Wait for Me - Alicia Clark {on hold}

Burried

I'm sitting there on her bedroom's floor, my whole body in chock and terror, all I can think about, the only sentence running wild in my head is "I just killed my mom". I stared blankly at her and my hands, covered in her blood, tears falling since she hit the ground. But I have to get up, I have to take care of the rest of my family no matter what, it's my mission now, so I finally stand up after I don't know how many times I stayed here. I look at her and bend over, the last tears falling from my cheeks to her face and took the blade off her skull, spreading more blood on the floor, whispering "I'm sorry" to her as I exit the room immediately after. Andrew is on the sofa with Faro, carefully looking at me when he finally saw me again covered in blood, sweat and tears. No words were said, he simply came over to hug me.
-She's gone Andrew... She's gone...
-It's not your fault you know?
-It is, I should have stayed here and take care of her, none of this would've happened if I stayed...
-She was sick Y/n, nothing could save her from this...
We're both crying, knowing it's just the two of us now facing all of this craziness happening around us. The scene lasted a moment before we could move on.
-I need to bury her, I can't let her stay in her room like this, she's our mother, she deserves better than this!
-How do you want to do this?! Dig a whole in the garden? Very good idea yeah!
-I don't know yet, I'm lost... What are we gonna do now?
-I think we need to leave the city. It's spreading. We have to get out I think.
-Like taking supplies and everything?
-Yes and weapons and things like this!
-Fuck... Okay hum... I'm going to wash all of this so you can shower after me, I think we both need it and we can prepare our bags and leave then, does it sound good to you?
-Yes I'm okay with this!
So I took a long shower, trying to take off all of the blood from me and change with new and fresh clothes. As my brother is showering now, I'm trying to find a way about our mom. I have two options: leave her here or bring her body with her and bury her outside the city but the second option involves my brother helping me out and I don't want him to see her like this. So I took a decision and I have to try to wrap her in a carpet or anything so he won't have to see her and put her in the back of my car or more a truck and bury her in the desert. I hurts so much to do this, never in a million lives I could have imagined I would kill my mother and bury her myself... But I have to do it anyway, I took the covers and sheets from her bed to wrap her in and waited for Andrew.

8:16PM. Bags are now ready. Supplies are on the backseats, anything that could be a weapon too and out mother in the back. Andrew is already in the car as I checked one last time the house, this place that is our home since we are born that we certainly ain't never going to see again. I lock the front door, my hands unsure of their mouvements, my whole body in auto pilot for hours now. This is what it feels like then, the survival mode. Doing thing you never thought you could do, your mind disconnected from your body, from the reality. I put the keys in my pocket and join my brother in the car. I take a look at him and ask:
-Are you okay? You have everything you need?
-Yes... I'm okay, you?
-I think I will never be okay again but... Yeah... I promise you one thing, I will always do whatever I can to protect you alright? It's just us now and Faro, you're both all I have now, I can't loose you.
-Okay...
He said in a low tone and so I started to drive in the city to get us out. What the city is starting to become is something going out of your mind. People are everywhere, an atmosphere of fear and panic is all around us, thankfully, in our sadness and grief, people don't seem to know what to do and not a lot are on the road trying to get out so it's sill easy to drive to our way out.
The ride is silent, we don't talk much, we don't stop much neither, he told me to drive as far as I can until I'm too tired to continue to get away as much as we can from cities. I look back sometimes, seeing our city getting smaller and smaller, my heart aching from the events from today. I can only remember telling myself it was going to be a perfect day...

I drove all night almost alone on the road to lead us somewhere far away with no real destination. No sign of tirednesses could appear but Andrew fell fast asleep when the night settled and Faro as well on the backseat. It's now the early morning, it's actually nice to see the sunrise lost in the desert, if only it was another circonstances...
-Hi!
-Oh hey sleepy head! How did you sleep?
-Hum good and bad at the same time?
-I see what you're talking about but we will find a place to stay in don't worry!
-Outch!
He said and touched his ribs.
-Are you okay? Is it the seatbelt?
-No no it's okay I'm fine!
-Come on tell me what's happening?
-Nothing I'm fine!!!
-Okay!
I pulled over to stop the car, I turned to face him, looking at him deadly in the eyes, waiting for a real answer but he remains silent.
-Lift your hoodie Andy!
-What?! No!!!
-Andrew don't make me do it!
-I said I'm fine okay?!
He started to yell at me so I opened the door and got out of the car to his side, opening his door.
-Andrew what is it? Why don't you wanna show me?
-Because... I... I can't...
-Andrew... Please...
As some tears fell from his cheeks, he lifted his hoodie, looking everywhere else but at me revealing a wound near his hip. My eyes widened at the sight.
-What is that?!
-This Y/n, is a bite... A bite from our beloved mother who turned. When you told me you were coming and stay on the couch I didn't listen and went to check up on her, that's when she took me by surprise and made me fall on the floor. I could get out before it got worst but she bite me...
-What?! What does it mean? It's just a bite, you're gonna be okay what's the big deal?
-Ah! The big deal is... This is one of the many way you can turn from human to this... The bite is lethal actually...
-What? No... No it can't be...
With his words, I then collapsed on the ground, my hands trying to hold myself as I'm decomposing against the car.
-It can't be true!!! It can't be fucking true!!!
I yelled, trying to send the pain away as I realise I'm going to loose him too.
-I can't loose you two, not here, not now!!! It should be me not you!!!
-I'm so sorry I should've listened to you and not go... It's my fault...
-I can't take your life too, I won't be able to stand again if I do so...
-We will do it together, I don't want to turn or I don't want you to let me here to wander forever...
-I will never! I promised you I would take care of you and protect you no matter what so I will but I can't kill you...
-Come on let's get in the car again okay? We're going to talk there...
He helped me to stand up again because I didn't have to strength to do it alone. He was already weak actually that's why he slept most of the night despite all the events, sweat didn't leave his face until he woke up I tried to help him as much as I could, I prepared some sort of bed on the backseat, moving the supplies and the rest, asking Faro to come in the front so Andrew could rest properly in the back since he ordered me to move again and drive further.

He fell asleep soon after for many hours until I stopped myself, the energy leaving me more and more, forcing me to stop and sleep a little with Faro next to me. I don't know how many hours I slept, keeping track of time wasn't really my preoccupation now. In my sleep, I then felt something touching my hair as my head was tilted back on my seat, my first thought was Faro messing around because he's an energetic boy but I opened my eyes to see him sleeping next to me. I turned around as fast as I could to see what was touching me. I couldn't believe my eyes, the same vision of horror was in front of me again: the same lifeless eyes, the pale skin, the growls... All of it. I opened the door to get out of the car, still ordering Faro to get out as well. The road was empty, no car, no people, just me, a dog, a corpse and a infected brother. The world collapsed for good now. I scream at the top of my lungs all the pain, my legs not able to hold me, falling on the hot concrete. I broke my promise, I wasn't able to keep him safe, I didn't protect him as I should and I know that I will never be able to forgive myself ever again. I will never get close to anyone ever, I will never care anymore because it is a waste now. All I can do now is survivre and push on, I have to. With no more feelings, nor emotions, I go to the back and take a knife we packed and open the window leading to the backseat. Without hesitation I grab his curly hair to hold him still and with all the strength I have, I put it through his skull. No growls, no moves, no breath. Just emptiness.

Hours later, the sun was setting. I'm standing with Faro in the sunset, watching the two tombs I dug, two crosses I made up with what I had, engraving with a knife their names with a special quote that I know will haunt me forever.

"Wait for me"

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Hey beautiful people!

Here's the second chapter 😍 I know it's a lot of drama for a beginning but I have to and also it's FTWD after all! I hope you enjoyed it!
It's now over for the part before/while it's happening, the next chapters will be much later in the apocalypse! And of course, Alicia will soon make her appearance (not like in the season 7 right?)

Take care of you! 🤍✨