Open Your Eyes

In No Time

"Dr Shepherd." Derek hears as he name is called out.

"Yes."

"Um we are taking your wife to OR 1 for a caesarean. Dr Beale is prepping her. She wanted me to come and get you."

Derek left the room and followed the intern down to the OR. He changed into his scrubs and went and scrubbed in. He sat beside her head.

"Hi Dr Shepherd."

"Dr Beale."

"The baby is 36 weeks Derek. Very good chance of survival. So hopefully no NICU." She says.

"That's good."

"Okay so let's get started." She says. "Scalpel."

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8 years before the crash

Bringing Meredith home 2 days later was hard. When I was wheeling her out of the room and down to the elevator another couple was beside us with their newborn baby in their arms and saying how perfect there baby boy was.

I let them go into the elevator first and we waited for the next one. Meredith had been silent since last night. She hadn't said a word to me. That was when we farewelled him.

We had a last bath, inviting Thatcher, Susan and Ma. We also had Lexie and Molly. My sisters couldn't make it. The godparents were all in the room as well. Mark, Cristina, Izzie, Alex and George. We decided to have them there so they could say goodbye by taking turns washing him. They all started and once they washed him they left the room. Then Meredith and I bathed him and the nurse came in and collected him.

We decided on a cremation for him and his urn would come back in the shape of a baby bootie.

I brought Meredith home and helped her to the lounge. I went to get water for her and came back and she was gone. I headed up stairs to the nursery. We didn't even have the time to pack everything away. Meredith sat in the rocking chair with one of the stuffed animals we were going to give him. She didn't notice me at all standing in the doorway. I watched as she sat there. She sat there for hours and finally fell asleep and that's when I took her to bed.

She complained about her boobs being hard as marble and the pain that it was with even having a shirt over her chest. She told me that the midwife nurse told her that they couldn't do anything about it and that she would have to ride it out. She was in so much pain. I could barely touch her.

Richard had given me time off to look after her but it was only for a couple of weeks and I had to come back to work.

After 8 weeks we had gotten her back into work. That morning she went to visit her mother and I found out that they brought her into the hospital to have tests and she was lucid. I had visited Ellis and talked to the lucid Ellis.

"Dr Grey. How are you doing?"

"Derek. The man who is married to my daughter. How do you do?"

"Good."

"Now Meredith has been really quiet and has she put on any weight?"

"Um didn't Meredith tell you?"

"Is she pregnant?"

"She was pregnant. She gave birth 8 weeks ago, to a stillborn."

Ellis's face dropped. Yes she was cold hearted but this must have hit her hard.

"Oh my god. I'm so sorry. A boy or a girl?"