Let Me Love You (Jinrene)✔️

Chapter-8

Irene's P.O.V

"Irene? Are you even listening?" Sehun snapped his hand in front of me.

"Huh? Sorry. I was thinking about something. What did you say?" I asked while scratching my nape, giggling awkwardly. Damn you Jin!!!

The past few days after the engagement party, Jin is kinda avoiding me. Like he wakes up before me, makes our breakfast, and leaves. Every time I have to eat my breakfast alone. He comes home late and shuts himself in his room, not even trying to talk with me or let me ask him how was his day. When did I ask him, why he is avoiding me? Have I done something? He just answered he is busy. I know he is lying but can't pressure him to tell me the truth if he doesn't want to tell me, right?

'Why are you doing this? Why even do I care? If you can avoid me then I can also avoid you, right? Aish!! Why can't I stop thinking!!?' I groaned mentally.

"Irene! For the fucking second time, you are spacing out. I asked for the 3 times what you wanna order for lunch. Can you just stop daydreaming???" Sehun said in a pissed tone. People around us look at us curiously and I am feeling embarrassed right now. He can just keep his voice low at me, not gathering others' attention.

"Sehun, I -"

"You know what? Just cancel our lunch date. I literally lose my appetite. I am going." He said as stood up and started walking. I run after him and grabbed his hand.

"Stop, Sehun. Don't get mad at me. You know what is going on me, right?" I said with a pleading tone but he shoved his hand from me.

"I fucking don't care. Just leave me." He spat and stormed out.

I am just standing here with my teary eyes. Why did everyone leave me? Am I so bad? I said myself as started walking out. I need fresh air. Maybe going to the park will be better right now.

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Jin's P.O.V

For me, the park is the best place for relaxing. Damn! I don't know why but it seems like today most of the people are hungry and just know my restaurant. It was truly an exhausting morning and afternoon.

I went near to the food stall and greeted ajumma. I become a regular customer of hers.

"Give me a plate of cheese Kimbap and a Pink lemonade please," I said and she nodded, starting packing my food.

"Are you alone? Jin? Where is your fiance?" Ajumma asked as handed me food.

"I came directly from my restaurant. She might be at home." Or maybe with her boyfriend. Why don't I even care? It is not my concern. You are avoiding her, remember?

"Oh, but maybe I was some like her going near the lake. maybe my mistake." 

"Um...Ok. I am also going there. If she is there, I will see her. Kamsammida Ajjuma." I said as I started walking towards the bench. 

'Why she will be here? maybe Ajjuma is really mistaken. But if she is here, is she alone or with her Boyfriend? What if she is with him? Can my heart take if I see them together doing love-dokey things?' I said myself, sulking inside. Why I did even come here?

I saw Irene sitting on the same bench as our first day here, watching the lake calmly. The sunray fell over her face and her loosened hair shone under the brightness. She is looking like an angel. I am feeling my heart start beating fast as my surroundings get slow. Is this the feeling of falling in love?

Then my sense hit me when I saw her wiping her cheeks. Is she crying?? huh? why? 

She buries her face into her palms and sobbing. Seeing like her, I feel my heart starting tearing up. God! this feeling is unbearable.

 I quickly went to her and hugged her. She shiver in shock at first but then hugged me back, burning her face in my chest.

"J-Jin," she mumbled under her breath over my chest as started sobbing silently.

"I am here, Irene. Why are you crying?" I said with a concerned tone while caressing her hair. 

"Ever-Every on-one lefts me, Jin. Every fucking per-person. Even you were ignoring me." she said as pulled away from the hug, looking down at her feet. 

I said nothing but felt guilty. Is she crying cuz I ignored her? But why did she say 'ever you'?

"Ire-Irene, I said I was busy. So-"

"CAN YOU STOP FUCKING LYING KIM SEOK-JIN?" She spat angrily with her teary eyes. I gulped hard. What are you gonna do now Jin?

"Ok. I admit I was ignoring you. This marriage thing is scaring the shit out of me. My head turned into a mess and every time I look at you," I said looking at her as she looked me back. I wanna say the truth but I can't, "Everything just comes in front of my eyes." 

GOD! Thanks for this brain. I made a great excuse. But 50% is true. Whenever I look at you Irene, I wanna lost in you.

"But you could say me instead of ignoring me. You are my friend Jin. I always told you, I will be always there for you." She said sadly looking at me then looking at the lake.

I am happy to see her caring side but only think of me as her friend.' At least I can have you as a friend.' I sighed mentally.

"I am sorry Irene. But you said even me. I mean who is the other culprit except me?"

"Sehun. We went on a lunch date but I was spacing out thinking about why were you avoiding me, you dummy, and scolded by him. Even the left me with having lunch with me."

I cupped her hand and said," I am so so sorry. I won't do it again. Aish!! I am now feeling so guilty!! "

She squeezed my hand and said, "It's ok. At least we are good now. And Sehun loves me. He can't stay angry longer with me." She said giving me a soft smile and I nodded. But inside me, seeing her love for Sehun just hurting me.

"Don't ever cry again ok??" I said as cupped her face and wiped her tears. My eyes fell on her lips but immediately took back my hands and looked away.

'Now I can't even ignore you. Do you know how much I am hurting inside? I want to kiss your tears away; kiss you until we have
to pull back for air. Irene! Irene! Irene! Ahhh!! I love you. Yes! I love you so much.'

"Jin, I am so hungry." She said rubbing her tummy while pouting, looking so adorable.

"I brought some food. Let's dig it!!" I cheerfully said as she sheepishly smiled at me and nodded.

I wish I could say you, how much I love you.