8 sips of Wine | Stray Kids AU fanfiction

Trust was never here

After Chan refused to give any kind of explanation, they all went to their dorms in silence. Jeongin was reading a book about medicine ignoring Chan completely.

-Innie...

- Chris.

-Say my name once more.

-What?

Jeongin turned his head to the left only for his eyes to meet with Chan's lips. They were millimeters apart, Chan's heavy breath lingering on Jeongin's nose.

-What are you doing?

-Call my name once more.

-Chris...

Jeongin was focused on Chan's lips he wanted to taste so bad. That was the forbidden fruit. He knew that once he would take a bite he won't be able to stop. But he wanted that so bad. The urge to connect with Chan even for a second. That was eating him alive. Chan bent down and their pressed his lips against Jeongin's. The latter felt weak against the dominant Chan, but he was longing it. To feel Chan's hand grabbing his jaw and his tongue claiming his owning over Jeongin's mouth. He wanted that. Since he met Chan he hold himself from initiating something. It felt so good yet so wrong.

Flashes of Chan talking about his attempts of flirting with Minho made Jeongin's heart squeeze painfully. And tears starting streaming down his rosie cheeks. Chan backed off for a second, then tried to wipe his face, but Jeongin pushed him away.

-Innie?

-You enjoy playing with other's feelings, huh? Or maybe this is some sick way to cope the guilt of hiding those stuff from us.

Jeongin got up to leave, but Chan grabbed him by the wrist.

-Where are you going?

-I'm sleeping on the couch! Good night, hyung!

Chan let the boy go and remained silent in the darkness with his head in his palms.

In the living room

-Want a beer?

Jeongin looked up from the blanket and saw Minho with two bottles of alcohol in hands.

-Is that ok?

-We are criminals wanted by the police and you are worried about underage drinking? Minho raised an eyebrow.

Jeongin took one bottle and started pouring the liquid down his throat.

-None of us had time to digest this night. It's normal to fight some time to time.

Jeongin was staring at Minho and jealousy was the only feeling that couldn't be numbed by the beer he had in his hand. The worst part is that he could totally see why Chan picked Minho. Those eyes, that perfect nose and those cheekbones. He was perfect.

-He doesn't love me... And it hurts so bad, mumbled Jeongin before crying his heart out in Minho's chest.

The latter caressed his back to soothe him while siping from his glass.

-I envy you, Jeongin. You have the guts to reject him cause you won't accept a relationship if it's not mutual. I could never be that brave. I deceive myself everyday by pretending Jisung will ever learn to love me. I'm pathetic.

In Jisung and Minho's room

Jisung was laying on his bed when Seungmin entered the room.

-Hey, Jisung?

-What?

-How long had you been working at that bar?

-Why?

-I just wanna know for how long he's been following us.

-One year.

-One year? That's a lot. I can't even imagine how it is to...

Seungmin was cut off by an irritated Jisung who understood exactly what he was talking about.

-Seungmin! Stop it! It's not what you think.

-I know. I don't understand how that works, but I won't judge. You do what you have to do, he shrugged it off with a nervous laugh.

-Seungmin, for God's sake! Let me finish... I'm a virgin.

Seungmin was left aback by that.

-What? But I thought...

-My boss didn't let anyone touch me. Now I believe that was Chan's idea as well.

-And what about you and Minho hyung? Didn't you...

-Never. He wanted of course, but I didn't let him. He respected my decision and never asked again.

-Now I'm sorry for him. You're torturing him.

-Yeah... I'm a horrible person, I know.

In Hyunjin and Changbin's room

-Hyunjin! There you are! said Felix happy.

He slowly crawled under the blanket next to Hyunjin.

-Are you mad cause I said Yeji is pretty? Are you jealous?

-Why would I be? We are not a thing. It happened once and that's all.

Felix wrapped his arms around Hyunjin and sighed.

-You're such a baby. We are a thing. I wouldn't be here right now if we weren't. I promised I will prove it to you.

Hyunjin turned around to face Felix and started playing with his hair.

-You're a little devil with an angel face, after all. How can I trust your unconditional love when I know you are affectionate with everyone?

In Chan and Jeongin's room

-Still working this late?

Chan's bed was covered in piles of paper. He whipped his head towards the door to see Changbin.

-Binnie! At least one of you guys still talks to me.

-I just came to tell you how big of a douche you are.

-Of course you did.

Changbin crossed his arms and stared angry at Chan.

-I usually wouldn't care about what you're doing, but tonight you hurt us all. Especially our 3racha maknae. And I can't forgive that. When you brought me here you told me to find a reason to keep living in them. That's what I'm doing. They don't deserve to be treated like that. Ji is a sensible kid. I can see in his eyes he've been trough a lot. All of them did.

-But in my eyes you don't see the pain? asked Chan forcing himself to smile.

-You're holding there waterfalls of tears. If you keep hiding it, you're gonna drown.

-I'm a dead man anyway.