Zdmn FF - Her Sacrifice

Part 4

I thought of writing something about Monus side as well.. About what was going on with her the last two days..

So this part starts with Monus side and then continues with the present story..

Enjoy :)

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Monus Side:

It's been two days since she was back home.. Home.. What a funny word to describe this house, she thought.. It was her home when her mother was still alive.. but afterwards.. It has just become a building.. And now her prison.. She laughed sarcastically at her unfortunate fate..

She wasn't in a good state of mind since her return and was mostly in her room alone. But has she really  expected something to change.. It has been the same for as long as she can remember..
But yeah.. Something for sure was different this time.. This time she was completely alone.. As her Sid bro wasn't there with her. And she couldn't even contact him as phones aren't allowed at the academy.

She just hoped he was okay and got her letter. She knew he would be really disturbed after getting the news from Karan that she left the academy.
And she also knew he wouldn't even believe a thing Karan would tell as her reason to leave.
So she wrote the letters practically begging a nurse for some papers and a pen. And then she had to look for a good opportunity to write them as soon her father wasn't around..

That sounds easier than it has been.. The letter to Dilbagh ji was fast to write because it wasn't so long and I just wanted to thank him for everything.
But the letter to Sid.. That was really hard.. I literally cried and had to make sure that my tears don't drop on the paper.. And also make sure that dad doesn't find them..

I just hope Sid gets the letter and is not that devastated as I imagine.. But what am I saying.. I know him best like he knows me.. So of course he broke down reading it.. I just hope he is okay.. And he tries to do the things I asked him to..
I know he misses me and I miss him too but I can't do anything about it now.. I just hope he will be fine and complete his training..
And I really hope he doesn't let anyone know about the actual reason why I left the academy..

She was sitting near the window looking outside and missing everything about the academy.. The atmosphere.. Trainers, especially her Faizi bhai and even Sanju as she knew that Sanju only looks this though and rough from the outside but really cares about her close ones and the cadets. And Monu really liked sharing her room with her because she didn't get the feeling of being all alone and she started to see Sanju as her elder sister.. Missing her fellow cadets she missed Sumanji, Chitra and her chota bhai Bala the most.. What different personalities these three hold but are still close to her heart..
And she was missing her mom thinking that maybe her life would be completely different from what it is now if she would be alive..

But what does it help to imagine such things, that are impossible.. And to think about all the past memories and getting sad afterwards because you can't get these moments back now.

So she tried to stop thinking about the past and tried to make the best out of this miserable situation she is in now..

In three days she has to rejoin the hospital and do as her father says.. So she has a little freedom of three days, she thought.. Not enough time to get hold of herself and build a few walls around herself to protect her and to avoid further pain she definitely will be getting from her father after rejoining the hospital.

But now she has chosen this life.. Not freely but that doesn't matter now.. So at least she has to make the best out of it and do everything she can to protect herself from her father.. She has to be strong and be ready to fight for her beliefs day by day.. Just like before when Sid encouraged her.. Sid.. 😣