Behind the Closed Doors - KSIMON

06-Mute

EDITED✅
SIMON's POV-

I woke up next to JJ, or more like on top of him. "Get up", i say and he laughs. "Watching me sleep is creepy you know", i say and he rolls his eyes. "Let's go get breakfast somewhere", he says and I nod getting my self off of him.

I grab one of his hoodies and run off to my room. He won't even notice. I put some cargo pants on and then slip into a random shirt and then JJ's KSI hoodie.

I walk into his room and he's looking under his bed for something, "you ready?", i ask and he groans. "No I need to find my-", he stops talking and I look up at him and he stares at his hoodie. "Find my hoodie", he finished his sentence. "You little shit", he laughs before getting up and chasing me.

I laugh and run into another room which just leads to the kitchen. Fuck. I run into the living room and he comes out of the kitchen. I run back to his room and hide in his bathroom.

"Simon cone on", he says, i stifle my laugh and lock the door. That was loud. "Get out my bathroom you dork", he laughs and I laugh back. "If you let me wear your hoodie", i bargain and I hear him sigh then chuckle. "Okay come on I'm hungry", he sighs and I come out happily.

"Dick", he rolls his eyes like a child and I laugh before he opens the door and locks it. "Who's car?", i ask and he points to himself. "Can I drive?", i ask looking at him with the saddest face I can pull and he laughs. "Absolutely not", he says and I roll my eyes.

"I've drove it before", I argue and he nods. "Not with me in it", he says and I give in and get in the passenger side. JJ's crazy when he drives.

"Don't kill us", i say joking and he laughs. He revs the engine to life and I instantly put my seatbelt on. Not dying today.

"Oh so now you don't wanna die", JJ jokes and I look at him well .. shocked. "Shit Simon nah that was supposed to be a joke", he says fumbling over his own words. I unclick the seat belts and get out. "I'll make my self something to eat. You go get food", i say and walk back to the apartment. I had a key and knew where the spare was so I was all good.

I know he meant it as a joke but it wasn't funny to me. I get in and shut the door, i go to the living room and flip of the sofa. I sniff the hoodie and it smells like JJ. I groan loudly annoyed at my self then go to the kitchen.

I grab a smoothie then go to my room, JJ's with Ellie I can't like him like this but he isn't making it easy. What the fuck am I supposed to do? Be a brat? A bitch boy? A mute?

I should try being mute. I wish I had someone to talk to about all this shit but they'd look at me as if I'm crazy. Like not even Josh would want to understand all of this, the topic about being gay is either laughed about or denied so quickly you'd think it was wrong.

I think I'm Bi but I don't know. I've been with girls before, I've had sex with them but something was missing. I sip the smoothie and sit at my desk.

I put some songs on and start to jot down some video ideas for the sidemen and my channel unless it's just going to die off. I should get back on twitch too, maybe play some games with the lads.

***

It's been about an hour and I hear the front door. It slams and I don't know if that's because JJ's pissed or if he did it by accident but I decide to hide out in my room.

I carry on playing fifa but there was a knock at the door. "On a game", i shout and I heard him walk off saying something but I have my headset on so I don't know. I'll find out later no doubt.

"Right in a bit Simon", I hear Harry say before he leaves the game. I sigh and look at the time and by the looks of it we've spent all day playing fifa and other shitty games. It's nearly 6 pm so I get up and go to make something.

"I'll talk to you later El", I hear JJ say as I come in the room. "Don't let me stop youse I'm just grabbing a sandwich and going back on", i say walking past him even though he gets up to come near me. It felt weird being near him now we'd spent a night in a bed together.

I know he doesn't think of it like that but I do and he can't know that. He'd get me kicked out of the sidemen, because let's face it they need KSI more than they need me.

"Simon?", JJ asks but I don't say anything. I continue to butter the bread and grab some ham. "I was gonna order pizza?", he asks and I just hold up my sandwich as a no. I grab a water bottle and go to go to my room but he steps in front of me.

"If this is about what I said I'm sorry ok? It didn't mean to come out like that", he says sadly. I bite my tongue and try not to give in and talk to him. Which is all I want to do, but instead I move back from him and side step him and simply nod.

He looks pissed but before he can start his bitch fit I leave. "Fuck off then", I hear him grumble and I roll my eyes.

Of course he's a dickhead the minute he doesn't get what he wants. I mean what else was I expecting from him.