Ateez Imagines

Feelings~ Mingi

Ever felt like you're stuck, like you can go anywhere you want, do anything you want; but you can't. That's my world, the feeling of being stuck happens everytime I'm in public. It wasn't always this bad, I used to feel free, that is until high school. High school was when everything went down hill, the people I trusted the most turned their backs on me and spread rumors; and since they were a part of my circle everybody believed them. I tried to ignore it the best I could but the graffiti on my locker, the death threats I received all did a total on me. I always had to remind myself that I only had a few years left, then it's off to college and I won't see any of these peasants again. Boy was I wrong.

I'm in college now, I wish I could say it was the best ever, it is indeed the opposite. Sure I have a few friends now and it's great, I even changed a bit; but when people from your high school ended up at the same college as you, all hell breaks loose. When three of your old friend's are here and the eight guys that you supposedly slept with, to which seven of them said was true. I just hoped they would leave me alone.

I was watching my favorite show till I was rudely interuppted by a loud banging on my door. I got up to go see who this person with a death wish was, "who is it?" I yelled through the door ignoring the hole I could see through. "It's Mingi, please let me in" I rolled my eyes. Since Mingi was the only one of the eight guys in high school who tried to fight on my behalf I've always owed him. I opened the door to see Mingi with a beat red face and out of breath "wha-" before I could asked my door was slammed shut and a hand was covering my mouth "be quiet for a second and you can talk." I looked up at him cocking my eyebrow, what the hell is going on, he dropped his hand to his side as he looked through the peep hole in my door. Just as I was about to speak again I heard voices that were all too familiar "Mingi please come back" "we only want to play" I mentally gagged at how whiny their voices were. This poor boy, ever since he stood up for me, those three have been swooning over him trying to get him to break. I looked up to see Mingi press his forehead against the door only now realizing his features, I'd be lying if I said he wasn't beautiful, his scent had filled my nose, cinnamon. I was lost in admiring his features till he had spoke "I'm sorry to bombard you Y/N, I just wanted to get away from them" I chuckled a bit "It's ok Princess, it's not like this is the first time you've come over anyways."

I should probably explain our situation, senior year of high school the rumors had gotten worse and they started attacking Mingi, leading his friends to defend him. He isn't the youngest but he is the princess. One day I found Mingi in the part of the school that had been abandoned a few years earlier due to reasons unknown to the students, it happened to be one of my favorite spots to just dissapear for a while. I had found him holding his knees to his chest, wresting his head against the wall. "Mingi?" I said in barely an audible whisper, he moved his eyes to look at me. They were red and puffy, he didn't look like his usual smiley self. I had to fight the urge to hug him, I felt like all this was my fault. I dropped down beside him and asked what happened, only now realizing the scissors by him. When he had told me all that had happened from the rumors being spread, to his parents hearing them as well and believing them, I hugged him to my chest wear he had officially broke down once more, he hugged me back and we stayed like that for an hour or so. I gently hummed to him and brushed my fingers through his hair trying to help him calm down. My shirt had gotten damp but I didn't care.

Once he had stopped shaking and started to breathe softer I could've swarn he had fallen asleep "your heart beat is very soothing y/n" I chuckled. "Hey Mingi" I gently spoke "yeah" "I'm sorry you got brought into all of this, you didn't deserve it" "it's alright, I'd rather be brought into it rather than seeing you fight alone" I smiled slightly "I know we're not exactly friends and all, but if you ever needed a place to get away you can always come over to mine. I'm just across the way" at my words he looked up a little shocked "not like that Mingi, I know the stress that comes with the rumors and some of it you probably don't want to share to a bunch of guys, but it was only a suggestion" I smiled at him releasing my arms from him, as he still held on "I'd like that actually, the guys try to be understanding but they haven't been through these kinds of rumours" I smiled but then it had faded knowing us being friends would make things worse for him "what's wrong y/n" "the rumours will get worse if we're seen together" I looked down at my hands feeling awful, I just got his hopes up for nothing "that's ok, if it makes you feel better it can be a secret" I looked up at him "that's fine with me and this could be our secret spot since the other students think it's haunted" him and I both chuckled "sounds like a plan y/n."

Ever since that day Mingi and I have been secret best friends. I didn't realize I had zoned out till I felt poking at my side "Y/N" I looked down to see Mingi continuously poking my side trying to get my attention, I looked back up at him "sorry Mings what did you say" he chuckled "I asked wear your pants were. Oversized t-shirt and flannel doesn't really cover much, not that I'm complaining tho" he smirked at me as I rolled my eyes and walked away to my bed "My AC is busted and my room is hot what do you expect, besides you've seen me in a bikini which is way less than this" I plopped onto my bed waiting for Mingi to sit down "as much as that is true I am a guy" I snorted at him "yeah a guy who's wearing sweatpants and no shirt with a sweater unzipped" I cocked my eye "well I had to look pretty for my best girl, who stole my shirt about an hour or so ago "you mean the shirt you left" I chuckled at him.

He finally made his way to my bed crawling over to me not breaking eye contact. Have you ever seen how a predator looks when he's hunting his prey, well in this case Mingi is a majestic lion and I'm a gazelle. He smiled at me as he made it between my legs mear centimeters between our faces and direct eye contact. His beautiful brown eyes stared into my e/c, in his I felt at home. He closed the distance between us, for a moment time had stopped. It always felt like this with him, everything felt alright like nothing could hurt me.

I woke up with Mingi next to ma with his arm draped over my side, I gave out a little yawn as I got up to use the bathroom. Ignoring the slight pain and wobbleness as I walked, I remembered what all had happened the night prior. It was different than it usually had been. Normally we would just stay over at eachother's place when we wanted to let our frustrations out of the day; but last night he was gentle and kept hold of my hand. I smiled in the mirror at myself, until I finally caught it and lightly slapped myself "rule number one, don't catch feelings dammnit" I mumbled to myself as tears started to fill my eyes. I couldn't catch feelings for Mingi it wasn't right, it was against the rules; but I couldn't help how he made me feel, the sensation of butterflies he always caused, the shivers down my spine when he whispered in my ear. I groaned realizing that it was all to late, my feelings were there and won't be going away any time soon.

I finished brushing my teeth and walked out the bathroom, grabbing a shirt off the floor and made my way to the kitchen in my studio apartment. I began making breakfast as the coffee brewed in it's pot. I felt a pair of arms envelope me "Hey baby, you weren't in bed" Mingi said in a groggy tone "I figured you'd want breakfast" I mumbled trying not to let my voice crack "I could've made it." I just shrugged, he was usually the one who made breakfast; but then again he was usually up before me as well. "How'd you sleep" a lighlty jumped at his queation "fine, like usual" blunt and short good job y/n he'll never notice something is wrong. I mentally scold myself, Mingi was always able to read me, even when I didn't want him too. "What's wrong Y/n" Mingi released his grip around me as his voice went to serious causing shivers down my spine, I shook it off like it was nothing, "nothing's wrong" I don't know why I even bother lying to him, he'll just see right through it. "Why are you lying then" "i'm not,"

He gripped my wrist and turned me around, his face dropped once he saw my tears. "Please tell me what's wrong" his voice was soft as if he was scared I'd cry more "just thoughts, you know" he cocked his head "thoughts?" "Yes thoughts, feelings. The dumb things I shouldn't have gotten for you but I did. Do you know how hard it is to not fall in love with you," I began to shout uncontrollably "seeing how you are when we're out and about and you see a child get hurt so you offer to help them. How even when I trip and scrape my knee you insist on giving me a piggyback ride. Or how everytime I'm on my cycle you come over with chocolates, a movie, and a new plushie for me. I've fallen in love with you Song Mingi and I can't fight the feelings anymore." I felt tears roll down my cheeks as I looked at the floor. My chin was lifted by his thumb and index forcing me to look up at him "do you know how long I've waited to hear you say that Y/N. I've loved you since the moment I met you. How even when everything went bad you still walked with your head held high. Whenever you got into a fight you wanted to help people. You're an angel Y/n and I've fallen for you." He connected out lips once more and it felt like a weight had been lifted. He loved me back.

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Hey guys sorry for the long wait/ I've been struggling with ideas to keep writing and I feel like my book isn;t doing so good anymore. I'm not sure when the next update will be after this one; but I will try my best to get it out sooner rather than later.
THANK YOU for reading,