Behind the Closed Doors - KSIMON

01-DayOne

EDITED✅
SIMON's POV-

I shut the camera off and I smile fell. It's so boring doing this. My smile and laugh are getting more fake by each video and some fans can tell. I sigh and send all the videos to my editor.

I shut down the systems and go to my kitchen. I live alone, I mean most the sidemen do apart from Harry. I make a ham sandwich and I'm about to take a bite when I hear my door open. I roll my eyes before looking and seeing JJ. "Hey", i say and put my sandwich in the bin. I wasn't that hungry anyways.

"You heard about the whole Corona Virus?", JJ asks coming over to me. I nod and look away, he can't ever know how i feel. "shits getting serious soon enough we won't be able to see each other. They're talking about a global lockdown", JJ sighs sadly and I feel my heart sink to my stomach.

How am I supposed to do this when I don't see him. I can't do three days without seeing someone. Never mind however long this lockdown is. "Jid?", i say and he looks at me scared. He knows I'm serious. "I can't go through that", I whisper and he nods, "it's why I'm here actually. I've been looking for an apartment I found one. But it has three bedrooms. Perfect for us to live in while this shit clears away", he says and I look at him confused.

Why would he want me to live with him? I'm a burden already he doesn't need to put up with me every single minute of the day.

"I can't let you do that", i say walking to the living room and he follows. "I don't care you'll be coming either way", he stands in front of me and I scoff. "I know you care but that would just be too much for you", i sigh and look at anything but him.

"Pack your stuff", he says seriously before sitting on my sofa. I look at him but he has an annoyed face. Did I piss him off? I go to my room and look at the mess. There's clothes everywhere, the only thing clean is where my set up is which can't see my floor or much of my room.

I drag a suitcase out of a cupboard and start folding clothes. And more clothes and shoes.

"Hey Si-", JJ comes in and starts but stops when he sees the mess. "I know", i say before he can even say whatever he was gonna. It's a mess. More of a room to a dog than a human. "Are you ok?", JJ asks and I don't look at him. I nod and clear my throat before continuing to pack bits and pieces.

"Pack enough for a week and then the people who move shit will come back for everything. we need to get going I need to get the keys for the apartment", JJ sighs already annoyed again. I nod and zip my case up before sliding some shoes on.

We walk out of my apartment to his car which was nice and spacious not like his Lamborghini.

**AT THEIR NEW APARTMENT**

We unlock the door and it's massive. "JJ it's big enough for a family of 4", i joke and he laughs. I smile and go to the living room. It already had furniture and a TV, "did you get all the furniture?", i shout out to him since he went another way. I look around a bit more and see all JJ's boxing gloves, protein powders, and the kitchens stocked....

"JJ", i shout and he comes in. "This isn't new", i say and he looks like a dear caught in the headlights. "I- I know", he stutters. I can't live here not when his girlfriend lives here. I can't see that.

"I am going home", i say going to get my suitcase but he stops me. "No. Your not being alone", he says and I shake him off me, well I try to.
"Your not going back there. Not alone", he says angrily. I roll my eyes and sigh.

"What the fuck do you care?", i say harsher than I intended and he looked shocked. His grip loosened and I took the opportunity to get out of his grasp but i didn't think about that quick enough.

He went over to the door and locked it and then threw the key somewhere. "What the fuck", i shout and he doesn't say anything. I sigh and turn away from him. I'd rather be depressed in my own home than this apartment. It's just an apartment.

"Your rooms the last in the hall, we'll talk when your thinking straight and not like some little guilty girl", he spits harshly before going back to the living room.

I grab my case and go to the room at the end just like he said. It was a plane room. White bed, bathroom, TV. Nothing more to it. I miss my computer.

I lay on the bed already bored, but JJ's angry and I cant be bothered to go out. Not like we'll be aloud out very soon, Covid and that.

I get the remote for the Tv and switch Netflix on. Which thankfully was logged into the shared sidemen account. Yes we pay for the 5 extra screens. I look for something to watch but don't find anything new. I sigh and put SpongeBob on.

***

It's been two hours since mine and JJ's "fight" and I'm bored as fuck. I pick my phone up and ring Tobi. "Hey man. You wanna come to Jid's place?", i ask as soon as he picks up. "Sorry Si I'm with my family, I'm supposed to be staying here until Covid passes", he says sadly and I have a bad feeling.

"What's going on Tobi", i ask and he stays silent for a few moments. "My dad has Covid, on a ventilator and everything Si. I'm scared", he cries down the phone and I feel tears slipping down my face. "I feel you brother, I'm here and so are the rest of us. This evil thing will pass, and as someone who knows you believe in him, I'm praying to god every single day for your dad", i say and I hear him sigh. "Thank you Simon, do you mind telling Jid? I don't want to cry in front or over the phone to him", he says and I nod then remember he can't see me. "Of course. Text me or ring me whenever  you need me I don't care what time it is or what day it is. Love you bro", i say and he says it back before hanging up.

Now I've got to go into the lions den to give him bad news, I need to say it and get out of there. Seeing him sad and because its something I've said will break my heart.

I sigh getting up and going to the living room.