If Hearts Will Tell (Heart Series #2)

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"I need to go,"

Yun lang ang nasabi ko! Agad akong tumalikod at sumakay sa loob ng kotse ko. I'm not ready sa tanong niya! Yes, I am sorry for leaving pero hindi pa ako ready pag-usapan ang nangyari sa past namin. Akala ko kaya ko pero... kapag kaharap ko siya umurong lahat ng gusto kong sabihin.

Mabilis akong nagdrive paalis doon at umuwi sa condo ko. Napaupo agad ako sa kama ko at napahimalos sa mukha ko. Iniisip ko na nga yung sa kanila ni Gwen... dadagdag pa yung tanong ni Tom!

Imbis na isipin sila, matulog na lang ako. I just removed my make up and changed my clothes before lying on my bed. I should really started moving on. Mukhang okay naman na sa kanya. Kaya na niyang banggitin yung nangyari noon. Mukhang madali lang naman sa kanya ang magmove on, kagaya nung sa kanila ni Tania.

Speaking of Tania, she messaged me. Magkikita kami sa New York next month. I'll attend to Victoria's Secret first before going back to London then sa New York ako dederetso for New York Fashion Week. I will be a model there, ganoon rin si Tania.

I also visited Nicole again the next day and brought her some fruits. Medyo nasobrahan daw siya sa trabaho at hindi masyadong nakapag-pahinga kaya kailangan niyang magpahinga muna.

The next week, kagaya ng naka schedule, I went to an interview. They just asked me about my experience and my life in London. They asked me kung bakit ko naisipan na tumira doon and what is my reason bakit ako bumalik dito sa Pilipinas. They asked me what tips I can give to others who also want to pursue modeling.

"Trust the process. Trust yourself. Trust your ability. Kung sino man ang nakakaalam ng kakayahan mo, dapat ikaw yon, ikaw mismo. So don't listen to those people na nagsasabing hindi mo kaya. If you have the ability to dream, then, have the courage to achieve it." Mahabang sabi ko. "Confidence, and believe in yourself. That's the most important thing."

"Some people are telling me that I'm going to fail... that I don't fit in the industry. Pero... hangga't may isang taong naniniwala na kaya ko, magpapatuloy ako."

Dreams can be scary sometimes. It's hard to dream but it's also hard to not have a dream, and it sucks to be stuck in someone else's dream. All dreams can come true, if you have the courage to pursue them.

Every person has a mission and purpose. So don't do other people's mission just because you haven't found yours. Time will come and you will know what is your purpose and why you're still here.

After the interview, I went straight to a photoshoot. I greeted the photographer and inayos ang mga gamit ko. They also started to fix my make up and my clothes na susuotin for the photoshoot. Nakikipag-kwentuhan ako sa make up artist habang inaayusan ako.

"So you worked with Grace already? She's my friend," I told the make up artist.

Tumango naman ito. "Yes. Mabait siya, sobra. She's so sweet." Sabi nito.

I nodded. "That's true. She also helped me when I'm just starting to enter the industry." Sabi ko pa.

"She's such a professional," sabi pa nito.

Nagbihis na rin ako at nagsimula na ang photoshoot. Sobrang sigla ng lahat kaya hindi rin nakakapagod. They are cheering for me, they are all complimenting me kaya natuwa rin ako. They are so nice, lahat sila! This photoshoot is for a magazine and billboard.

I'm wearing a bra and a pants, nakabukas ang button ng pants ko dahil yung brand ng underwear and bra ang ineendors. I did a lot of post and they say that all of them came out good. It was a nice photoshoot and hindi ako masyadong napagod.