HII KARYLLE OMG HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI. ITS LANFERE OR RAYYAN OR BABE OR WHATEVER U WANT TO CALL ME. SO HELLO ITS CURRENTLY 12:53am AND IM WRITING THIS ON THE LAST NIGHT BEFORE I GO TO SCHOOL AND OMG. I WANT TO TALK IN ALL CAPS BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IM UNAPPRECIATED SO. as we know, ill be going tomorrow for 3 weeks and you might be sad?????? i hope youre not bro bc just know im always here :D. i just wanna say thank you for being with me after all of this time, thank you for ur patience with me, thank you for talking to me, thank you for playing with me, thank you for always cheering me up, thank you for comfortning me mommy, thank you for existing, thank you for telling me your problems bro, thank you for accompany me everytime, thank you for grinding with me, thank you forloving me i love you too, thank you for saying im handsome, thank you for saying im cute, thank you for making me confidence again, thank you for making me less hate my voice now, thank you for all of this time, thank you for making my life better, thank you for what you've done for me, thank you for leaving ur friends party just to play with me, thank you for making my last day home complete, thank you for being you, thank you for not cheating on me, thank you for not dating anyone else, thank you for being honest to me. first of all, you dont have to apologize for saying that ure scared to play with me, it was an excuse. You should be honest to me more bro. why do you think games are more important than ur health bro? to me, you shouldnt lie about these things bro, just tell me that ur sick and ill undertsand :D. it's okay if ur doing bad, me and ryu are not mad if u whiff or do bad, we just make jokes about it so dont worry okay?. you shouldve rest bro, tell me if ur not feeling well and ill understand bro. no karylle, i dont hate you. how can i hate you? such a sweet, funny, short (lol), beautiful girl. you gave me everything i wanted, too much honestly. i won;t leave you bro bc i love you too and i also cant imagine what pain ill go through if ur gone. i understand, ur shy but thats okay :D it takes time to be comfortable bro you have to understand that. i like you bc you cared for me and the only person who would give me the love and affection i needed, i'm the lucky one that got a girl to fall inlove with me???. you're my girlfriend to tell me ur problems eventho im going through harder things <3. we can solve it together bro so pls keep on telling me. youre not childish and dramatic karylle. the more i am with you, the more i love you :D. after i comeback from school, sure i will be shy again and maybe something smay not be the same but i promise i'll love you still. nothing can happen in these weeks bc i can talk to you everyday except weekends yk and no i'll not lose interest. i'm never mad at you, BRO MY FRIENDLIST IS ONLY RYU, ZAYn, YOU THATS ALL. if theyre not on, i solo q everytime. yes you will still be my duo forever, i will still love you, i will still care, its okay karylle, you'll get over this emotions eventually :D. you dont make my day bad or worse bc the once i see ur online and knowing that you still exist, is the moment imy day becomes good and can never be bad. im sorry for those nights you've been through. im sorry for what you've done to make me urs. im sorry for making u feel like those jealousy, and ovethinking. No karylle, making you going through hell bc of me is not worth it. dont cry karylle, save your tears for another day. u should focus on ur advance class and not thinking of something else bro. i wouldnt want to break up with you karylle, im sorry for being too naive. i just cant say no to my friends? atleast we got to play alone today :D. im also grateful that ive played with you for the past like almost a year? im happy we fixed our misunderstandings with each other. and yes karylle im still jealous, but im not telling you (atleast for now) im sorry. yeah i know Zayn still likes you and i know he can't do anything about it bc of me. But, what if u cant do anything of it bc of me? what if you wanted to date zayn and youre just scared bc im here? idk bro. just know if u want to break up, im prepared to face it and you can say it whenever u want. Yes, you can date anyone u want bc i know that you deserve so much better than me so pls while im gone, find another one for temporary or replace me? i allow it :D. thank you for boosting me to silver 2 :DDD. im sorry karylle i just cant seem to have a reason to hate myself? everything i do is wrong honestly but i am trying. After all we've been through, from 15th December? and until now. im grateful for everything and every memory we made. i love you too karylle. HEY NOW THAT UR GOOD AT SUPERDASSH, BE A JETT MAIN YEH. its crazy yk how when i first went to school on April, we were just friends and now that im going again, were dating. ITS LIKE A DREAM COME TRUE. it happened for only 7 months. best 7 months so far. thank you for trsuting me on being in the "what" server. its also crazy how ryu and naomi can date so quickly like wtf they only met for like 5 days, HAHAHAHHAHA. i'll be back karylle dont worry too much or overthink. just have fun for these 3 weeks with your friends. yes i agree with ryu, we didnt break up. we just took a small break. if i'm honest, sometimes when im going through some pressure, when i hate myself to the point where im stressed the hell out and im just confused. i just feel like i want to take a break bc i need to think straightly and i need to calm myself down. its not a break up, its just a break. i hope you can understand if i ever ask for a break. it means that im rlly stressed and confused and feel uncomfortable to even do anything. if i ever asked for a break, does NOT mean that i dont love you, its just that i need to distance myself for a couple of days and we could go back to normal. No, its nothing that youre doing is wrong. its just stress stuff and i need some alone time? i hope you can understand that and done get the wrong idea. i will always love you karylle,i hope you know that. i'll be gone tomorrow by 2:30pm. so i hope you have fun with your friends, let's say this is a break? since i cant even say i love you in dms in school bc the teachers check our ipad on a daily basis. i hope you dont get the wrong idea. Let's assume this is a break, we both still love eachother but we just cant express it or we cant talk to eachother for a couple of days. yeah. About the rant, no im not telling you, it could ruin something which i dont want it to happen. ANYWAYS ITS 1:38am now, maybe i should sleep? feeling kinda tired tbh. so that's it from me for now Karylle. Goodnight i love you, sleep well, sweet dreams. dont stress too much okay? i love you forever <3. I'll be back before you know it!. xoxo Lanfere.
Saturday, 13th November, 2021
started : 12:53am
ended : 1:40am
