THAT SECRETARY

twenty two

“mark…”

“yes love?”

“i'm…” he huffs. “sorry.”

i thread my fingers on his hair and hum. “for what?”

“for being jealous.”

“and you're sorry because?” i face him and placed him properly on my lap.

now, i understand what he's fussing about earlier.

“well… do you not think of me being jealous, as a toxic trait? i mean…”

“love, listen here.” i chuckle lowly. “it's not. i know where you're coming from. i should've known that you wouldn't like me being so close with my ex.”

“i also understand why you gave her things earlier… i totally understand… it's just that…” his fingers on my suit clenched tight. “mark, everything came back to me.”

his body got even more closer to mine as his face nuzzles my neck. he sniffles almost every minute, before finally and completely letting me know the things he had at the back of his mind.

“he cheats on me everyday… with different woman. if i open a topic of him cheating, he'd tell me that i'm just so jealous and that i'm toxic… he manipulated me. he told me it's okay for him to have sex and flirt with everyone because he loves me anyway and only me.”

damn. that fucking man did donghyuck so wrong. i'd actually want to bring him back to life to kill him for hurting this angel in my arms. fuck!

“and he'd punch me if i say that i'm jealous over women that he's flirting with. he'd lock me in my room until i apologize for my jealousy.” his body shivers. “and in the end… i'll apologize for it all.”

“love, love…” i cup his cheeks and made him face me. i noticed the tears that trailed off his cheeks once again. “oh god.”

“mark, i'm sorry."

“no… stop apologizing donghyuck. i understand. i understand.” i shush him down by keeping him close and hugging him as comforting as i can. this may not be a healing for him but atleast… i did what i can.

“love, don't ever apologize for feeling what you feel, don't even apologize to me for being jealous, don't apologize for crying. it's okay… it's okay, hyuck.”

he sobs softly, until his hiccups died down and his tears got invisible in my eyes but i know that his heart is still clenching from the inside. it totally reeked of him.

“m-mark, thank you.”

“shhh… stop sobbing now, love.” i wiped his cheeks and kissed it, gently. careful not to make him flinch and shudder like he usually does.

“are you not tired of taking care of me?” he giggles and sniffles. i shook my head and slowly pepper him with kisses, all the kisses that he deserves.

“no. i will never get tired of taking care of you and channie. donghyuck, i love you. i love channie. i don't think there will be a time that i'd get tired of wiping your tears and hearing your stories.”

he sighs and gave me a soft peck on my lips. he smiled after and giggled to himself.

“i love you mark.”

that's his third time of confessing his love for me and damn… it still get me everytime. it's still making my heart pound loudly and make me feel butterflies in my stomach, swarming freely. he makes me feel this way everytime.

“i love you too, hyuck… so much.”

he is biting his cheeks' insides. “and i want to be your boyfriend.”