If Hearts Will Tell (Heart Series #2)

04

"I see. Pero kung magbago man ang isip mo. You can call us. Here," she gave me a card. "Our contact number. Think about it, hm? I'll wait for you." She smile and left me there.

Napatingin ako sa katawan ko sa salamin na nasa gilid ko. I can pass as a model? But that's not my interest. Ayoko pati ng nasa akin ang atensyon ng mga tao. Hindi ako sanay. Hindi ko pinangarap kahit kailan na maging model. Some people are also telling me to become one, marami nga nagsasabi na bagay daw sa akin yon.

Should I be a model? Should I pursue that? Bagay ba talaga sa akin maging model?

I was thinking of that the whole night. I don't know.. hindi naman ako interesado pero bakit iniisip ko pa rin? The fact that I don't really know what I want to be. Accounting is my course but.. it's not the job I want to be, I can't see myself as an accountant.

Is modeling really for me?

"Ali," Kristen called me.

We're eating lunch outside the university. Mamaya na yung party ni Nicole. I sighed before looking back at my food, Kristen look so confused when I looked at her. I was.. still thinking of being a model. Kasi naman.. bakit pa ako inapproach nung babae kahapon sa mall, hindi tuloy mawala sa isip ko.

"Are you okay? Something's bothering you? Is your mom pressuring you again?" Sunod-sunod na tanong sa akin ni Kristen.

I shook my head and forced a smile. "No. I'm fine." I said.

She doesn't look convinced. "You can't fool me. Is it about Paul?" She asked.

My brows creased before aggressively shaking my head. "No! Why would I think of him?" I sighed. "Okay, fine. Kristen.." I started.

Napatakip siya sa bibig niya, nanlaki ang mga mata ko, what's wrong with her? Wala pa akong sinasabi.

"Umamin na sayo si Tom?" She asked. "Kayo na?" She's acting exaggerated.

Lalong kumunot ang noo ko. "What?" I asked, confused. "No. What the hell are you talking about?" I glared at her.

"Ahh," tumango-tango siya. "Ano bang sasabihin mo? Buntis ka!?" Gulat pa rin na tanong niya.

Is she serious? Parang tanga.

"Kristen! I'm seryoso, listen to me!" Utos ko sa kanya, lumabi naman siya at tumango. "Kagabi ko pa kasi iniisip, bagay ba sa akin maging model?" I asked her.

She looked at me. She observed me so I looked away, I feel kinda awkward.

"Not lying, you can pass as a model," tatango-tango niyang sagot.

I looked at her again, not convince. "Seryoso?"

She stopped eating before looking again to me and gave me a nod. "Yes. Matagal ko nang sinabi sayo, diba? Other people also think that you're a model nga, e." Sabi niya saka sumubo sa pagkain niya.

Should I give it a try? What if hindi naman pala talaga bagay sa akin? What if other people would judge me? Paano kung sabihin nila na hindi ako nababagay sa ganoon, that I'm just trying hard?