† Apocalypse † |Harry Styles| [ENG]

† Chapter Twenty One †

Jenna's pov.

I didn't know what I was doing... The truth was, I needed Harry and I was taking advantage of the situation. I was just pretending to be that cocky, to feel more confident and make him understand that I desperately wanted to make love to him and to show him how much I loved him. I would've liked to go back to myself for a moment and to rework everything... I had to stop. He loved me for who I was, not for who I have become... even if he didn't seem to mind...I laid on him for minutes that felt like a lifetime. I didn't know what happened, he had his arms wrapped around my back and I rested on his chest. Harry put his hand on my head and he started caressing me softly. And here I was, back to my insecurities and fears... I felt my cheeks streaked with tears and I couldn't help but staring to sob.

«Explain to me what the fuck happened to you frog face...», Harry begged me in the sweetest, most sarcastic way possible.

«I'm really sorry...», it was all I could tell him.

«Don't apologize, sometimes I would like to have sex with me too,», he said making me laugh.

«Damn, Harry», I giggled getting up and sitting next to him who did the same.

«Jenna, would you like to tell me about it?»

«I was afraid you wouldn't like me as before. I don't know why, believe me. I just thought... once I transformed into a vampire I could make you believe that I was more confident and to make you understand that I need you and that I wasn't afraid. If I had stayed like my usual self you probably...», I did not finish the sentence and I turned my head away.

I didn't want to watch him while I confessed these things to him.

«Jenna...», he incredulously said as he puts his fingers on my chin to make our eyes meet, «Is it sex that worries you? I mean, did you think I stopped loving you just because you were scared of having sex with me?», his voice sounded more shocked than I thought.

«Because you are always so sure of what you do and I am not! I have never known anyone more insecure than myself!»

«I haven't met anyone more insecure than you either. But I haven't also met someone who made me fall in love like you did. You don't have to change one bit for me», he reassured me, «Plus, I'm not used to be the one insecure, and seeing you so bold actually destabilized me»

His words lifted me up. By talking to him about this I felt free from a huge burden. At that moment I thought the same question that was wandering in my head was also wandering in his...

«Harry, are we going to do it? Seriously this time»

«What is it you want to do? Tell me», he asked.

«I want to make love to you»

«Do you see that it is not difficult to say certain things?», he chuckled making me lie on top of him, «Do what you were about to do earlier... find that confidence again and go all the way»

His hands passed over my back still covered by the towel making me shiver. Without wasting time, I took off his clothes and simply left him in his boxers. Exactly as few minutes earlier, without panicking, I brought my lips to his neck, swiping them up to his jawline. I started sucking on his skin leaving small purple marks as his breathing became more irregular, he took my hand and he placed it on his prominent erection.

«Don't be afraid. I'll teach you how to do it. Let yourself be guided by my body»

I completed the movement he was initiating. I caressed him slowly from above his boxers and in the meantime I moved my mouth from his neck to his heart shaped lips. A spark of excitement began to invade my body. As soon as I felt ready, I let the elastic of his boxers slide down and I took them off completely. He squirmed under me as I started rubbing my hands around his length.