If you love me let me go (Cameron Dallas imagine)

Chapter 14

Phoebes POV
Later that evening we all went out to dinner. For the first time this whole trip I felt at peace. Brittany was gone, Cameron and I were getting along, Jack and Taylor were together, everything was perfect.

"So how's your decision on New York coming Phoebe?" Matt whispered while we were at the dinner table. Crap. Well everything was perfect until I remembered that I have 1 week left to make a decision before the New York Company starts looking for someone else. I really want to go but I also really want to stay here. If I stay then maybe Cameron and I will finally have a chance to be together but if I leave I'll be left to wonder what if.

"Can we not talk about this right now?" I whisper back as politely as possible.

"Sure. No problem," Matt smiles,"sorry for bringing it up."

"It's okay." I give a soft smile back.

It's about 10:00 and we're all finally heading back to the hotel. Taylor and I wave goodnight to the boys and head up to our room.

"I'm gonna put on my pajamas. I am so sick of wearing these clothes!" Taylor groans. I breathe a laugh and plop onto the covers. I'm scrolling through my Twitter when I get the reminder to reply to the New York email. I need to tell Taylor. I don't want to get to end of the week and wait until then to tell her.

She walks out of the bathroom, pulling her hair into a messy bun. Nows the perfect time.

"Taylor, I have something to tell you."

"Sure, what is it Pheebs?" Her eyebrows knit together and she plops down on the bed next to me.

"So you know how like a few months ago I sent a couple transcripts to a couple of writing companies?"

"Yeahhh." she says confused.

"Well one of them responded an-"

"Oh Phoebe that's so exciting!" She says cutting me off, my mouth still open from being mid sentence. "What did they say?!"

"That's what I wanted to tell you. A company in New York responded and they loved my piece and they offered me a job but the position is in New York." Taylors face has now changed from a smile to a frown.

"Well you told them you can't go, right? You're not going to New York."

"Not exactly. I haven't told them a decision. To be honest I don't even know what my decision is."

"Well even though the selfish part of me wants to tell you that you can't go to New York," she sighs, "the best friend part of me wants to tell you that I will support you no matter what decision you make."

I smile and hug her. "Thank you Taylor."

She giggles and hugs me back, "no problem Pheebs." When we pull away she asks me, "if you don't mind me asking, what's keeping you from taking this opportunity?"

"Honestly? Cameron. I originally was like this would be a great opportunity for me to get over him but then he broke up with Brittany and now I feel like, maybe I have a chance." It sound pretty pathetic now that I'm saying it out loud, but it's true. I don't know what it is about him but I just can't let him go.

"You have to tell Jack." Taylor states. I groan in response. I know I do but I was hoping I'd have a little down time between telling Taylor and Jack. "like now." she says interrupting my thoughts. I get up and walk down to him and Johnson's room.
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"Phoebe? What are you doing here so late?" Gilinsky says, squinting his eyes and running his fingers through his hair. Wow. He may be my best friend, and my other best friends boyfriend, but he is hot.

"I have something important to tell you and I didn't want to wait."

"Okay Pheebs but we should probably go downstair, Johnson's sleeping." we say looking back and lightly laughing.

"So what'd you wanna tell me?" I take a deep breath and tell him the whole story. His eyes widen a couple times but his facial expression has virtually remained the same. I really am glad though that he's taking it well. I don't know what I would do if he was upset.

"That's really exciting Phoebe." he says as I come to a close, but with some disappointment in his voice.

"But?" I say, assuming he had a but coming at the end of his sentence. He laughs and continues, "but if you decide to take the job I'm really going to miss you." he says hugging me and pulling me close to his chest.

"Wow you smell good." I say. He lets out a loud deep laugh.

"I'm going to miss you if you go Pheebs but I'll always support you." he says pulling me tighter and kissing the top of my head.

"Man. You and Taylor both said the same thing. This would be a whole lot easier if you guys were selfish and forced me to stay." Jack laughed and I half laughed with him, but their was some truth to what I said. If they got angry and made me stay, I would have an excuse to stay back and wait on Cameron.