Behind the Closed Doors - KSIMON

05-Maccies

EDITED✅
JJ's POV (Surpirseeeee)

I sigh pissed Simon just left especially when there's so much sickness going on. He hasn't came back yet and I only hung up about half an hour ago. He lives 15 minutes away.

I sigh angrily and pick my phone up and dial his number. "Hello?", Simon asks.
"Where the fuck are you?", i ask and it comes out a lot harsher than I meant to. "Um I'm just on my way back", he says sadly and I instantly feel bad. But I shouldn't. I wouldn't if it was any of the other lads.

"Just hurry up", i say and hang up. I throw my phone across the room and knock my camera off and tell the boys bye.

Fuck man. I can't feel like this over Simon. I have a girlfriend. But I don't love her. I know I don't. She's just too good for me to let go. She makes my family have peace with me, make the fans think I'm happy, but god I'm not happy.

My thoughts are cut short when I hear the door open and Simon sighing like a dying old man. He drops a couple things before turning around and going back out the door.

He comes back with more boxes and goes to get some more but I just hold him in his place and go get them my self. He's gonna have a heart attack. I smile and laugh at the thought.

I bring up the last two boxes and see McDonald's food bags. He hates maccies, maybe that's why it was taking him so long, i roll my eyes at my self for being a dick and lock the car. I get to the front door and see Simon no where.

"Simon?", i shout out and he comes from his room with no shirt on and just his joggers. I drag my eyes away and pass him the boxes. "I'll plate your McDonalds up for you", i say and he shakes his head. "I only had enough money for one of us so I got your usual for you", he mumbles before going back into his now new gaming room.

I decided he could have that room since I didn't need it, my stuff was in my room. "We can share", i shout out and go to the kitchen and plate everything up and put some extra fries in the oven so we both have enough.

I walk with two plates of food to Simon's room and he's just sat on his bed. "You good?", i ask looking at him weirdly and he snaps his head to me and nods. Somethings up but I'm going to drop it for now.

I pass him his plate and he doesn't hardly touch it. "This food was for you", he murmurs still not touching the food. "I like to share", i say taking another mouth full of fries and Simon laughs. "No you don't", he says and I nod knowing he's right but for Simon Id do anything.

Even share my food. "Wanna watch a movie?", Simon asks and I nod. "You've got a bigger TV", he says getting up and going to my room. My eyes roll because I know it's a mess, I haven't cleaned up and I can't have a cleaner around since covid and that.

"Kinda messy by the way, just a heads up", i say as we go in and he laughs. "Not even close to how mine was", he mumbles and I nod agreeing, I remember how bad it was the day I went over and he was packing. You couldn't see the floor.

"What movie dipshit", Simon asks breaking my memories. "Horror", i answer smiling and his smile drops. He fucking hates horror movies and so do I but he'll never know that.

We both get on the bed and I get in the covers and Simon grabs a blanket. He's been in the covers with me before I don't know why he's acting weird about it. "Please pick one that isn't too horrifying", he pleads and I laugh. "Okay Si", i muse before pressing play on The Nun.

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Simon had fell asleep and his head was on my chest. I slowly turned the movie down before sliding down my headboard and laying down. That felt nice, my back is aching. Simon fell asleep three minutes into the movie which I'm glad for because then he wouldn't have seen me cover my eyes like a lil bitch.

The room is dark, it's quiet and all I can feel is Simon's heartbeat against mine. I sigh and smell his scent and it's all I want to smell. But I can't.

He doesn't like me like that, and I can definitely not like him like that. But we have another god knows how many months in here together, is it worth me shooting my shot?