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TW :
CW :degrading flashback, mentions of kidnapping, not eating
SAPNAP POV
I heard footsteps approaching, Dream's. I already could tell apart who was coming, he opened the door to me sobbing into my knees. I tried to stay quiet but I could hear his voice echoing through my head, telling me to stop crying. He sighed and shut the door behind him, I looked up and he walked towards me to now sit beside me, I flinched as the mattress moved. He hummed a tune and wrapped his arm over my shoulder, I flinched again but melted into his touch, he just continues to hum to me. I fall into his side, resting my head on his shoulder.
"You okay?" I nod tiredly,
"your Mum is coming, she should be here tomorrow morning and we will go meet her around midday," he mumbled, I smile and looked at him.
"Thank you.." I whisper quietly
"You'll visit?" he asks, I only nod. I'd like to visit. When i'm happier.
"Want to go eat dinner?" I shake my head, eating made me hear his voice again, it made me hear him humiliating me. It reminded of the years I was forced to either starve or eat on my hands and knees out of a bowl, naked, on camera. Like a dog.
"You haven't eaten today.." I shrug, moving my head on his shoulder to find a more comfortable spot.
"How about we go get some food and eat here in bed? Mum got pizza," he says, I used to love pizza. I hum, he sat up. I didn't want to move.
"I'll bring up a box, margarita okay?" I nod.
"Come on Pandas, eat?"
what's wrong mutt? eat your food. Can't have you dying on me, you don't make me enough money to die yet. Go on eat. There you go, look up at the camera slut, eyes on the camera while you eat.
I fall out of the voices with a shiver, Dream sat beside me scrolling through TV shows to watch on Netflix. I bite into my slice of pizza again and watch him flip between the shows tiredly,
"Want to finish that Spiderman movie?" I hum.
I held my breathe, covering my hand over my mouth so I wouldn't wake Dream again, he always seemed to hear me at night — even from his own room. I rocked back and forth. I want to sleep. Why can't I just stay asleep like a normal person? I want to be normal. Normal like Dream, George, Quackity and Karl.
I heard a knock, it wasn't Dream. I was good like that, I learnt to distinguish peoples footsteps and behaviours apart. Just by sound.
"Want Clay?" Drista asks, she had opened the door a bit, Patches sprinting and leaping up onto the bed and sitting in front of me, I shook my head and took a breath again. Patches calmed me down. I understood her better than I understood people, she could sense the tension and was only trying to help. Everyone else seemed so forced when they spoke to me, like an act they put on just for me.
"Darling are you ready to talk now?" I nod at the women, Dream told me I could keep Patches with me, my legs were crossed on the couch and she laid quietly.
"Your full name?"
"Nicholas Ryan,"
"How old are you?"
"12,"
"When were you kidnapped,"
"March.. 2010
"Do you know who kidnapped you?"
I shake my head.
"Was it a man?"
I nod.
"Our UnSub is around his 30-40s, is that right?"
I nod again.
"Did he touch you in your private areas? or make you touch his?"
I nod.
"Was it only him doing that?"
"Lots of people, but he was always there. The rest just used me and left.."
"Women and men?"
I nod.
"Were there cameras?"
I nod. They look at each other. I look down and start to stroke Patches again.
"Start to look for child pornography in LA on the dark web, take note of everyone but don't shut anything down. He'd take it down if he saw other sites getting taken down, look for Nicholas."
A man leaves the room.
"I heard you went iceskating yesterday, did you have fun?"
I hum. She was only trying to change the subject.
"The boys are nice to you?"
I nod again.
"Happy to see your Mum?"
"Yes. Thank you."
I mumble.
After I spoke to the detectives and helped them draw the man who kidnapped me, Dream's Mum was driving me to see my Mum. All the boys came. I cried when I said bye to Patches,
I love her a lot.
"We're here," she said, I looked out the window, she smiled, she looked hurt though, she took off her seatbelt, so did the boys. But we just sat, in silence.
"Sweetie, I want you to know that no matter what you can always call this home. I'm very happy you get to go home to your Mum," I smile at her. I felt like crying.
"Come let's go, boys remember your manners at lunch," Karl looked the saddest, sadder than Dream even.
I saw her. My Mum, she was crying, happy tears. A floral scarf around her head, I hadn't seen her like that before. I ran towards her and hugged her tightly, she showered my face in kisses. I didn't have any flashbacks. I just love her so much.
"My boy, My boy..." she repeated.
"Sweet boy, oh your all beaten and bruised, I love you so much, my baby." She cried. I cried.
"I love you, Mama.." I whispered into her chest, I never wanted to let go. It had been years of waiting for this moment.
"You're so tall now, and so thin! You're so thin, my baby... I've waited for you everyday!" we hug for minutes on end, she finally lets go, I wipe my tears, she runs to Marisa and hugs her so tightly. I looked down, Karl started to approach me, I could hear my mum repeatedly thanking Marisa.
"Nick?" I look up at Karl, I hugged him, he hugged me back, running his hand through the back of my head, stroking my hair gently.
"Your Mum really missed you.." Dream mumbled, I look back at Marisa and my Mum sitting and both crying. A few booths across the room.
"Patches will miss you a lot," I smile.
"So will we, hopefully you get to spend a few more days here before you go home.." Karl adds. I nod. I'd like to stay here. With my Mum. But she has a life at home.
"You should eat, Pandas.."
YOU ARE READING
Losing Hope.
Fanfiction[KARLNAP] Kidnapped for years and finding his way to a small town in which 4 young boys take him in and help him find his way home. Sapnap's home safe, his mother's sick and short on money. After years he still writes letters to the boys, getting 4...
