine."

Pumasok ako sa loob ng hotel. We're still here in Paris dahil marami akong schedule dito. Nung mga nakaraang buwan ay nakapag-travel na ako pero dito ako bumalik sa Paris. Nakauwi na rin ako sa London but I chose to stay here in Paris because I have a lot of friends here. Tania is also here kaya hindi ako nabobored dito.

I took a shower and changed my clothes before sitting on my bed. I reached for my phone and opened my instagram. Bumungad sa akin ang post ni Tomas Alvion sa instagram because we never unfollowed each other. It was 4 hours ago lang. It's a picture of a window plane, where is he going?

alvion.t: see you.

Kumunot ang noo ko. Sinong pupuntahan niya? Where is he going? At... sinong kasama niya? My mind was full of questions kahit anong pigil ko na mag-isip hindi ko magawa. Why am I curious? Bahala siya kahit saan pa siya magpunta. I sighed and put my phone down. Bumalik ako sa loob ng bathroom at doon tinuyo ang buhok ko gamit ang hair dryer.

Janna called me to ask me kung anong gusto kong kainin for dinner. I just ordered a salad because I'm on a diet. I was sitting while waiting for our order. Wala akong magawa kaya nanood na lang ako sa tv. May sariling unit sila Trina at Janna, dito lang rin, same floor as mine. Nandito sila dahil sabay-sabay kaming kakain nang dinner at masyado ring malungkot kapag mag-isa lang.