Behind the Closed Doors - KSIMON

04-ShutOut

EDITED✅
SIMON's POV-

I walk out my room to the living room and see JJ on FaceTime to Ellie. I hold myself from rolling my eyes. He says something about being bored without her, ouch. I feel the sick coming up my throat and I throw my self into the kitchen from the table and throw up in the sink.

"Yo Simon what the fuck?", JJ shouts and I can hear Ellie shouting why I was here during a lockdown. "He's living here", I hear JJ sigh as if he's embarrassed. I nod and smile sarcastically. I wipe my mouth and put the tap on.

"Not for long, im going home Jide", i say and he looks up at me. "The fuck you are", JJ says angrily. "Yes baby let it go home", I hear Ellie's screechy voice say through the phone. I laugh and walk to my room.

"Fuck this shit", i mumble and throw the lamp. I was so stupid. Me and JJ aren't hardly friends never mind anything beyond that. Fucking stupid stupid stupid. I pull my suitcase out and start packing. I ring my landlord while doing it and he says my apartment hasn't been touched and the rents been paid this month.

JJ probably paid it because he was planning on kicking me out. Well I've done the job for him.

"Your not leaving", JJ says coming in the room and looking at me packing. "Oh no Jide I'm packing for the fun of it", i spit sarcastically and he comes over and tips the suitcase over along with all my shit.

"What the fuck", i shout and he stops me from going to pick them up. "JUST LET ME FUCKING LEAVE", i shout and he looks taken back. "What? So you can kill your self? Starve yourself? I think not. I'm not having that shit on my back", he says meaning every word.

I stay silent and he seems to realise what he said within time. He goes to open his mouth but I storm past him and out the front door. It's March, it's either going to be freezing or going to be red hot

"SIMON GET THE FUCK BACK IN HERE", I hear JJ shouting and I just keep storming down the stairs. Fuck him. "SIMON", I hear him shout and of course the dumbass is following me.

I turn around and he stops right in front of me. "Leave me alone. Your a fucking dick", i say and he looks like he doesn't give a fuck. His face is just the face it always is. "Get back in that fucking apartment before I make you", he says in a warning tone and I scoff and go back.

I don't want to be hit by him, he's strong as fuck. I go to my room and slam the door as hard as I could and lock and then put a normal chair against the knob. God forbid he has a key to unlock it.

I jump onto the bed and put the TV on. I sigh and look at the ceiling. God I'm bored.

I turn the TV off and take the chair away from my door and unlock it. I peak out and see JJ's door shut meaning he's in there. I creep past and go to the kitchen.

I get stuff out to make a pizza, I'm bored and I guess I'm hungry. I start rolling out the dough and then blend some tomato paste and real tomatoes together. It was loud but i don't think JJ can hear.

Just as I finish with the blender my phone rings. I stand it up again the wall and answer. "Hey Simon my guyyyy", a very happy Tobi says and I smile at his smile.

"Happy mood?", i ask as I pour the red paste on the dough and he smiles and nods. "My dads home and better. Also sidemen video in about an hour", he says gassed up and my smile drops. Shit my set up.

"Hey I'll see you whenever we record sidemen video I gotta make this food", i say as I go to hang up I move out the way for a second and Tobi sees JJ's table.

"Hey ain't that JJ's?", he asks as I press the end button. How am I supposed to record when I have no setup? Fucksake I have to go talk to him.

I place cheese on the pizza and put it in the counter. I clean my hands and then make my way to JJ's room. "Hey JJ", i shout and he shouts something like come in.

"I don't have any of my shit to record with", i say and he looks confused. "How did you know we were recording?", he asks, is he tapped?

"I'm part of the sidemen you know? Of course someone was going to tell me, but obviously you weren't", i say disappointed. "Your shutting me out the sidemen", i confirm and he says nothing. I scoff and walk away before I can have anything spill out my mouth.

I called my landlord and asked if I could go get some of my shit and he said yeah. I sigh in relief and slip some shoes on and took JJ's keys for the car. My car is fucked, so his will have to do.

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I sighed as the pain in my back was relieved from carrying so much stuff, just as I walked back up the stairs to my old home my phone started ringing. Its JJ, fuck man.

"Jid?", i say as I unlock the door and it slams. I wince at the sound. "Where are you and my car?", he muses, wait he isn't mad? "We're at my old home, getting my stuff I didn't get a chance to", i say picking up some things and put them in a box.

"Right see you later then wear your mask", he says then just hanging up. I can't tell if he's mad or not.

I text Tobi saying I'm not feeling well and won't be in the sidemen video but I will be next week or in another one. He replies and then I put my phone in my pocket.

Let's go back to JJ's.