Wait for Me - Alicia Clark {on hold}

Revival

{Alicia's POV}

The night was rough, for both of us, even if she fell asleep quickly in the tiny bed, I couldn't. All I could think of was how I could have protected them more, how I should have been more aware of our surroundings. I know it's not the solution to hold myself with guilt but I couldn't help it, a part of myself is still responsible for what happened.
The others started to come to bed as well, some of them glancing at us sleeping in the same bed, June sending a reassuring smile with John while Strand came closer, sending him death glare if he said something that could wake her up.
-You both are close as I can see...
His voice suspicious, almost teasing but all I wanted was him to go away, which he did after his remark.
Minutes, hours has past, I finally felt myself falling asleep when I felt her embrace getting tighter, readjusting herself even closer. She has her face buried the deeper she could under my chin, her arm holding my waist, her breath is uneven, shallow and shaky, brushing my skin. I wish I could actually take her pain away because I know too well how much it hurts, how traumatic, depressing it feels to lose it all, feeling yourself all alone, abandoned in this walking hell. I don't want her to go through this. She doesn't deserve more pain but yet here we are. Pain is the only way to cope with reality today.

I woke up early because I simply couldn't sleep well so I ended helping others for breakfast and some daily chores outside. After I did all of them, I decided to go and check up on Y/n since she hasn't woken up yet.
-Alicia!? Where are you going?
Victor shouted behind me which made me turn around and stopped me on my track.
-Go check up on Y/n! Why? Need some help?
-No no... it's fine! I mean she's asleep, leave her alone!
-Or she could, I don't know, need some help? Since nobody here seems to give a damn about her!!!
-It's not that Alicia... We all lose and lost some people okay!? It's not that big of a deal anymore!
And these last words were the trigger.
-Not that big of a deal Victor?! She just lost the last thing that remained of her family!!! So I'm sorry for you of this word doesn't mean anything to you, but it does for her, for me! I lost all of my family, I actually wish I had someone with me, just show some support you know? So I'm doing it, I'm doing it for her! And I don't care if your selfish person doesn't understand that!
And I left, leading to her bed, not caring anymore about his words anymore because I knew that what I'm doing is the right thing.

I arrived in the big room, I spotted her sitting on her bed, not moving, her eyes lost, frozen in time. I approached her slowly.
-Hey?
I tried to sound the quietest I could do. Her eyes came back to life, the tiniest smile on her lips when her eyes met mines.
-Hey Alicia...
-Can I sit?
-Yeah, sure!
-How did you sleep?
-I don't know... it was peculiar I guess... thanks for staying with me the whole night, it means a lot!
Her eyes met mines, holding all the sorrow of this world, a knot in my stomach building up everytime I saw her hurt.
-I'm here for you Y/n, you can count on me now!
Tears started to form in her eyes, trying to hold them as hard as she could. I put my hand on her thigh to show my support and affection so she brought hers to mine, saying all the things that needed to be said in silence.
-Wanna eat something?
-I'm fine thank you... I'll eat later I think, I'm going to change ans maybe shower I don't know.
-Okay, I'll leave you to it!
-Thank you!
And with that, I left her, a glimpse of hope that she won't let herself sink into anger or sadness to rule her system...

Few long minutes has passed since I left her but my ears heard some weird noises coming from the dorm. I stopped what I was doing and ran to it, I froze when I saw her there. A mattress attached to a pillar near her bed, punching harder and harder, horrific screams were shouted, echoing on the walls. In my life, I've never heard such screams. They were filled with sadness, emptiness, fear, all these emotions that fills you when you're living grief were going out, she let it all go. I didn't know if I should approach her or not but my guts told me to. As I made my way to her, all I could do was to hold her from behind, trying to avoid her from hurting herself further more. I felt her tense up in my arms and then lose it all, both of us slowly falling on the floor, holding her tight, not saying a word. We stayed like this until she started to calm down, until she could breathe again so when she did, we stood up and I lead her outside. The soft breeze hit our faces, we were in her comfort spot but I lead her to the opposite direction of Faro's grave.
-Here, we can lay down as long as you want.
And with that, we did, we stayed silent in the grass, the water flowing beside us, calming herself down. A long time has passed since none of us talked.
-You know... Since we're here, I've been thinking. I'm actually here thanks to him, he was the one to warn you, he was the one to put his trust into when I was unconscious in this gas station. I have a feeling that, he actually chose you to guide, protect us from now on... And... And I feel that since we're here, he decided to let his guard down because he knew this is a safe place with good people that I can trust...
I'm looking at her while she's looking at the sky, listening carefully to her voice.
-I feel like, he decided that I could be okay without him now because I have this now and mostly I have you... I understand now why he trusted you back there, he chose you.
I couldn't help but tear up at her words, she's calm now, I think she made her way of understanding and acceptance in this short amount of time.
-I know I can't live grieving all the time, I have to stay strong because I'm still here and I have to make it worth it, even though it's a mess... Thank you Alicia. Really! You're here since day one, you were here even when you didn't know me, so thank you because there aren't such a good and kind souls as yours these times.
-I... I'm sorry, I don't know what to say... I'm just happy I'm helping you...
-You're being the best, for real!
I have to admit, I blushed at her words. I know by now we're having such a strong bond, that we're building up something powerful that I never knew I could live in my life, especially not in this one...

The rest of the day passed at it's own pace, she tried to socialise as much as she could until she was tired and went to sleep. Much later, I went myself to bed, a soft light next to my bed was lighting her peaceful face until her eyes slowly opened, a small smile on her lips when our eyes met.

She asked me this again and knew I could not resist, so I joined her in this small bed, bringing the blanket on us while she carefully wrapped herself around me again but tonight is different, there is no sorrow, no tears, I felt the atmosphere special tonight, being close to her felt unlike yesterday, it felt unique, something that I can't put words on but the feeling is warm, reassuring and calming.

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Hey beautiful people!

How are you all! Here's finally the next chapter on this story!!! It's been hard for me in the beginning of the year to write but I'm here now don't worry, I won't let this story down 😌

I hope you enjoyed this chapter and how things are slowly building up with Alicia 🥰

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