i woke up at 3am to get a headstart on my day. i live 18 minutes away from the school, and class only starts at 8:00 o clock. But im a morning person, so i think 3am will do.
i hate school but it keeps me busy. it takes my mind off of things i dont necessarily want to think about. which is fine because this summer was boring. since i had no one to spend it with.
usually in summer people go to six flags, disneyland, fancy restaurants, ect. but thats no fun when youre by yourself. as i thought about this i set my outfit out.
it was simple. a black cropped wife beater, and some pajama jeans, with an olive green hoodie. simple, with converses. ily chuck taylor <3.
i walk to the kitchen and grab a cup, ro fill it with lukewarm water. i walk over to the window seal where my plants sit. daylight hasnt peeked through the sky yet so its still kinda dark. i open the blinds and open the window.
i take the water and pour it into each plant "ayayla" i say and pour water into the first plant. "yesi" i pour water into the next. and lastly "calerin" as i pour out the rest of the water.
yes. i named my plants! leave me alone. im not weird i swear. I let the breeze blow into the room since the window was still open.
i sigh and walk into the bathroom, i grab my red bath towel. and a white washcloth. i turn the hot water on and step inside the shower after i take my robe off. i lather my loofa with soap and begin to wash my body.
its something so soothing about take showers at dusk. i dont need a light to see anything. the warm water hitting your body as the darkness around you folds into your essence.
its great.
i finish my shower and get dressed. i put on my clothes. i glance over at the clock. 4:03 am. it reads. i still have plenty of time. i pack my bookbag and my purse and sit it by the door. my car keys on the counter.
i let my hair dry into their natural curls. and sit in the front room to watch tvd. S5 E1 it says and i click continue watching. seconds later my phone rings.. who the fuck.
i get up and scram into my room. i grab my phone kinda excited. 'Scam Likely'. oh. oh. i put the phone down realizing how desperate i was for someone to call me. i sigh and go back to the front room.
i turn the tv off and go back to get my phone. i open my emails and check my work schedule. great. i have work today. ok, well! im so excited for that :/. not. im so bored idek what to do. i go on ig and see that vinnie guy followed me.
yesterday i saw his post captioned ' i like girls with black hair' i literally smiled at the phone elemayo. i have black hair (duh). but im pretty sure it wasnt targeted towards me. its too many options out there for him to pick me.
he had followed me, probably just being nice. i followed back of course. he seemed like a gentleman.
vinnie
"look vinnie you have to get back on your medication or god knows what youre gonna do." the therapist said.
"why should i, mackenzie" i replied back sarcastically. fuck no, why would i want to get back on that non working medicine. all it does is make me numb in the end im still the same person.
"well, because ur a masochisitic, bipolar, sexual sadist. vinnie. thats why" she says sounding concerned. "you know all of that stuff just makes me sound like a bad person" i say back to her as i smirk.
i mean really, i sound like i murder children for fun. im just very horny, and into some, ratherr kinky things. like most people my age. and i dont care about other peoples feelings. so? why should i.
and those personality swings? WHO EVEN CARESS. its not that serious."i am not saying youre a bad person vinnie, im just saying you need to take ur medications before you become a bad person that's all" she states all professionally.
"alright mackenzie, i think im done for the day. its too early for all of this" i say back and end the zoom. a look at my phone 5:00 am. 6 texts from lyvie and, a follow back from... sage. oh?
my face lights up. what a cutie. i open my messages and see lyvies messages.
vinnie i have ao many bruises from yesterday
it hurts
im still bleeding
but yk anything for you 💗
hey u there?
hey that knife cut a little deep vin
vin😩 oh ok.
love you see you at school read 5:28 am
goddamn if she don't leave me alone istg. i start getting ready for this dumb ass school. i walk out of my room to see nai and hub on the couch. shes straddling him and hes grinding her hips against his lap. "eww" i say and fake gag.
they jump up. and i laugh as i go over to the refrigerator, to get some ice. crushed ice. to eat. they laugh and take whatever they started to their room. kio comes down with some girl. olivia i think.
he waves at me and i nod back. going back into my room to get ready for school.
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ok what are yalls thoughts on this chapter . i think its kinda funny 🧍🏻.. BYE WHY IS THE EMOJI SLANTED LOL.
im so happy for this book i feel like its soming along so well and we're only on chapter 3 amazeballs!!
what's do yall think of vinnie.. is he crazy or just misunderstood? mmm maybe a bit of both???🥵😜
