3rd of November, 2021
Finished at 18:47
So this is how it feels huh? When you are right there and you refuse to utter a word, I wonder what runs in your mind, what are you thinking right now? Have you finally come to realize my flaws? Inconveniences that I may cause you and take a toll in your life. I apologize. It has always been like this, my past lovers will always be unsure of me for flaws run through my veins endlessly. Does it harm your peaceful life? Will you abandon me too?
I refuse to believe what my head makes up when you have not uttered a single word since the last time you spoke i love you's to me that I wish could say back, if only I was even worthy doing so. I probably never caused you harm at all, perhaps my presence did not reach you at all, a mere rag doll, that I am. No matter how much I write, no words will reach you if you do not want to be reached. What about my heart that you promised to keep? Where is it? What is this loud thing beating inside my chest? No... I must have mistaken. Nothing is beating inside my chest. You have taken my heart, you kept it somewhere. The one in my chest is not beating. Emptiness, or the so-called void. For its silence is so loud, it resonates and echoes on dark walls, it longs for the heart you caressed. The void does not know where you have kept it nor even know if it was even with you at all, but it just knows that the heart trusted you, and once it returns to its chamber, it will never be the same.
@yourstrulyjuno
YOU ARE READING
For Jayden
PoetryYou seem to understand me well but I want you to feel me. Through screens , from here to there, you swore to keep my heart, so I will devote to you this piece of art for our souls to intertwine. This is my diary. Our diary. Let me in.
