If I wasn't acting

he's name is Louis

The only sound that woke me up early, was the moaning next to me. When I look over, I saw the baby laying there looking around.
"Hi baby," I whisper and move closer to it touching it's tummy. "Does someone have a dirty surprise for me?"
I smile softly and get out of bed. I pull the bag closer and start looking for diapers in it. I pull it out along with wipes and baby powder.
I grab a towel from the bathroom and throw it open on the bed laying the child on it. I get immediately into cleaning and changing him.
"You're up early."
I give a fright and look at Don then back at the baby.
"His name is Louis," Don says and come up to us. I nod with a little smile and look back at the baby. "I wanted to name him after you, but Mary and Meryl both haven't got a male version so I chose Louis for Louise."
"Just like we did for Louisa," I smile and raise an eyebrow at him. "Thank you, Don. Doesn't make me feel any better, but I'm thrilled."
I look back at the baby and continue to do my work. Don suddenly grabs unto my hand.
"What happened here?" he ask and points to my chest. It's a scratch from the incident.
"I uhhh... I got attacked by my client," I reply and shake my head. "It's nothing serious."
"You got attacked?" he ask terrified. What can I do? I can't lie to Don. I never could. "Why didn't you say anything?"
"Say anything?" I ask and walk away from him to the bag to get clothes. "Don, you haven't called or anything for six months straight," I say and get back to the baby. "Imagine this sudden call out of the blue just to tell you my client tried to get it with me."
"Sexual intentions?" he ask. I sigh and pick the naked baby up in my arms. "What did you do?"
"Dennis helped me," I say and grab his stuff going to the bathroom. Don follows me curiously. "He was the defendant's lawyer who we were up against in court. We became friends, but now I backed out of law which means I also let him go."
"I'm grateful that this Dennis guy saved you, but was he just a friend or more?" Don ask. I open the tap and let  the water run into the empty bath.
"Just a friend," I reply and look at him. "For the first time I got to have a decent conversation with a man who isn't married and didn't try to kiss me or anything."
I close the tap and feel the water. It's just right. I go on my knees next to the bath and put Louis in the bath.
"And I chased him away," I add getting tears in my eyes. I feel a hand rest on my shoulder. "I lost a friend, Don, because I'm foolish and I'm weak."
"You'll be okay," he comforts me.
"Get the child's soap and stuff please. I forgot about those," I say and touch the baby's little toes. A smile come up on my lips and I can't help but just to feel love towards this child. Can he change my life? Am I allowed to love something that isn't completely mine?

I wasn't really in the mood to make dinner, so Don offered to take us out. After dinner, we will go to his house also known as my house to get new things for the baby. I sit at the table with Louis in his stroller in front of me. He's sleeping so deeply.
"You look beautiful, Meryl," Don says. I look at him and smile softly. He still has that beautiful soft look in his eyes.
"Thanks, Don," I say and look back at Louis. "He's such a beautiful baby boy, Don."
"He is, isn't he," Don says. I giggle softly and rest my hand in the baby's stomach. "Are you happy, Meryl?"
"At this moment, I'm in the clouds," I say and look at him. "I know that I will only be the other mom, or just familiar to Louis if I even get that much of this child, but I can tell that he'll be very important to me. I can't rely on him for my happiness, but somehow it's the only thing that makes me want to be alive."
"What about Mammie, Grace, Louisa and Henry?" he asks.
"They're grownups, Don. They have their own lives to live," I say and shake my head slowly. "I just feel like a burden to them."
Don nods his head slowly and inhale deeply. I raise an eyebrow and look back at the baby.

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