convicted || b.e

chapter swenty seven

billie's pov

today jada and i are going to this lame ass party that her friend invited her to and i'm not really happy about going. i don't wanna go because lately i've been doing so good with not smoking or drinking and i'm kinda scared that going to parties again will make me spiral out of control... again.

if anything i might smoke a blunt here and there but that's really it which is such a big deal for me. just a few months ago i would be smoking every single day. so it's really a big improvement for me and jada tells me all the time how proud of me she is which is really great to hear, especially from someone that i love so deeply.

i know jada is a total introvert so it kinda makes me feel weird that she wants to go to this party so bad. then again it is what it is. jada's always there for me and supporting and loving me so the least i can go is go with her to this party. and of course she looks really fucking good which is good for me but also not good for me because that means everyone is gonna be all over her tonight which is soooo fucking annoying. straight men are the worst.

i can't believe that jada's dated men before. kinda makes me feel sick.

but whatever, now we're walking into this party and it's already all over the place. there's pills everywhere, the smell of weed is pretty strong, and the smell of alcohol and nic is even stronger. i just grip jada's hand and follow behind her like a lost dog.

"billie this is my best friend stella. you remember her right?" jada says as she introduces me to a very familiar looking brunette girl.

oh wait... she's the one that kissed jada! to try to make me jealous or some shit. god, this is gonna be a longggg night.

"mhm. i do remember." i say with a fake smile as i wave to her.

"oh. hi william.." stella answers back unenthusiastically.

"it's not william-" i start to say but she just walks off to another part of the house before i can finish my sentence.

"you need to find better friends." i tell jada as we sit on some couch with like 4 other people who jada seems to know.

"what? no, she's nice!" jada says, defending her rude ass bestie.

"mhm. she definitely is." i answer back sarcastically.

"bil, please don't be an asshole about this. she's just overprotective, okay? i promise i have good friends." she sighs.

i would go off on her for calling me an asshole, but i just bite my tongue and nod in response. she smiles softly before kissing my cheek and then turning to talk to her other friends that are sitting on the couch too. she's too pretty to be mad at anyways.

soon i get bored so i tell jada i'm gonna go look for anyone that i know. while walking around, it seems like every single drug that i see is calling my name but i ignore my temptations and keep on walking until i find myself in the backyard.

"yo billie!" i hear from behind me, making me whip around real quick.

"sean!" i grin while i run over to one of my childhood friends, sean. we've know eachother for forever but kinda grew apart when we got into highschool. i think i've sold him weed a couple times but besides that we don't really have a relationship recently. i'll definitely always have love for him though.