Falling In Love With Her

The Change

*Jen's POV*
I drove back to set to pick up Lana and to drop off Megan. I pulled up and it's 9 pm. Megan smiled. "I had fun today." She said. I didn't smile. I just nodded. She leaned over and kissed my cheek. "Bye Jen." She said and got out. I stayed in the car for a good 10 minutes before someone else got in. "Jennifer." Lana said. "Lana." I said. She sighed and looked out the window. I turned the radio on and Better Together by Jack Johnson started.
There is no combination of words I could put on the back of a post card.
No song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart.
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things.
Like, a shoebox of photographs.
With sepia-toned loving.
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart.
Like why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving.
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together.
I quickly moved to change the radio station. I changed it and stopped on a station playing Stay by Rihanna.
All along it was a fever.
A cold sweat, hot-headed believer.
I threw my hands in the air, said "show me something."
He said "if you dare come a little closer."

Round and around and around and around we go.
Oh now, tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you know.

Not really sure how to feel about it.
Something in the way you move.
Makes me feel like I can't live without you.
It takes me all the way.
I want you to stay.
I sighed and just turned the radio off. The rest of the ride to our house was silent. I parked in the driveway and neither of us moved. "Jen.. What happened today?" Lana asked. "Nothing happened!" I screamed. Lana jumped lightly. "Jen.. I don't want to fight. I just want to know why you're acting so.. So... So strange." She said and looked at me. "I'm not acting strange!" I shouted. "Jen. Please. Stop yelling at me." She said and I saw the tears building in her eyes. I looked away and stared out the window. After five minutes of silence, she spoke up. "You know I smell her perfume on you. Right?" She said quietly. I closed my eyes and let the tears fall. "I-I thought we were happy." She said. My tears got heavier. "What happened." She said. I sighed. "Megan and I went out. We drank a little too much and ended up... You know. and, then I was thinking of you and how it would hurt you. And I felt awful. And, I would do anything to go back and not get drunk." I said, tears streaming from my eyes. "You had sex.. With another woman.. And you treated me like I was the bad guy?" She said. "I'm so sorry Lana." I said quietly. "Sorry is not going to fix this." She said. I looked at her and there are tears in her eyes as well. "We are over." She said. My heart shattered into a million pieces and I shook my head. "Lana, please." I said. "Find somewhere to stay. Goodbye Jennifer." she said and got out of the car, slamming the door behind her. I lost it. I began screaming and crying even harder. I got out and slammed the door shut. I got back in the car after a few minutes and backed out of the driveway, driving to my small house, 45 minutes away from Lana. I hate myself. How the fuck could I do this to the one person who loves me more than anyone else. What the fuck is wrong with me? I haven't been to my house since Lana and I started dating. So, over two months. This isn't fair. She doesn't deserve this. I'm so fucking idiotic. I got to my house at 10:30. I parked in my driveway and pulled out my phone. I called Adam. "Hey Jen." He said. "Hey Adam. Sorry it's so late. But, I need to take some time off work." I said. "Is everything okay?" He asked. "I uh.. I'm going through some stuff." I said. "Okay. How much time do you want?" He asked. "Two weeks. Does that work?" I asked. "Sure. We don't have very many scenes we need of you. So, no worries." He said. I nodded. "Thanks." I said and hung up. Tears fell from my eyes as I sent Lana a text. "Keep Nina. Can't deal right now." I sent. After five minutes, I received a text. "Already planned on it." I turned my phone off, then set it in the cup holder of my car. I got out, then walked inside my house. I walked to my room, changed into sweatpants and a tank top, then put my hair into a messy bun. I pulled the small ring box out of my jacket pocket and put it in my nightstand drawer. Yes. I bought a ring and now? Our relationship is over. I laid down in my bed and began sobbing uncontrollably. "What the fuck is wrong with me?!" I screamed.
*Lana's POV*
It's 10:45. I sighed as I looked at the empty side of the bed. Honestly, I am so depressed. Jen is the only person in this world that I can see myself with. But, she cheated on me. Drunk or not. I should hate her for this, but I don't. I love her so much. But.. I did the right thing... Right? I need to talk to her. I grabbed my phone and dialed her number. Went straight to voicemail. Of course she isn't going to answer. You broke her fucking heart. In this situation? My thoughts might get the best of me. I guess I'll have to talk to her at work tomorrow. I laid down, even though I knew I wouldn't sleep without Jen. Breaking up with her is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Even harder than breaking up with Fred. My alarm clock went off, informing me that I had spent the entire night thinking and crying about this. I sighed as I stood up to get ready. Hopefully, I'll talk to her at work and fix things. I put on yoga pants and a hoodie, then Free Runs and walked out of my room. It's 4:55 am. But, maybe I'll get there early and she'll already be there. I drove faster than usual, trying to get there early. I arrived on set at 5:15. I raised an eyebrow. New record. I turned the car off and parked, then looked around for Jen's black escalade. I didn't see it. After sitting in the car for 20 minutes, I decided to go on and meet with the group. So, I went to the meeting place and everyone was already there. Including Adam and Eddy. Then, I noticed one face was missing. "Oh, there you are Lana." Adam said. "Okay. Some of you have probably noticed, Jen is not here. She called me last night and said she needed some time off. She will not be back for two weeks." Adam said. The rest of the cast all looked at me and I quickly looked at the ground. "Lana, what's wrong with Jen?" Megan asked. I shot my head up and looked at her. Boy, if looks could kill. "We broke up.. Last night." I said, trough a raspy voice. Everyone's expressions changed to those of shock and sadness. I looked at the ground again as I felt the tears coming on. The group went separate ways and as I was making my way to my trailer, the one person, other than Jen, that I love the most, approached me with sad eyes. "You and my mom..." She said. I closed my eyes. "I'm so sorry Nina." I whispered. She hugged me tightly. "Y-you're going to stay with me until your mom gets things together." I said. She nodded and when she pulled away, I noticed her tears. "I love you." I said as my own tears fell harder. She nodded and I felt my heart breaking all over again.
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Don't hate me!
-Sunny☀️