If Hearts Will Tell (Heart Series #2)

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Umuwi akong umiiyak. It was just painful. Am I overreacting? Or it's just too much? Hanggang kailan ko kayang ipaglaban ang pangarap ko?

Tumahan ako nang marinig na tumunog ang phone ko. Pinunasan ko ang luha ko at huminga ng malalim. Si Tom ang tumawag sa akin.

[Hi, mahal,] masiglang bungad niya sa akin.

Napangiti ako sa boses niya. "Mm, how are you?" Tanong ko.

[Are you okay? Bakit ganyan ang boses mo?] Takang tanong niya.

"I'm fine.." sagot ko.

[Do you want me to go there? Let's have a roadtrip] He said.

I think I need some fresh air. "Sure.. hihintayin kita," sabi ko.

I took a deep breath before going inside my bathroom. Naghilamos ako para hindi halatang umiyak ako. I also changed my clothes. Kinuha ko yung phone ko at yung bag ko before lumabas at hinintay siya. Dumating rin naman agad siya. Sumakay ako sa kotse niya at niyakap siya.

He hugged me back and kissed the top of my head. He gave me a sweet smile after. He's wearing a plain shirt and a pair of shorts. Umayos siya ng upo, ako naman ay inayos na ang seatbelt ko.

"How's you day, mahal?" He asked me.

I smiled. Painful. "It's fine.."

He looked at me before nodding. "I want to hear that you're fine but.. I also don't want you to pretend that everything's fine." He said before looking at the road again.

I bit my lower lip. He started to drive away. Habang nasa biyahe kami, nakikinig lang kami sa music. Nagkekwento rin siya. Tatakbo pa rin daw na Governor ang Dad niya next year.

"Tell me if you're not okay," he said.

We stopped for a moment, naka park ang car niya sa parking lot ng isang store. Kita pa rin namin dito ang mga matataas na building, malawak dito at mahangin. We can also see the river here. We're sitting at the compartment of his car.

"Gusto ko.. kapag hindi ka okay, sasabihin mo sa akin. I'm willing to listen. Kapag pagod ka, I'm willing to stay with you until you're fine.." he said. "Anghirap malaman kung nasasaktan ka.. nasanay ka kasing tahimik lang na nasasaktan," he added.

I didn't talk. He's right. I keep everything inside me while I'm hurting that's why it's hard for me to tell them that I'm not okay. It's hard to express how painful I feel inside.

"I won't force you to open up to me.. pero.. kapag mabigat at sobrang sakit na, sabihin mo sa akin, ha?" He held my hand. "Makikinig ako.. sasamahan kitang masaktan," He kissed the back of my hand.

I feel so touched. Namuo ang mga luha sa mata ko. All I need is him, kahit wag na siyang magsalita.. his presence is already comforting. How lucky I am to have him. Angsarap sa pakiramdam na may humahawak sayo sa panahon na gusto mo nang bumitaw.

Namuo ang mga luha sa mata ko at bahagyang tumango. I bit my lower lip. He gave me a smile before pating my head.

"Don't be afraid to cry. Wag mong iisipin na mahina ka. Oo, may kahinaan ka.. pero hindi ka mahina," He put his arms around me.