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Fishy, fishy ..

Todd's divorce had been settled for over a week now and I still felt awful about the way it ended. We spent more time together now. He went to check ups with his ex-wife regarding the baby. She never spoke to me and I can see why. I wouldn't want to speak to me either. Other than that we had no other issues besides the fact that I always wanted to see how Todd knew me the way he did. It was like he saw straight through me. Lately he's been staying up late online doing some type of work he claimed he had. One night, I got up and snuck behind him while he was on the computer and wrapped my arms around him. He quickly shut the computer and I scrunched up my face and said, "Secretive much?" He laughed it off and said,"Na just working that's all." He turned around and hugged me like I just didn't see him trying to hide something from me. Now I was very much curious as of why he figured he needed to hide something from me. I left it alone and played it off smoothly by saying, "All right well I'll let you continue to work just come to bed when you're finished." I walked back to the room and got in the bed and said to myself,"I'll find out what he's doing." But is it invading privacy? In my house, I don't think so. He soon came to bed and cuddled me. Sleep now, find out what he's hiding later, I told myself.

8:05am
He woke up earlier than usual around the same time I got up for work but today, I actually had free time. He made a coffee and said to me with a kiss, "I'm hitting the gym." I nodded as I started to chop up my fruit and watch him leave. Now is my chance to see what he was hiding last night on this computer. I waited for him to pull off and I rushed to the laptop. I went to my recents and search bar. I found conversations with him and Blu on a messenger app. Looks to me they were arguing over who gets custody of the child but I wondered why when the child wasn't even born yet. Further down in the messages Blu stated, "You're not well, I tried to get you clean but you didn't want my help. That's why we're in this situation now." Clean from what? I asked myself as I continued to read. Blue kept texting back to back paragraphs saying, "When you left the house I found your stash in the basement. You relapsed this whole time under my nose." She sent the picture of .... what appeared to look like drugs. I gasped. Todd was on drugs? How couldn't I see this either? He responded back to her by saying,"I did not have a relapse I've been going steady and I am perfectly fine to see my child and continue these doctors visits." Blu seemed to disagree because she responded with,"Don't get that girl hooked like you almost had me. There's not that much love In the world." I frowned. Was he that bad off? She kept messaging saying, "I'm done trying to help you. You are her problem now." I heard a car door slam and looked up. Todd was back. He must've left something. I exited out of the app online and sat on a stool and started to eat my fruits. As he walked in quickly I said, "You're finished fast." He chuckled and said,"Forgot my bag." He picked up the bag, kissed my cheek, and left once more. I had to contact Blu about this situation. I clicked back into the app And searched for her number and address. I had to see her. I slipped into some clothes and headed over soon as I found the address. As I approached her house, I slowly parked on the side of the road careful not to draw any attention to myself. I rushed up to her door and rang the doorbell impatiently. It took a while for her to come to the door and when she did her face frowned. "I know I'm not the person you would like to see but I need to know what's going on," I stated pleadingly. She smirked,"Did he tell you yet?" Silence. "Oh you saw the messages," She said as a matter fact. She opened the door for me to walk in and I did. "How far gone is he?" I asked concerned. She looked at me puzzled and stated,"Far enough but you won't ever tell because he hides it well." Clearly. I sighed and put my head in my hands. "Aw you like him?" She teased,"Honey, get out of it while you can." She walked over to her fridge and opened it and continued to say," I did." As she shut it back, I just stared dumbly. "Let him down gently btw," she said, for your sake." Silence. Omg what have I gotten myself into? I got up to leave and she replied slyly,"Good luck. With a man like that, he'll never get a chance to see his child. He's charming, manipulative, and claims he knows everything. Get out before it's too late. Don't let him overpower you." I nodded and left out thinking," I had to end this. I knew I should've In the first place." I rode back home and as I made it back, Todd's car was parked out front. I walked in and he frowned,"Where were you?" "I went for a drive, you're done early, I stated cooly. He stared at me and said,"Oh a drive huh? Did you see Blu?" I rolled my eyes and said,"Who? Why would I go see her?" He turned the computer around. I left the messages opened that revealed the address in the conversation and her address. Dummy. "Oh that?, no I didn't go see her I just went for a drive, I said uneasily." Silence. He stared into my core as I shifted my feet from side to side. He knew I was lying. He walked up to me and I backed away. "Don't lie to me," he stated calmly. "Now did you go see her?" Silence. I froze. He giggled. Coldness ran down my spine as he laughed. This was new. He walked behind me and said," Thought we were better than this since we started over." A chill ran down my spine as he kissed my neck. Out of nowhere he grabbed my neck and threw me to the floor! I hit the floor hardly and struggled to get away. He caught me and picked me up once more and yelled,"Why did you go see her?! To listen to her lies??? Huh??" I started to cry as I said,"You're on drugs, you're sick Todd please let me go." He put me down and said,"What did you say to me?" He inched towards me and I backed away once more. "Say it again," he demanded. I jumped in fear as he stepped in my space and and repeated,"Say it again." Silence. He started to pace the floor and scream,"You read the messages?! You bitch that's an invasion of privacy!" "It's my house you need
to leave now!" I yelled. He stopped in his tracks and looked at me and smirked. "Whew, balls huh?" He joked. "Where was this energy when you were fucking a married man huh whore?!" I frowned and said,"You son of a bitch no wonder she won't let you see your child. You're unwell." His smile faded and he stared into my eyes. I felt cold all of a sudden. He charged at me and slapped me to the floor yelling,"Don't you ever speak on that!" He started to kick me on the floor and I shielded my face and whimpered. I had to get up, I had to fight back. He soon stopped and tuned his back saying,"I thought you were different. Easy to fuck, never complained, easy to please." I slowly got up and grabbed a glass behind me. As he kept speaking to himself I slammed the glass over his head and he fell to the floor with a thud. I rushed to my room and locked the door behind me. I looked all around for my phone and couldn't find it. Where tf was it? A slam into my door caught my attention. Shit! He was gonna kick it down. I looked all around the room and opened a window so he would think I climbed out. I got under the bed covering my mouth as the door flew off the hinges and he walked in slowly. I watched his feet as he walked to the window and looked out. "Fuck," he muttered to himself as he exited the room. I waited a few minutes and eased myself out from under the bed and rushed to my laptop to signal for emergency 911. I got in contact and typed quickly: send help to 2325 Windmill rd .... I barely got to press send when my hair was grabbed from behind and I was swung to the floor! I cried out in pain as he got on top of me on the floor and started pounding on me on my sides and my stomach. "You fucking selfish bitch!" He yelled as he kept pounding on me. The pain started to get unbearable as he kept going on and on. I spotted something on the floor next to me and grabbed for it. I had no idea what it was as my vision started to get blurry. My fingers wrapped around it and I swung as hard as I could. Todd fell off me in a jiffy and I rolled over in pain. I attempted to crawl away being that he was still knocked unconscious. I managed to raise  myself up and get to the door. I had to get away from him quick, fast, and in a hurry. I reached the kitchen and grabbed a knife. I felt a presence behind me, and soon as I turned around with the knife, he fell into it. I gasped as he did and I started to cry. He struggled to say something and pushed off of the knife onto the floor. I sat on the floor next to him and continued to cry. I forced myself up seconds later and a hand grabbed my foot. I fell and Todd surprisingly started to crawl on top of me and choke me! I struggled to breathe and he started to tighten his grip. Everything started to get blurry. Omg this is it. I shouldn't of fucked a married man this is exactly what I get for being horny. Tears screamed down my face as I went in and out of consciousness. I'm unaware what happened. All I know is, darkness took over. I woke up with the ambulance in my face and oxygen under my nose. I panicked and sat up as they urged me to take it easy and lay back. I spotted Blu watching me intently and Todd being lifted onto a stretcher, dead Im assuming. I touched my neck as the ambulance people checked me throughly and lifted me onto a stretcher into the truck. Blu got in with me and said,"Yes I saved you. Told you he was too far gone." I sighed and laid back on the stretcher and said,"Thanks." She smiled and held my hand,"Women have to stick together when dealing with a maniac with good D." We both laughed as I held my side in pain. "Don't make me laugh," I said. She smirked and said,"Shouldn't of got with a married druggy." I shook my head and said,"You shouldn't of married one and gave him to me."  "Bitch," she said giggling. We laughed all the way to the hospital because in reality, I knew better. I thought it was karma and I was finally fine with it. But one thing I can say for sure, I would most definitely read and watch the signs next time I encounter anyone. This was one for the books and this book was finished.