Ateez Imagines

Forever?~ San

Running in the woods at midnight was probably the worst idea ever. My legs felt numb as I ran, my feet bare against the branches and leaves. My eyes using the shards of moonlight to light the way. I could hear him behind me, crunching twigs and subtle grunting. My chest was starting to feel heavy, I mentally cursed myself for not wearing shoes. I looked behind me to see how close he was only to end up tripping over a root. Falling forward, going face first into a pile of leaves I heard his tracks stop in front of me. 

I looked up into his sunset yellow eyes only to get laughed at in response, his fangs visible. “You’re the worst friend ever you know that” I grunted out as I pushed myself onto my knees “I’m a bad friend? You’re the one who wanted to race in the woods, remember?” “I know I did but it’s not fair to use your speed” I cocked my head as I looked at my best friend from childhood “It’s not my fault I’m like this” he pouted. I rolled my eyes and stood up “technically it is. You wanted to change, they gave you the opportunity, and you took it.” “I know, but can you blame me?” I shrugged at him “you stopped going to school, became a party animal, played with the hearts of many. And you moved in with seven other guys.” “Why does that matter? Those seven guys are your friends too Y/N.” ''Yes they are my friends.But unlike you they still go to school. They also don’t party as much as you, they also don’t play with people’s hearts, and they didn’t change me now did they”. Every night we have the same conversation that normally leads into an argument. It’s so stupid, ever since he changed in to this creature all we ever seem to do is fight. 

With the lack of response from him I rolled my eyes and started walking back to my house. I guess this was a bad idea after all. I looked down at my bare feet noticing the subtle scratches from the twigs and blood peeping out, they didn’t hurt; Yet I couldn’t help the tears that formed into my eyes. I just wanted us to be like we used to, go to school together, dance in the rain, and take care of each other when the other was sick. I miss my squishy San, the one that I could protect. Now the one who needs protecting is me. We grew up together, staying by each other’s side, now I feel more alone. The one I needed was always too busy with girls. Him and the guys can’t come into the sunlight, but at least the others try, San would rather just stay home with some chic he picked up. 

“Y/N, wait,” I stopped in my tracks at his broken voice, I didn’t turn to face him, I turned my head so my ear was towards him “I’m sorry I wanted to change ok. I just wanted to protect you like you did for me. I didn’t want to be a nuisance to you anymore.” I scoffed at his response, feeling the anger start to build within “San you were never a nuisance to me. I loved protecting you, I loved you and I didn’t want to see you hurt.” I couldn’t help but notice the hurt reflecting in his eyes when I yelled. I never yelled at him, but in this moment I didn’t care if it hurt him “you know what San maybe the legends are true” I turned away from him already regretting what I was about to say “elementals and vampires are bad company.” I paused my words for a moment as I continued walking. “Goodbye San.” I couldn’t handle the pain anymore. I fell in love with my best friend. It’s not his fault for any of this, it’s mine, he deserves someone like him.

I continued walking towards my house, knowing San wasn’t following me made my heart even heavier than it already was, I felt my tears drop to my feet. I stopped and collapsed to my knees on the forest floor. The air was cold and crisp, my white nightgown now torn from running through the branches of trees. “What have I done?” I lost the one good thing I had in my life. My best friend was now gone. More tears fell. “I lost everything.”

That was a week ago, and honestly the night was playing on loop in my head. I couldn’t sleep. I stopped going to school. I stopped eating, and started working from home. I walked into the bathroom, looking into the mirror. My hair was all over the place, the redness of my eyes and the bags that lurked beneath made me look like a zombie, I truly looked how I felt. I placed my pinkies into the corners of my mouth , pulling them to form a smile. Tears started falling, I couldn’t even bring myself to smile anymore, the reason was now gone. He was all I had, after my family passed on I was left alone. I brushed my hair out. I looked down at the scissors on the counter, grabbing them. I grabbed a chunk of my hair, beginning to cut at it. I let the h/c curls fall to the floor, some landing in the sink. I ran my fingers through my hair when I was finished. I stared at my reflection and  laughed through the tears, dropping the scissors to the floor, I put my hands on my face once more. I hated how much I’ve changed. When did I become petty? It wasn’t unusual for me to lose friends, I lost them quite frequently and I never cared. But then I lose another and I become this? I stared back at myself as the words flowed through my head like a river flowing into the ocean. I couldn’t stand the person staring back. I punched my mirror, causing shards to fall onto the counter as blood flowed from my knuckles. “FUCK!” I screamed out collapsing on my bathroom floor. I hugged my knees to my chest as I leaned against my bathtub.