Let Me Love You (Jinrene)✔️

Chapter-9

The Wedding Day...

Irene's P.O.V

I am looking at my reflection on the mirror as my dresser gives the last finishing touch on me; placing the white veil on my bun. This all arrangements are fake, this marriage is fake but the nervousness I am feeling right now isn't. Marriage is marriage after all; an important day for every girl. I thought oneday I will marry my dream man but it's not happening today. 

After the day Sehun left me at the restaurant, he didn't even text me. He never stayed this long angry with me. I  don't even know this Sehun anymore, it feels like he is a stranger. I still love him and it hurts me inside. I wanted t text him first but my self-respect stopped me. Why every time do I have to accept defend?? 

But on the other hand, Jin and I become close. We understand each other so well that sometimes I think is he was the stranger or Sehun become on? With Jin, I feel secure, safe, and Loved? Even the feelings building inside me for Jin is scarring me. It's just so confusing. With him, it feels like I am newly feeling the love, the love I always wanted. The way he comforts me, the way he takes care of my likes-dislikes, the way he can handle my anger, the way he looks at me...everything is just so different and making me addicted.

Sometimes I question myself, I loved Sehun but did he love me back? The way Jin treats me, don't I deserve it from Sehun?  Do I still love Sehun or am I started falling for Jin? What if Jin only likes me as a friend? nothing more?

So many questions inside of me but still don't know any of these answers. 

"Unnie! Are you done?" Jennie asked as she entered my room. Actually, our parents arranged the marriage ceremony in our house. Like I dreamed about marrying under the open sky.

"Hum. I am ready." I said as looked at her but she was looking at me with a shocked expression.

"What?"

"Unnie~ You are looking so beautiful. I mean I would fall for you If I were a man. Jin Oppa gonna drool over you." She said with a smirk on her face while I just rolled my eyes at her. But will Jin?

Jennie helped with my dress and took me to the main door. There my parents were standing, eagerly looking in my direction. When they saw me mom gave me a teary smile but when I looked at my dad, I can't believe in my eyes; he was trying to control his tears. He was crying for me.

I walked in front of them and gave them a warm smile. I don't know but seeing dad like this making feel a little happy. At least maybe he cares about me.

"You are looking gorgeous my daughter." Mom said with her crake tone and hugged me.

"My daughter is an angel," Dad said as I pulled from the hug and looked at him. he came closer to me and hugged me. I was so shocked that it took me one min to process but I hugged him back. It's been a long time since you last hugged me, Dad. I missed you.

I didn't even realize when my tears started falling, even started sobbing. He pulled back from the hug and wiped my tears with his thumb.

"Oneday you will realize my daughter, why I didn't approve your relationship with That boy Sehun. And that you will thank me for letting Jin enter your life." Dad said with a sad soft tone as he patted my head and linked our arms. My dad's eyes were full of satisfaction and sadness. His words just fell on me like a boom.

'Why he said I will realize? Why would I thank him? Does he know more about Sehun than me? Did I choose the wrong person? '

More questions are added to my list. God! Save me. Please help me to find out the truth. These questions are complicated as hell.

Jin's P.O.V

I am so nervous as well as my heart wants to Come out from my mouth.

I never thought I will messily find my love and one day I will marry her even though for her this marriage is nothing but for me is everything. With her, I feel love, and day by day I am falling deeper and deeper. It's getting too hard to control myself from touching her, from Expressing my feels to her. I don't wanna lose her. I am happy as long as she is with me; not as my lover but at least as my friend. At least whenever I get up in the morning I can see her smiling face, eating breakfast together, spending quality time together, watching her closely.

I sighed heavily as I felt hurting inside. My love for her turned into pain for me. The more I try to move on, the more I fall back.

"Oppa, look over there. Your bride is looking hellishly gorgeous." Dahyun said, pointing at the entrance and I turned to look in the direction.

My heart stopped beating as my surroundings getting blurred. My eyes stuck to the more beautiful creation of God. She is looking like a goddess in white grown and when our eyes met, I wanna cry in happiness. Cuz today I gonna marry this goddess, inside me claiming her mine.

She gave me a warm smile. God! I wanna melt at that moment. She stands in front of me, my eyes never leave her sight. She leans closer to my ear and whispers, "Stop staring at me dickhead. I gonna melt." She smirks and I turned into a red tomato.

"How can I not stare at you? You are looking beautiful, Irene." I whispered back, don't know from where this sudden boldness come from but she started blushing, looking away.

The priest started the marriage ritual while we both were stealing glances. We said our bows and now the most heartstopping moment-

"Now you may kiss your bride." The priest said as we both looked at each other and others started cheering for us. We both scooted closer, only a few inches ' distances. I looked into her eyes as cupped her right cheek, caressing with my thumb. Her eyes were as full of emotions as mine.

'Please Irene, look deep into my eyes. This heart only belongs to you. Isn't my love reflected in my eyes? Why can't you see how much I want you?' 

I lean closer as she closed her eyes. I put my thumb beside her lips and kissed her on my finger. For others, the angle seems like we kissed but actually, we didn't. I don't wanna a loveless kiss from her.

"They Kissed!!!! Congrats!!!" People hollered as I stepped back. Irene opened her eyes, looking at me with confusion. 

"Don't worry. our angle fooled them. This lips only belongs to the person you love." I whispered and looked away. I bit my lower lip, controlling my threatening tears. 

I can never be the person you will love, Irene. These lips; I can never claim mine.