Scars: an angel without wings(Ashton Irwin fanfiction)

chapter nine

Its math class now. I hate math, I take out my pen and sit down, in the back of the room. Suddenly a big group of people come in and all sit at the front, they start screaming and shouting. I hang my head low because I can see calum amongst them. The teacher walks in, "okay guys I'm the substitute teacher Mr Carter and....." I zone out and start to look out the window until I here my name being said. "Is Rebecca black here".
"Yeah I'm here". Everyone looks at me and start to whisper. When the loud mouth bitch Hayley says thinking shes talking quietly. "That's the girl Calum is just dating for credit, when really he's cheating on her with me". Everone starts laughing. "Just look at her she's so ugly why would calum date her".
"Shut up Hayley" calum says.
"Na she can't here me, she's so fat look at her I bet she's a size 14 and her boobs are so small its like she has two grapes for boobs". Suddenly I feel like crying is this really what people think about me. I start crying a little bit hoping no one sees. "Aw look she's crying so the troll does have feelings". Everyone laughs again.
"OK that's enough Hayley stop being mean". I put my head to the table and try not to listen.

"OK class what is 4.5 + 4.5?".
"Well at least we know its bigger then Rebecca's bra size". Hayley starts laughing after herself. I cry more and this time I take my bags and walk out the room. "Look guys the baby is finally got the point and has went boo hoo". Everyone laughs and I just carry on running and crying I don't care if my mascara is running.

I run to the toilets and lock myself in the stall. I sit on the toilet and cry. I just want my life to end right now, there's nothing left for me here. I take out my compass from my maths set and I pull up my sleeve and start to cut my wrist, the cuts start to bleed but I don't stop I just keep cutting. I cut myself quite deep, and I just keep crying. Is this ready the way I should be handling this. The pain hurts but at least it takes away the thought of what I am feeling inside.

I keep cutting my wrist in different spots when I here the door open and banging on each door. "Becks are you in here". I suddenly see two feet in front of the door. "Come on becks I know you are in there just let me in". I hear him put his head against the door. "Come on baby girl just let me in". I open the door all I see is Ashton standing there, he walks in and sees my wrist. "Why babe?, why would you do that?". He takes the compass and throws it on the floor. He grabs some tissue and turns the tap on and wets it. He runs back over to me (sitting there crying) and places it on my wrist. I let out a little scream. "Its ok". He looks into my eyes. "I love you Becky".
"I love you ash". He looks into my eyes and he kisses my lips still with his hand on my wrist. We stop kissing. "Why did you do this?".
"I just want it to end ash"
"What?"
"The whole thing with calum, and Hayley I just want it to end". I start crying again Ashton hugs me again and whispers in my ear. "You can have me and I will never treat you like calum has. I love you baby". I look at him and kiss him.