𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑ᵃʳⁱᵃⁿᵃ ᵍʳᵃⁿᵈᵉ

fourteen

fourteen - healing

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when i walked into the elementary school office, my eyes immediately landed on y/n slumped against the wall. her knees were up to her chest and her head was in between them. her body shook as she sobbed and her nails dug into her calves.

"oh, y/n." i whispered, running over to her and lifting her head to look at me. there were tears running down her cheeks and her eyes were bloodshot, she looked even more broken then she did at the park.

her lip trembled and more tears ran down her face. she unwrapped her arms from her legs and opened them out to me, wrapping them around my body and pulling me into her. "baby, why are you here? and what happened, hm?" i rubbed her head and squeezed her tightly.

she cried into me like she did at the park, this time it came from deep inside her. something really bad just happened, i could feel it. y/n pulled away from me and wiped her tears, hiccuping.

"um. at—at dinner last month, i—i saw her." i paused at her words and tried to think of who she could be. and then it clicked. oh.

i nodded my head with a frown, tears growing in my eyes. "um—so i just left. i'm really sorry, by the way. *hiccup* i didn't mean what i said, i didn't. i promise." she leaned forward and kissed my cheek, placing her head back in my neck for a second.

"and she—she had two kids with her and they—they looked like four or five, and i only thought the worst. i needed to know if—if they were mine, you know?" she hastily wiped her eyes. my heart stopped at the mention of kids. did that bitch get pregnant with y/n's kids?

i nodded and gently stroked her cheeks over the bruise, calming her down. "so, i looked her up and found out she worked here as a secretary. um, i just wanted to know if they were mine. uh, when—when i got here she—she—" she trailed off and sobbed harder, gripping my waist tightly as if i would leave her. "she—she started t-touching me? and i didn't want it, i didn't! but—i couldn't move even though i wanted to. i'm sorry, i feel so disgusting—i should've done something to get away from her and make her stop, i'm sorry."

she leaned her face in my neck and my heart broke at what she told me. tears ran down my own cheeks and i held her tightly like she would disappear any moment.

"fuck, y/n. it's not your fault, baby. i'm not mad, i'm not. i'm gonna help you get through this, yeah?" i cried into her. i felt her nod and lift her head.

i held her cheeks again and she examined my face. "will you kiss me? please?" her voice was weak and a tear fell from her eye.

i nodded softly and leaned forward to kiss her gently. she melted into me, gripping tightly onto my waist. she pulled me onto her lap, whimpering onto my lips as i brushed her crotch. i pulled away with my eyes wide. "shit, baby. i'm sorry."

she smiled gently with tears still in her eyes. "it's okay, ari. it's just you. i know you'd never do anything to hurt me."

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   y/n's reunion with the rest of the group was tear filled. y/n made up a half ass excuse to her friends, not being able to tell them the real reason she disappeared. that night, she told steve the real reason she was gone and he held her until the sun rose.