reminisce. - nomin

angel.

"he's dead .."

jeno finally hit the brake.

he never expected a bad ending in his life

only if he expected that he would've reached the stars for him.

all he knew is that he won't have the one,

the one reminiscing the view all the time,

always the one for you.

and it was tragic.

really tragic.

he never took a single step to love anymore,

because he already knew jaemin wasn't too good for him.

he already fell for it, twice.

now it can never be up to him with the rest,

because he was already known to be broken two times in a row.

if only he never wanted to break the promise, only if jaemin never had the promise to exist,

only if jeno was good for him.

but he got carried out of love.

and the final words he would say, to jaemin,

"i know i love you, but please, take the heavens to me once."

right before jaemin disappeared.

right before everything happened to be wrong.

right when the stars faded,

an angel was born.

and yet to know,

jaemin still loves you, jeno.

without a word or two.

now,

it's up to mark now,

whether broken or not,

a promise shall not be broken.

unless, it's on jeno.

MARK ---

the only things i know are,

jeno still loves jaemin. but i keep telling that my secrets are on the LAST point before my life was meant to be taken away from the stars.

right before i realized,

jeno wasn't the type to never realize.

i never knew he was responsible for the things i was supposed to be responsible for. and i know he's not gonna apologize for it. because i'm the one who is supposed to apologize, but yet him never saying a single word. he's never going to be perfect for jaemin, never

-- BACK

dearest jeno, my love,

i'm so sorry i left you like this.

i know it's not miserable but i know we can fight this together.

and if i'm gone,

please forget me,

not once.

because i may be not good for you but yet still falling in love with you.

what if i was taken by the heavens too early?

would that be happy for you? would you still be proud of me even if i'm staying in the heavens?

nono, please understand me.

i know you won't be good for me, but whether yes or no, we will fight together. we will fight for our love together. even if we're not yet into a label of love.

i hope you're okay even i'm up here.

always or never, i love you. yesterday, today, tomorrow, forevermore.

your beloved reminiscer,

Na Jaemin, 09/10/2018

that was completely written 3 years ago.

jeno, couldn't you realize how much he loves you?

why can't you be too responsible for it?

i never knew it was you.

but it was always you.

unless it was a lie to take it to jeno and jaemin, unless that's the truth told by jaemin.

now he knows,

he knows how to control love.

only if jeno never have had broken the red string.