Sarah PAULSON'S one shots

you are, the start of something new

Mildred x reader
Straight up smut bitches
⚠️Mention of sexual trauma

Mildred seductively sank to her knees while she reached for the treasure you were hiding in your trousers. Hands fumbling with the fabric trying to get her fingers to unbuckle your belt, her eyes fixated on her goal.
"You know you could just ask darling"
You said as your hands found hers to calm her movements, "I'm sorry... I thought.. I was sure I'd get it but I'm not too familiar with this mechanism"
"It's okay Mildred"
You stroked the space underneath her wrist and began to open your belt for her, the second she heard that familiar click her Fingers were on your buttons, back to her urging ministrations.
As soon as she was done the pants fell and her hand reached out to hold the strap-on you were wearing on top of your underwear.
She had been sensitive to how you always seemed to balance an over masculine act by a sort of feminine thing, like a reminder that what she was doing was still with a woman. A gentle caress, a soft word, a high pitched moan, or even just the way your eyes seemed to shine with pride and admiration when she was underneath you taking the rubber length, or sitting on your lap while you guided your strap inside her, never fast and dry like some other men had done in the
Somehow you were mindful of what she had experience with men. Today, the softness of the laced panties you were wearing was enough to ground her, telling her that although there was a dick attached to you it was still yours to control.

There had been time when this intimacy would have been rejected, before when you were both exploring with these aspects of your sexuality, Mildred had laughed and hurled at the own thought of you taking her the way a men would, she had mumbled something about not going to go back to having sex like she did with men now that she was coming to terms with her lesbianism.

But eventually, your patience and love showed her that she was safe, that the way you wanted to dominate her was nothing vile, non-consentiual, or predatorus. That you would only ever explore that if being submissive was something she would want, and that you would never press for anything like men had before, when they shoved themselves inside her, their calloused, and tough hands, handling her like she was nothing but a sac of potatoes, only ever needing her body and barely interested in anything else then emptying their balls.

She still tastes them on her tongue, fells them inside her body, stretching and breaking her. She remembers their faces and voices too well, the images vivid in her mind, at night she'll have the same nightmares.

Sometimes when she gains back her consciousness, she'll find herself curled up in your arms, seeking your warmth, your safety, the way your hands never feel dangerous rough, or careless, the way they always seem to touch her skin with the most tenderness.

She discovered touch when she met you, startling at first when she didn't know it could be harmless, and even sweetz but eventually the more your gentle caresses fell upon her skin the more she grew thirsty for that affection. And when the grip of her darkness wouldn't completely let go of her in the morning, her body sweaty and her nightgown riddled up, you would always sooth her back to calmness, rubbing her back, gently easing down the hem of the fabric to cover her again completely, your soft words making her forget about the sharp insults and harsh slaps she received, the men who threw her on their bed and tore her underwear, how their fingers seemed to burn her skin when they gripped and touched at her skin.

She was barely 11 when her body started appealing obscene men, her foster father had commented on how her breasts were slowly growing, and had kneaded her thigh with his hand.
there was also Edmund, and what they were forced to do in front of these people.
Oh how she despised them, their prying eyes on her young figure, laughing and clapping as the layer of clothes fell on the floor, grunting while Edmund used his mouth on her, or she on him.
Surely if you knew were hers had been you'd never kiss it again, look at her like the dirty thing she is.
And then there was all the horrible sex she had with men, when she was convincing herself this is how being intimate was supposed to feel. Like when she was with that oskshdke he had slammed her against the door before even asking what was her name, she'd tell him to wait a little but he was to quick at removing her nurse uniform and sinking her to the floor, 'you know what to do nurse bitch' unfortunately for her she did know, how every men that had come across her had had the same behavior. So just like she had been taught she swallowed her pride, shut the voices in her head telling her to get away from this, no Mildred, this is how women and men have sex, you're supposed to enjoy how he wants it, he is, it's the way it has to be. Stay on your knees and be the slut you always are.
Her mind had been reckless and cruel to her since she was little, it was the only right way to protect herself, and she knew it.
"Honey ?... Where are you right now ?" She felt your hand on her cheek, lifting her head just to look into your eyes, always so warm, waiting for her to come back to you.
"I..I sorry .. I'm...I"
"It's okay sweetheart, take your time, I'm right here with you"
You didn't move in fear of straddling her, so instead you bent down and placed a kiss on her forehead, "whenever you're ready"
"I am...i just got lost in my thoughts for a minute"
"Okay baby...good or bad ones ?"
"..not...I.. "
"Alright I got it"
You slowly tries pulling her back up.
"no wait ?!"
"What is it baby ? What do you need"
"Can we.. can you just kiss me ?"
"From here ?"
"Yes...please"
You captured her lips with yours, at first feather light, not wanting to add any toughness, but your hands lacing the back of her neck and cradling her shoulders, while hers held onto your forearms sweetly. You pulled back when air became rare.
"I love you Mildred with all my soul"
"I love you too y/n, with what's left of it"
You continues making out passionately, Mildred getting bolder with each passing seconds until she urged you to take off your top, and was met yet again by a lacy green bra that covered your chest.
"...oh...It's my favorite"
"I know that's exactly why I put it on baby.."
Your fingers laced her dress straps, gently pulling them down her shoulders
"Can I take this off ?"
She nodded before breathing out a delicate yet eager 'yes'.
You took your time uncovering her breasts from the sweet orange dress she was in, delighted to see the braless milky skin as you went down, her boobs bouncing a little as it passed upon them.
"You look so amazing my darling, you make me..goodness...so aroused right now"
You captured her mouth in a kiss again, steady and slow first. To show her this love was genuine. Then a little bit hungrier, she moaned against your palms when you kneaded her chest. And then again as you dragged your finger around her skin, completely missing her nipple on cue, the feather light touch making her whine and plead for more. She rubbed her thighs together at the lack of attention, the movement not going unoticed by you, the way her pale legs peeked from underneath her dress, how she sat on her heals naked from except for where her discarded dress bunched up at her hips.
Her hands found the forgotten member between your legs, one look into her eyes and you're doubts fell, she still reassured " I'm okay. I want to do this..."
"Just know it's okay if you don't... I won't be disappointed or anything, I love you"
"I know but it's turning me on to think about you wanting to have me like that, you do right ?"
"Oh god yes... You have no idea how much I wanna fuck your mouth when you look so hot right now" she felt her own clit throbbing at your words.
She began licking the strap sensually, her hand pushing and pulling it against you, you gathered her hair in your hands, fingers rubbing her scalp, the mix of gentle touch and dominanting grip made her body vibrate with want. When you had started to do this you had insisted Mildred let you wear a smaller one, so it would be more comfortable for her "I don't care about the size it's what I have you do that turns me on" you had said. She knows that even now she could ask for a smaller one if she needed it, but with time came practice and eventually you grew sizes.
As she got the toy more wet she started gently easing it into her mouth, this process wasn't necessarily hard because she knew you wouldn't push it further, that you would wait patiently for her to accommodate to you. She got more confident and began bobbing her head on the toy, "you look so hot like this princess". Her saliva was dripping down and coaxing the strap as your hand guided her movements, your eyes fixated on it disappearing and reappearing from her mouth, moaning at the sight. You noticed her eyes were closed as she sucked off the strap her hands at the base of it pushing it towards your hips.
"Look at me when you do that"
Her eyes opened and found yours, looking up slightly shy. "Oh don't... Like you're any inocent here sucking my dick"
As things progressed she went a bit harder and faster. Your grip tightening in her hair, and your hips slightly jerking forward,
After a while you pulled out of her mouth while you held her hair back "such a good girl for me" your other hand wondered down to grab her boobs. She moaned as you finally rolled her nipples between your fingers, slowly making your way down to kiss her, and playfully nibble her earlobe. You whispered "You really should suck me off more often" she moaned again, her arousal could be smelled from where you were standing.
You took of the wet toy before finding a vibrator for Mildred who was begging to make a move "don't move Mildred I want you spread out on your knees for me"
She heavily nodded before she heard you "you have words speak up darling"
"Yes please y/n"
"There you go sweet thing"
You went back to her and attached the device to her hips, not yet angling it to her clit but just on the side of her inner thigh, her hips bucked in search of more friction.
"P..Please....I'm so wet fuck me"
It slipped out of her and she immediately regretted it, worried she had scared you, you read her face and reassured her.
"It's okay baby, you're not gonna scare me so easily, is that what you call me when you think about me fucking you hard ?"
Her head went up and down in agreement
"Speak up Mildred"
"Yes"
"Be patient will you, I'll give you what you want soon"
Your hands spread her thighs wider, and your fingers played with her folds.
You circled her bundle before while you kissed her neck, and set the toy to a high frequency on her clit.
Your hands squeezed her hips while you got back on your feet in front of her.
Your palm found her chin and you held her face while she grinded on the toy, "I want you to look at me when you cum"
She kept rocking her hips as waves of pleasure hit her. Her moans filling the room,
Your name falling from her lips, as she was getting closer to release. Your fingers caressing her skin as you looked down on her "F..FUCK! Y/n...I I'm gonna...C..cum"
"Go ahead darling"
"Oh god ! Huuhh y/n !" She screamed as she tumbled over the edge, her body tensing, back arch before she started convulsing in pleasure, the afterwaves of her pleasure hitting her.
"There you are my sweet girl"

You detached the toy, and cradled Mildred in your arms, resting her against the mattress.
When you got up to get some wipes to clean her up she tensed, thinking maybe you were leaving her right after sex like many people had done to her.

"Don't worry baby I'm just getting something to clean you up before bed"
You spoke knowing she was beginning to worry.
You retrieved back to the room, gently tapping her legs to signal her that she could open her legs which she did, she gently shuddered, still sensitive after her recent orgasm.
You got ready for bed and joined Mildred, cuddled with her, your fingers playing with her hair and hand resting on her hipbone whispering sweet words to one another.