2010. Just a normal day started at the hospital except a lot of people came in the emergency, talking about some sort of flu going on. More people came in each minutes, the pace getting faster, the sweat dripping quicker. But it's just the flu right...
-Faro is hurt Alicia! -What? Where? -I don't know, there's blood all around his stomach! -You want me to stop? -NO! Drive back to the factory! -Okay I'm speeding up! My heart is racing, pumping blood the fastest it could, my breath is quick and irregular, I'm trying hard to keep it steady but it's impossible. The last time it happened, people died, my family died, one after the other. This can't happen again...
We finally arrived, the gates opening up too slowly for my liking. Alicia parked directly as we entered in the safe area. I'm rushing to get out of the car, opening the back door where Faro is laying. -Hey buddy, it's okay, you're gonna be okay! I tried to reassure him but mostly trying to calm myself down. I hurried to shout around where June is, she's the only one who can help us now. She finally arrived, a worried and concerned look on her face. -What's happening? Any of you is hurt? -Faro... He's bleeding, a lot! -Okay let's take him in to the infirmary! She hurried inside as I took him in my arms carefully. That's when I saw the huge pool of blood left on the backseat. There was a lot of it, bright red. I got flashes of another scene involving blood and a backseat, that's when I turned into auto mode. My body held him carefully, trying not to hurt him more since I didn't know where all this blood is coming from. I ran inside, hearing footsteps behind me, probably Alicia's. I finally let him on the metal table, laying him on his side. I let June look after him as I pet his face to reassure him. He is calm, not complaining, he never did. -Y/N... -What? -I... I came by her side, looking at him. His stomach had a deep cut, blood is still flowing, we could clearly see how bad this is since I could see what's inside. That's when tears started to blur the horrific scene in front of me. My hands started to shake, my body and mind loosing it. I looked at Alicia then June. -It's okay! It's okay, we can save him! Right? We were nurses! We can stitch him up! I started to look uncontrollably around to find what I could to start working. -Y/N... Y/N stop... June grabbed my arm softly to make me face her. -The cut is very deep, we're not vets, we don't have what he needs... -Of course we do! We will save him!!! -Y/N... -What?! So you just want to give up?! Without even trying?! You want to let him die like this! You want to make him suffer by bleeding to death?! That's your plan? It that what you want!!! -No of course not... I know what he means to you but- -You know nothing about me! I spat on her, crying a river. -His skin is too thick to stitch him just like that, I don't know what provoked this cut but it did huge damages inside... We... We can't save him... -You know what, get out! I don't need you... And everything went down. The short phase of denial stopped as both of them exited the room. I realised that this is happening again. The last one of what used to be family to me is about to leave me... I came close to him. So close to his face, looking at him, crying my heart out. -Hey buddy... It's gonna be okay! You're gonna be alright pretty soon actually... Thank you, thank you for being the best in my life. Thank you for being my guardian, my buddy, my partner and best good boy ever. I'm going to miss you... So much... But soon you will get to see mummy and Andy! I'm pretty sure they missed you up there, so have fun, annoy them now for me okay? But wait for me...
His eyes looked right into mine the whole time before he licked my cheek one last time before he closed his eyes, leaving the pain, this terrible world, leaving me... I collapsed on the table, holding him tight, not wanting to let him go but I had to do it so with all my strength, I collected all the things to stitch him up. I couldn't let him this way. I cleaned him up before exiting the room, my hands, arms and torso covered in blood, not an emotion on my face, I went to my bed and took the cover he used to sleep on to wrap him up. As I held it, Alicia caught me on my way. -Y/N... Her eyes were red, worried, full of compassion. -He's gone. I said abruptly, emotionless and made my way back to him. I slowly held his body to wrap him up, walking outside to what used to be my safe place, our safe place. People didn't dare to come and see me while I walked. So I put him on the grass, looking for a shovel, wood and a knife.
A pile of dirt is now recovering him. A cross I just made up with written on it his name, the dates and "wait for me". I'm standing in front of the grave, my mind and body dislocated from the reality. Then. I saw people coming, lead by Alicia, followed by Charlie, June, Al, everyone who cares about us, about him. Alicia stood next to me, not knowing if she should talk or hug me, so no one talked. The only sound we could hear was the water flowing behind us, the wind in the leaves from the tree above us and tears. I don't know how long this scene lasted but eventually they started to leave me, Alicia was the last one to leave, whispering: -If... if you need anything just call... She then left, I couldn't answer her anything, I couldn't even look at her. That's when I broke down, falling on my knees, falling apart, crying until it hurts to hell. My body is aching, my stomach is upside down, my hands gripping the grass...
I stayed like this all day. Sat on the ground, soaked with my own tears, my hands still covered from his blood. My whole world is gone. I have nothing left. I thought that the light could finally be here for me since I arrived here but actually there's no light, there's nothing to look up for, there's nothing left to do except desperately fighting to survive but for what? Live just a little in this world? What a way to live... The night is here and I still haven't moved an inch, that's when I heard the door opening, seeing a petite figure holding an old lamp to light up the way to approach me.
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Alicia held sorrow in her eyes as fear, witnessing me in this state, trying her best to be here for me. I literally fell in her arms, not able to stand by myself. We stayed like this for long minutes which actually helped, I felt myself drifting apart in her embrace. She's holding me tight, trying to pick up all the pieces that shattered today, all the parts that faded. -I can't leave him Alicia... My voice is calmer, my breath slower. -I know, you don't have to, you will never leave him... Which made me hold her tighter than I did. -Y/N I'm so sorry... -It's not your fault... I had to be more careful... -It's neither yours okay? Nobody could predict that... You don't need to hurt yourself with guilt... We stayed like a little more until she broke the closeness between, the cold hitting me. -We should get inside... It's cold now, you need to rest... I finally listened to her, glancing one last time at his tomb before following her inside. We arrived at our beds, seing the cord he used to play with, the bed we mostly slept together in. Alicia tried to distract me from that: -Come on, go take a shower, I'll give you warm clothes okay? I nod and went there, walking like a ghost the entire process. I put on the clothes she prepared me and went back to my bed. I stood there, not knowing what to do, empty. I then felt her hand on my back, gently bringing me back to life, taking me to bed. She put the covers on me as I took the cord with me, holding it tight as she made her way to her bed near mine. -Alicia? She turned around at my needy, shy and broken tone. -Yes? -Can you stay with me? She gave me a reassuring smile and joined me under the cover, facing me, our faces inches apart, my body getting closer to her, closing the gap, burring my face in her chest, her arms holding me tight.
This is how the day ended. This is how the tiny rest of my life has ended today.
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Hey guys! Here's a very quick update for this story...
I really want to apologise to you all for doing this, it broke me too, believe me. You have no idea how much I thought about doing this or not, how many times I cried picturing the scene and now writing it.
I still hope you don't hate me too much for that 🥺
